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Opioids The only drug God made to make us feel normal/to unite us

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daveslaine

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I just tool 30mg Hydro rectally. My god this is beauty. Now all it needs is pot.

Why is there no drug that can make me go for what I love, no drug that gives hope?

Take benzos, nothing. Alcohol, nothing. Pot, super enlightened yet nothing. MDMA, far too artificial and damaging.

I moved to a new city, and am looking for a girl. I have all these issues still, and always hesitate, most likely fearing pain, on opiates, and not on anything else(ive tried Addies and Zoloft), I talk to her and sexually befriend her fast. I comfortably touch her, even tell her she's my girl and draw her close with my arms and hug her.

I feel completely normal, as if a child of God. Yet sober, somehow even with a clear head and a drive and hopeful motive to go forward, I still have this pain inside of me that hinders or inhibits me. No drugs can ever help it except in all my life ive tried, trams, codeine, hydros, or oxies.

Same with a super workout. A strong workout releases the heavy peptide beta-endorphin, though which Im immune to its profounder effects, do become normal and feel one with god and the universe until its no longer releasing.

I only wish I could have a forever supply, and yes, i know its addictive and the withdrawals are hurtful.

Doea anyone else sincerely feel this way? Please dont add scientific facts just tell me your honest feelings.

Also, i think now i want my major to be designing and discovering new drugs, what is that called exactly?

One day, ill discover a new morphine derived analogue.

But guys seriously, we arent normal without opiates.

I take 5HTP and wow, does it make my eyes wide awake and make everything bright, but still, it doesnt necesarrily normal, but opies, I love them, they are the only thing in the world that are worthy of taking.

Fuck speed, meth, coke, SSRIs, its all about Opiates.

Anyone else agree, and benzos suck ass honestly.
 
I know the feeling you're feeling right now. Know what it is? The very foundation for an addiction. you're already convincing yourself that you aren't normal without opiates in your system. I've felt that feeling, and as a matter of fact I feel it right now with kratom, and I am certainly addicted to it. If you continue to feel this way, and feed yourself with opiates every time you want to "be normal", it's only a matter of time that you begin to feel like you can't do ANYTHING without opiates in your system. I've gotten to the point at one time where my thoughts would automatically process like this:

Wake up in the morning->stretch->first thing across my mind is "opiates" and how my day is incomplete without them

Gotta make a phone call->better get some opiates so I don't mind being on the phone

Gotta clean my room->better find some opiates so I can enjoy cleaning

Gotta do something at work->better find some opiates so I can focus on work

Going to talk to a stranger->better find some opiates so I'm outgoing and not shy

Going to have sex->better find some opiates so I can last long in bed

Going on a long drive->better find some opiates so I don't mind driving for hours

.....then.....

Man, these vicodins have too much APAP and my tolerance is going up so I need more opiate and less APAP, better find some oxys....

.....then.....

Man, these pills take too long to hit, I should snort these and get a faster onset!

.....then.....

Man, snorting bothers my nose and I want to feel a REAL rush! I should try shooting them!

.....then.....

Man, these pills are expensive, I wish I could get the same effect for cheaper. Oh, hello there heroin!


See where I'm going with that? It's only a matter of time until your brain rewires itself to think like that. If you think I'm wrong or don't know what I'm talking about then you sir are in for a rude awakening....better find some opiates so that awakening isn't so rude :p No one ever intends to get addicted. Every single opiate addict out there thought to themselves at one point that it "won't happen to me, I won't let it". I thought that too and I'd like to think I have strong willpower.


Good luck man. I hope I wasn't too harsh, I just see an obvious sign here, and BL is all about HR...so.... Remember, the novelty of opiates fades VERY quickly into routine. You're already at a point where you take them just to feel "normal", and it doesn't get any better from this point forward.
 
Thanks, now i want to be a drug designer, whats the major for it called? The specific one.

Morphine analogues here I come to found you.
 
opiates are by far the best class of drugs. hands down.

iv morph> everything ( besides iv opana or dilaudid but i havent tried either of those )

and you dont have to get addicted. i use opiates as a twice a month treat. and its always iv morph
 
Ahh, I remember being at your stage, thinking that same thing. I'll humor you... 8)

You probably want to look into a course in pharmacology and/or chemistry. But I think you're overlook a whole lotta things there. Do you have any idea how complex said career fields are? I know exactly what you're thinking/hoping for, and no, there is no such thing as "a guy who just sits there trying to come up with new awesome drugs". Doesn't exist, just like how there's no such job as "video game tester". Sure, there's quality assurance, but there is no such job as a guy who just "sits there and plays games and gives feedback".

Chances are, if you got into pharmaceuticals, you're have to not only complete years of intense schooling, and then when you're lucky enough to finally land a position working for Merck or Pfizer or similar corp, you'd probably get put on assignments with huge teams of people, most likely just working on/improving existing (boring) drugs, you won't get thrown right into playing around with cool stuff nor will you probably even touch a pill or powder with your hands for years. You certainly won't start out calling your own shots, you may actually never call your own shots at all, the latter being more likely! Then, it would probably be well over a decade before you ever got to a point where someone would ask you to participate in the development of new drugs, and then even so, it will most likely be for something you aren't recreationally interested in, not opiates, amphetamines, benzos, nothing of 'desirable interest'.

In short, you're barking up the wrong tree. It simply seems you are under-informed about the corporate industry. Unless you are extremely serious about chemistry, pharmacology, and the MEDICAL field (not the getting high field!!!), and are ready to commit the rest of your life to this extremely complex and complicated career. Trust me, there is absolutely NO SUCH THING as a person who's job is design cool new drugs to get high on. Well, actually no, that kind of job does exist, it's called a meth cook and you may find employment in your local trailer park, apartment building or suburban neighborhood! Or you could travel overseas and become part of a heroin manufacturing plant, then you'd get to play with more opiates than you'd know what to do with!

Sorry to be the buzz kill. 8)


Having said that, you must be high as a friggin' kite right now. Amirite? :)
 
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I don't know for making drugs, but you need a pharmacology background / bio chemistry or what ever it is. And it is fucking hard as hell let me tell you. Also i agree, iv been through all classes of drugs and opiates always give you that inner warmth. And you can still wake up feeling right
 
The pleasure from opiates is so fleeting. It's really not worth it at all in the long run. I know what you mean about not feeling right without it though. I am a heroin addict myself. I notice how much better I function socially when I am on heroin. WHen I am sober (and this was true before I got into opiates also) I just don't have much to say to people. My conversations rarely go anywhere and a result I don't make friends and never have girlfriends. On opiates I can chat your ear off, but I don't get stupid like if I were drunk. So opiates are definitely my favorite drug and I wish I just had an unlimited supply.

Even then there are downsides though. I've noticed that when Im on opiates daily I need about 12 hours of sleep a night. I also get irritable when they are wearing off and it can be annoying waking up in withdrawal and always having to worry about fixing, like for instance if I go somewhere I have to make sure to bring opiates with me if I am going to be gone for any length of time so's I don't start withdrawing. And then I need to find a private place to shoot up and find a vein.
 
Uh, God didn't make hydrocodone, man did. God(if there is one) made opium.
 
Heres how psychos and people who are purely and plainly fucked up with evil hearts can be cured.

Pot, and opiates. Done.

I cant believe how difficult it is to rearrange a little bit to go from morphine to an analogue. Like seriously.

And im certain i can invent drugs. You just have to poke smot and then open the reality to it.

But im just saying i want to be that, i really am lost in careers.

Either way, opiates>pot>ALL.

Beta blockers too if they truly protect the heart.
 
We don't do synth discussion here anyway, and I don't see any HR question here. This discussion is better for the Other Drugs (OD) Social thread.

Closing now. PM me if you have any questions.
 
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