i myself have decided to not quit the scene, but take a large step back. i have just clocked up my 2nd year of raving, and my god i have enjoyed it.
ive met HEAPS of great people, and partied all over australia, but alas my love affair with raving and especially drugs has come close to its end.
late last year, a very close friend of mine got kicked out of home. he spent a few weeks with me and moved onto other friends places, finally after running out of places to live he ended up moving to brisbane (i live on the gold coast) and basically living on speed. 1. so he wouldnt need to find a place to sleep, and 2. so he wouldnt need to eat, all due to the fact he had NO job and NO money.
slowly i saw him changing, living on speed and weed, was tearing him apart. late october last year, he ended up snapping and tried to kill someone i knew, and then himself. luckily he did not go ahead with his plans, and returned home to his parents.
unfortunately by this time, he had lost it completely, his world had turned into "the matrix"
with robots and agents etc etc... after getting some psychological help, he was admitted to a hospital, which he now lives at in the Accute Mental Ward!
i witnessed his gradual fall to darkness, as it has totally consumed him. my friend has speed psycosis <sp>, he has brain damage from his substance abuse. every week, i goto the hospital to visit my friend, he is not the same.
for nearly 6months now, my friend has lived on another planet. he has destroyed UFO's flying past his house, he has battled an invasion force from mars, he has travelled to planets lightyears away, he has captured pokemon, and thinks hes a super saiyan. it is frightening to see him, when he is like this, as to him all this is real.
every week, i see another guy, he has been in this same mental ward for 2.5yrs now and he is absolutely gone, i dont think he will ever return to earth. i see this and i question what i take and when i take it. since all this has occurred last year, i have totally re-thought my whole drug use, and i have atleast cut my usage by 1/2. (im not saying i took alot of drugs, i was an average user) but after seeing what has happened to a very close friend of mine. id really just hope that whoever reads this post, atleast thinks about what they do every weekend or whatever, and realises that there are consequences to everything we do.
if my friend ever takes ANY drugs again, there is a very good chance he will NEVER EVER RETURN. i just hope that he can make it thru this terrible time of his life, and can become a productive member of society.
so this is one reason why i am taking a break from the scene, mainly i think im going into hybernation during winter (best time for it i think), but really im scared for my mental well-being.
this post is dedicated to my friend and sidekick...
OMO: The Fallen Raver.
thou the scene may have forgotten you, i never will! (get better soon my friend).
regards
Bester.
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