the new scared girl

[jc.butterfly]

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So, ive been shadowing for about a year now, and now that i want to become clean, i have a chance to jump in...i did go figure. lol
I am a intravenous meth user for about a year consistently now. before that it was about 6months then i was clean for 6mo. then a trauma happened and i sought out how to shoot up myself. ( my ex administered i to me before)
i am about to be going off grid in the next day or two, mainly because i have nowhere else to go, and my car just broke. (great!! right!!) hot sweaty..and detoxing.. not looking forward to it, not looking forward to the pain that i know will come flooding back that i dont have insurance for. dont know what or why meth took there place, but works better than all the heavy pain meds they had me on. but i can do this. i will be going directly into volunteering at an off grid resort with no electric for around a month, then IDK...
little scared. if anyone has suggestions how to make it a bit more comfortable?
Thanks

 

[Just A Guy]

Hi, jc.butterfly!

Methamphetamine was my DOC for a few years in the early 2000s, so I can relate with you, how you're feeling now, and what you're likely going to face when you leave it behind. The best thing about having experienced all the good and bad of methamphetamine is throwing its chains off once and for all.

For the first couple of months, I'd recommend a lot of sleep, food, and exercise. Seriously -- I think those three are the top ways to battle meth PAWS. Get outside a lot, walk. I liked to read and write a lot during this time, even if I wasn't able to ejaculate words onto the page like I "used to." lol Good luck, and feel welcome to hit the recovery forums for anything.

 

[herbavore]

I think going off the grid might just end up being more healing than you expect. Everything you may experience due to detoxing is temporary. Best of luck and welcome to Bluelight. I doubt you will be able to post once you are there but shoot us an update if and when you can.