Craziness.
One of my really close friends has taken a pretty unstable turn for the worse recently..
I have been chatting to him about some personal issues for about 3 years now, trying to help him understand his self a little better, as he is allegedly suffering from PTSD, brought on by a really heavy experience several years back, which involved him having to (while waiting for police for 20 minutes or more) physically restrain a very strong, violent & dangerous man who was trying to rape and kill him during a freak trip.
One thing that he would do on a very regular basis, is frequently ask me seriously in-depth questions about his mind and about the universe, about "coming back", etc etc.. Often, these questions he'd ask me would be way too deep and complex for me to even comprehend.
About a month ago he finally seemed to be showing strong signs of recovery and "normality"..
It felt so good to help a dear friend progress through such heavy phases of an experience like that..
But it all came crashing down a few weeks ago.
We were at a small house party with all our friends there.. When i arrived, i noticed that something was wrong..
He was basically unresponsive most of the time, just zoning in and out of reality on the couch.
I had a chat to him, and found out that his ex gf and his ex best friend were at the party somewhere..
The problem here is this; When my friend's lengthy relationship with this girl came to an end (roughly 6 months ago), his best mate immediately took advantage of the situation and had sex with her less than 24 hours later.
What's worse, is that this f*#%wit then went and immediately bragged to my already fragile friend about screwing his ex-of-24hrs..
The very next day, that backstabber and that hussy got on facebook and announced the formation of their new relationship, and never spoke to my poor mate again..
From that day onwards, my friend's mental health rapidly got worse and worse.. Then a little better, but then worse..
Every day he would question the unquestionable.. Thinking excessively about the damage that has been caused by two people who were closest to him..
In the end, his thoughts about the couple became so overpowering, that it became literally the only topic he would discuss with me and with others..
In fact, it bothered him so much that he eventually pushed aside the difficulties he was experiencing with ptsd and souly focused on this new-couple.
I would always stress the importance in finding a therapist or psychologist and sticking with them, but he would barely ever arrange appointments.
Back to the party..
After he told me this couple were at the same party, and how he had not faced either one of them since the break up, i knew that this was why he was acting so out of character....
Then, the couple walk in :-/ .. They said hi to everyone, then awkwardly said hi to him (the guy actually hugged my friend)...
I dunno what happened inside his head at that moment, but it didn't look nice on the outside.
From that moment, to this day, my friend has just lost his fucking mind.. To the point where I can't even help him anymore, and either can any of our buddies.
He immediately sat back in to his chair at the party, and started showing really disturbing signs..
All night long he would be sitting there, or walking aimlessly around, talking ABSOLUTE gibberish to himself..
I dont even think he uses real words when he talks to himself.. It's scary, and he has not changed over the past 3 weeks either..
he just starts talking to himself, then he starts pulling his own hair, as i watch extreme amounts of confusion and instability build up in his face.. And he just keeps going and going and going and going, until I or somebody else can manage to talk him back down to earth for a very short amount of time.. Then something triggers his mind and off he goes with his craziness again.. and again and againnnn.....
It doesn't make sense to me at all :'(
Anyway, i decided to be firm and straight up with him the other day, and tell him how i feel about it..
I told him he's gone crazy, and no longer has control over himself..
As much as I want to help, i can no longer guide him, until he helps himself out and arranges frequent meetings with a therapist/psychologist.
I got pretty deep into his head when i was unloading all this on him..
And since then he has been to one appointment...
He said he is going to reschedule more appointments with her, but i bet $100 he wont go.
As i said, he's one of the closer friends in my life, and he was such a stable strong-minded dude before any of this unfolded.
Im hoping something good happens with him soon.
It is just so god damn frightening to watch a close friend lose touch with everything in such a way :'(