Been feeling in a really dark place for a few days, trying to float on top of the water but feels like I'm drowning so to speak. I don't know, my mind is just blank, I sit there and just stare, unable to concentrate on anything or go to the kitchen to do something but soon find myself just standing there not having a clue why I'm there. It's like, so many little changes in the past week or so, people visiting for a few days leading to the dog to change his behavior and stuff, which usually means increased barking and always have to do something about that to respect our neighbors. Then everything just starts feeling chaotic and I cram into my little shell with complete social withdrawal as a self-mechanism, unable to do anything, eat properly, sleep properly... except during few moments of 'pulling myself together' every now and then which exhausts me tremendously.
I wish I could say it's just the ebb & flow of my life, but figuratively speaking sometimes it feels like it's generally leaning more and more towards the ebb side of things while the flow just isn't what it used to be and part of me fears it never will. Feels like I constantly have to put more and more effort in things over the years, but it could be that my memory is a bit selective when looking back at past and thus my memories of how everything used to be are sort of distorted.
Oh man, seasonal depression... just wouldn't want to deal with this right now at all, and why does it have to be spring of all the seasons? Works every time like a clock-work too. I guess summer would be worse though.
Re-distributed: Maybe you should just present yourself as yourself sort of? Without necessarily bringing it up at all, unless you feel it's kind of not getting addressed, but it should come naturally to the psychologist if the traits are obviously showing in your behavior. I remember when I had my psych evaluation quite a few years ago, I hadn't even heard of Asperger's and when the psychologist told me she saw me as one right off the bat I was quite surprised, later on I was thinking that if I knew about it and brought it up by myself, I would never know her true opinion without me tainting it by bringing it up. Later I think I took a similar test on the internet like those and, well I suppose the traits fit then seeing I scored something like 146 of 200 for aspie and under 50 of 200 for neurotypical, I can't remember the exact numbers anymore, I think I'll take it again to see if I've changed since I can't bloody sleep anyway.
Got me thinking about personality tests in general, anyone else done the Myers-Briggs Type indicator (MBTI)? I personally found it to be rather accurate, consistently giving me the same result (INFP) ever since ages ago I started taking the test in various places online when I was 14 years old. Felt like I learned something about myself and don't we all want to learn more about ourselves? Okay I admit I'm just curious as to what kind of results other people around here get

. Think we could have a thread dedicated for it too if enough people are in to it, seems to me that many have their own types of personality tests they seem to prefer.
EDIT: Might as well provide an actual link to the test, seems like it's become some kind of commercial hit so it can be hard to find a decent free test
http://psychology-tools.com/myers-briggs-type-indicator/ and remember as it says, try to answer the questions the way you are, not the way you would like to be seen as others.