In all honesty, my affinitiy towards MDMA is so strong I find it hard to believe people enjoy weed or meth more. To me the drug is actually perfect, not just at suggested doses, but at very high doses when my tollerance is low. The pills in my DP I've heard people put at around the 120mg mark, and I double dropped those and was in MDMA world and actually consumed an additional 3 over the next 8 hours, I know it's against HR to suggest such things and I'm unlikely to repeat this. But I was a novice and knew very very little about MDMA or risks at higher doses.
Prior to MDMA, whilst I wouldn't say I was depressed, I was definitely in a shitty place. Having my heart broken, earning minimum wage, working crazy amounts of hours and not keeping up in my studies and failed subjects for the first time in my life aswell as various other family issues. I was drinking heavily (Monday night local, Tuesday night city, Thursday night local, friday night house session and saturday whatever was going on). I think the problem with binge drinking to the extent I was (apart from the physical health issue) I would forget most of the previous night, and still feel I needed a release and wouldn't remember any convo's that resolved any issues in my life.
As a result, I would repeat.
I believe that if I didn't discover MDMA, this wouldn't have changed for a good long while. In one night of high dose MDMA, me and a friends friend, became extremely close. We opened up about everything, aswell as loving music, and running around the house like spaz's and just doing funny stupid shit. Not to mention the bliss of a furry blanket.
Alot of drugs need to be in the right setting, in my experience with MDMA. I have found it is good in all settings. I was thinking about the way MDMA affects the brain, releasing serotonin which is responsible for many emotions and feelings aswell as euphoria but primarily for empathy. And Dopamine being the "reward" section of your brain, stimulating and euphoria. I think MDMA is so powerful because the empathy you get from MDMA extends beyond people and to all things, I can look at a picture I have in my room or a photo, and now whole heartadly that I love it. Not in a fake way, but at that moment in time I truly love it. That combo'd with feeling rewarded the way dopamine I believe work together so strongly.
And the reason that MDMA whilst it's amazing by ones self, with someone else, you truly love each other, and you feel rewarded for loving each other, and so you love each other even more (I know I said Love too much but this is how I feel)
This also makes MDMA a non-violent drug (In nearly all cases) and one of the reasons I have much more respect for it, then I do for, Alcohol, Meth or Cocaine.
Also MDMA isn't nearly as bad for the human body as what many other drugs are, and due to the way it works on the body, educated people should very rarely become addicted to it by understand that receptors have to replenish to get a high as good as you're after.
And the ultimate kicker is the next day, it's like all the rubbish in my brain that I didn't even know was there has been flushed out. A Unique feeling. Also even if you can't remember details super well of the night before, you remember the way you felt through the highlights and certain things that are said or seen are remembered intimately.
