Rio,
Thanks so much for sharing your experience. I'm going through similar stuff.
My husband isn't quite where I am recovery-wise. It's one thing to resist dope by not making that phone call. But, when someone is shooting dope in the same house? Well I'm not that good yet. So yeah, same. I feel like I'm going crazy sometimes.
I've done well this past month. I used twice. Like literally 2 times total. So, I'm getting there - slow and steady.
Lovemissile, Hugs!! Rio, I don't know if you read this entire thread - but she has severe anxiety during the 24hr waiting period. Severe anxiety period. She lost her boyfriend within the past couple years. LM- forgive me for not remembering - did you lose him to an OD?
Rio, I have severe anxiety and panic disorder. Since I was a kid. And when that anxiety takes over - it's so overwhelming to the point of paralyzing.
Dope is her security blanket right now. What we need to do is figure out a plan to help control the anxiety so that she can start the induction.
I was prescribed Neurontin (gabapentin) - it helps to keep my anxiety at a more manageable level. I know I've asked already LM - can you get your hands on some Neurontin? Lyrica? Valium? Klonopin?
From what you shared LM, your anxiety is the main problem She's "getting ready" right now Rio. We both, well all, know how difficult that initial step of stopping is.
Rio, do you have any ideas to help the anxiety? And any other information you think could be helpful to LM. She needs our support. And Rio- well done mate. Good job getting back.