I've had a few trips which I'd say crossed the line of a high dose trip. There where a total of three trips, all three dosed above 300 ug (dosage confirmed by lab, which is legal and possible in the Netherlands, you can send in your drugs and they will test for substance and dose). Even considering my many 150 ug + trips were insanely intense with visuals beyond my own imagination at times, these three 300+ trips were completely something else.
The first of the three was when I was getting arrogant over knowing LSD's effects too well, considering my beautiful visuals to be nearly too familiar, and I was talking nostalgicly about intense mushroom confusion just before dosing. While comming up I just kept taking more and more on a sort of instinct and about half an hour later I was gone to another reality. The visuals, even though they looked like all other LSD visuals were so intense I couldn't see where I was and my trip compagnion kept dissapearing completely in the visuals, I litteraly couldn't see him, just a morphing mass of bright coloured patterns with faces. Also I couldn't tell the difference between coughing or swallowing and I could barely speak. 8 hours after dosing was the first concrete sentence I formed that really ment something, I said 'all is music and love'. Not long after I regained the ability to speak and had amazing insides. As to today I still consider it one of my greatest and most amazing trips ever.
The second one was a nearly identical dose but a much worse setting, which was all thanks to the person I was tripping with. We took +- 350 ug on new years eve, just around the year change. It came up within 10 minutes and it felt like a normal peak within 20 minutes, I was still sitting with family at the time but all of that was ok. My friend wanted to go to a party where all of his friends would be of which I knew for sure it would be a terrible idea to go there, but he insisted so I figured atleast it'd be interesting, and interesting it was! I must add I took a lot of dissociatives over the course of the night of that trip, especially a lot of nitrous oxide and some ketamine. Mostly to sedate myself a little from all the insanity around me. I had the most intense visuals again, loosing visual contact with reality on a regular base, as in not being able to see where i was at all. Luckely I remembered at all times. Communication was easier but very superficial, talking about what I thought was litteraly impossible. It was all a little too much though so I kept sedating myself. During the nitrous moments I got the middle finger from either nirtous or my own brain (mostly a bit of both), and it made me feel like I reached the ultimate nihilistic mindset. Also I saw everyone dead a few times which was more entertaining then everything else. A re-curring theme was this wooden car with table-saw wheels that kept cutting reality up and then the parts would slide off ecahother and mix up. Later more to the comedown it weren't razors anymore but wooden wheels, and I was the air trapped between the ground and those wheels. Again, just like the other 300 ug + trip at the early comedown I regained full speach abilities and had the most clear thinking mindset I've éver had. The way I could think goes above what I consider my normal potential in how I can think, and it was amazing to experience. Luckely my tripping friend learned his lesson yet came through the weird-as-fuck night without any problems aswell. I'm also glad he learned going to an alcohol party in a high dose trip is a bad idea, as he didn't believe me when I told him.
I must also mention the glory moments of that new years eve trip. It was snowy and there was snow everywhere. At some point I convinced my trip-mate to come outside for a walk to the park, to calm ourselves a little. In that park I walked on thick ice/snow in between black trees and a frozen lake and the visuals were as intense as described in the first high dose trip, the calmth was overwhelming. At dawn we walked there again and everyone had just around passed out from the new years eve alcohol (we barely drunk anything); with the early dawn and still intense fractal patterning and moving vision on the shiny white snow.. again so calm and beautiful. It felt like we walked into some sort of garden of eden. I must add, that 'car' with the table saw blade wheels cutting up reality was something I litteraly saw, heared ánd felt. I felt reality being sliced up and sliding apart. I assume this wouldn't have happened without the dissociatives, but still it was completely weird to experience.
The third one was just last month, the dose was a little lower then in above examples and I feel after summing up the mindset from new years eve its not worth mentioning anymore. I wish I could write a report for new years eve, still haven't managed anything close, so I'm just summing up details of it in a random order with bad desciptions, I wish i could tell in more detail what happened, and I'm planning a new insane-dose trip for august. Maybe not as comfortable as normal dose trip, but so interesting that nothing compares
Is it just because I have these thoughts in my mind when I trip, or do others experience stuff such as this ? Peace.
