Chest pains. I don't know why. Is it just tender due to wayward hormones? Is it the co dydramol? My left hand hurts. Every time I go to the doctor for a bp check up they tell me I am ok. Then my diastolic shoots up. Fuck it. It's probably just stress and worry. I guess rather than stressing on the negative aspects I should try and help myself. Yoga. Reiki. Exercise. Weight loss. No booze. No powder. I can do it. And it doesn't matter what anyone thinks. I can't poison my body and mind anymore. I can elevate without it. Wish I couls stop rambling on. It's exhaustion. I am so fucking tired and I want to be free of all this negative shit... I just want music and poetry and sunrise and beaches... I want to see the beauty in life again.
