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The EADD Mental Health Support Thread

I was supposed to be playing a set at a really lovely all-dayer today, so last night and this morning and afternoon I was selecting tracks that would be fitting for the time and the mood (I was going to play from 3pm to 4:30pm - originally 3-4pm ) and really put a lot of work into it.
I even finished a couple of tracks that I'd been really wanting to finish and to play out to people (not that there'd be anyone there at that time).
But when I turned on Traktor it was making the noises associated with the soundcard's driver not being up to date. But it was.
And, every fucking time I tried to sort it out, it'd crash and give me some fucking "Something's wrong "!" with your Z0003RDTO383002 file".

Tried un / re-installing it multiple times but it did fuck all. So I then got a new copy (which was also a newer version) and then that didn't do fuck all either.

So I've let down everyone who was counting on me. So then I sent a message asking someone, who would be playing similar stuff to what I had in mind, if he'd be up for slipping some of my tracks into his set. He read my message over 8 hours ago and no reply.

I've always tried to keep a crowd happy. I've always tried to get myself out there in any form. But it's evidently "not meant to be".
I'm probably a laughing-stock to this bloke and to many others who will be in the presence of having a wicked time, while I sit by myself with a bottle of cider and feeling like utter shite and a complete waste of Oxygen.

Maybe Traktor being fucked is a sign that I'm kidding myself for wanting to play sets, to think that people even remotely like any music I make and that my presence is welcome anywhere.

Oyasuminsai folks <3

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You probably aren't a laughing stock, man, and as for it being a sign of anything, that's bollocks. You're using it as an excuse to be really vicious about yourself, you wouldn't unleash such fearsome hounds on anyone else. It's fucking gutting being let down by technology but it does happen. It's obviously not what you need to happen right now but it isn't a sign of anything.
 
did you not just go to the all dayer anyway? I've heard your stuff and I like it. It's hot. technology plays up when it's hot. try something other than traktor. I dunno, I know nout about techno.
 
jancrow said:
You probably aren't a laughing stock, man, and as for it being a sign of anything, that's bollocks. You're using it as an excuse to be really vicious about yourself, you wouldn't unleash such fearsome hounds on anyone else. It's fucking gutting being let down by technology but it does happen. It's obviously not what you need to happen right now but it isn't a sign of anything.
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coincidence, dont get yourself down mate

link your tunes i dont think ive heard any of them
 
Thankyou massively everyone <3
I asked someone who was attending if they'd play some of my tracks but had no reply. Then spent the night in an Ethanol-soaked self pity bollocks thing. Pathetic really.

But yeah, I'm not feeling as shit today. And, as for my tunes, here's my soundcloud page if anyone's curious.
I'm thinking of not trying to do mixes anymore. I dunno. I'm a producer first really. I mean just look at Burial, he doesn't do any gigs, he just makes music.
But he's absolutely fucking fantastic and an absolute individual at what he produces, and I'm just some schmuck that sends his stuff out and gets no reply.

I've just got to keep going and trying to gain some attention from some record labels who I respect massively.
I don't want to send my stuff to just any old random label, I want there to be a connection where I love how they operate, who they give chances to and the music that comes from their label.
That's why I sent that link to HyperDub, but I've no response there either. Maybe I'll try again... Who knows.
Fuck. I'm just getting low thinking about it.

Again, thankyou profusely everyone and multitudes of love to you all <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
 
Is pregabalin any good for anxiety? I'm waiting for them to do me a prescription. Ive slipped back into etizolam, but nowhere near as bad as before. I'll still have to do another small taper. I'm bored of them tbh, that false shield that everythings alright, well.....................it's not alright. Fuck buspar. I've read some good reviews on pregabalin. Between depression and paranoia (sertraline, olanzapine), i need something to stabalize myself during the day.
 
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I'm on a low dose of sertraline for a small amount of anxiety, dont think its actually helps but i'm getting a placebo effect from it so i'm not complaining :), i used to be on pregabs also which worked okay, not as well as a benzo, and its quite hit and miss for who it works for. Definitely wont hurt to give it a try though
 
Hi CK, yeah, i dunno about sertraline. I have to take mine in the morning and i'm sure there is a very subtle calming and it's not placebo..................or is..it.................i dunno, but i'll give em' another go.

Wanna try the pregablin to feel "myself", yeah"myself" fuck off "normal", you make no sense.
 
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copyright your work moonsta - theres so much ripping off goes on in thias industry

please forgive me for being unable to phrase this without sounding like the most patronsing cunt on eaarth - technology and things do break, usualyy, as in your case, at the worst possible time, you have to accept it as part of life.

I broke about £3000 worth of stuff jan - march in my housethroiugh falls and neglect and stu[pidity (not saying those apply to you FOR ONR MINUTE)

anyway i hope you take this in the spirit it was meant and arrive at the 'philipsophical pproach' of these things happen and all we can do is aceppt them

This , as an attempt to be sup[portive, may have been the most ham fisted posts ever. If so im deeply embarrased
 
mydrugbuddy said:
i wanna try mirtazapine. Does that help you seleep ?

how does one do the switchover ?
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ii have suffered severevly from anti fucking nuttter drugs. , sorry they gave me akathisia, looked it up, you can't sit or stand still i am not really withit. Akathisia is a nightmare......................gggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

sorry, mirtazapine gave me akathisia. I am very sensetive tO ad's, i want a life.fuck off normal , really so i am.
 
Well actually if your going to take Pregabalin as a medication then I have a bad review. It has fucked my memory, made me put on weight. So I'm coming off it, did a good job for my back pain, but fuck the memory problems and the weight gain.
 
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