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The EADD Mental Health Support Thread

Ceres said:
Quetiapine made me bite my tongue, it was horrible, risperidone was the worst for drooling though, I hated the stuff.Trihexyphenidyl does help though.
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yer right,quet is junk.Started getting twitches,jerky movements,vibrating eyelids and eye wiggles.As soon as i get the feeling all is not right i ditch it,and make perfectly clear that i will not be taking it again.I never got this with olanzapine and told them i am willing to go back to it.The sleep is incredible.I haven't heard from them for a week now.They don't like it,it seems when they always think there right.I gubbed a load of etiz. I have been tapering,with success with these. Sertralines fine. Fucking pissed off to be honest. Fuck 'em,i'm keeping quiet as far as they are concerned with the etiz.

I suppose they are gonna fob me off with some other junk. I just want something to sleep and anxyiolitic.

good luck to everyone else with mental 'elf issues,i really do mean it,i'm just not that good at giving advice.

EDIT - The constipation from quet is horrendous,which also drags you down.
 
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Gonna have to get myself to the docs/drugs worker tomorrow - been reducing my subutex and i feel like I'm losing the plot a bit lately. Getting very anxious, depressed, don't wanna eat, not sleeping great and just getting repetitive thoughts and images of cutting my wrists open. Used to get quite a bit of this before i got into the hard drug and feel that was largely self medicating. Now I've given up everything except the subs it all seems to be coming back. Shit.

It's really fucking up the relationship I'm in too so not fun times at all of late.
 
Going to see a counselor tomorrow for the first time since being back in portsmouth, hoping it will be of some help as I haven't changed since I've got back, if anything I've got worse but done nothing tragic to show how bad it's got. Hopefully some regular counselling and then some CBT which he is getting trained up in will be a big help.
 
I know you're doing the right thing Mugz. Some people dis counselling (Cornish!) but the fact is we are social beings who often need help to overcome what are essentially social issues. You being fucked up is NOT all your fault, mate. You need to take responsibility for dealing with it, but you don't need to take the blame, and you don't need to try to do it all by yourself. That would be stupid. Destined to failure.

Now, Cornish is not a cunt and I'm sure he means well, for some people that approach is fine. But not for everyone. So don't listen to Cornish, expect to take from it that you are ulimately responsible for getting better.

And some people are cunts who know fuck all about it, ignore them politely. Then kill with your walking stick.


You must be HONEST with your counsellor. You must be HONEST with yourself too! Have a word with them about confidentiallity first if necessary. But you can't hold back stuff that may be relevant.

Be willing to defend your own analysis of the situation and don't let the counsellor just lead you down text-book paths. On the other hand, keep an open mind and be aware your own analysis may be flawed. You prize yourself on an open mind, so keep one.




Mantra words: Trust, Honesty, Confidence, Mild and intelligently expressed Scepticism. Open mind. Responsibility. Willingness to accept help.

Bingo.


Then, when you leave your counselling session, make sure you've whittled a nice sharp point on that walking branch, cos I'll be waiting outside ;)

Oh yeah, put yourself into the counselling. "Be generous with yourself". Make it something YOU are doing. Don't turn up to the sessions expecting to be hand-held led on the way to nirvana. You need to do work between the sessions. I can give you some pointers on that if you need some.
 
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+1 for a very compassionate post there knock, nice one. Good words for me to hang onto as well
..I'm about to get off to the doctors to ask for more help and am pretty nervous if truth be told. Always find it really hard to convey the problems as they are so I've written a list last night while it was all more intense. We'll see where i get with this.....
 
Well, just seen her and have had my ad's changed to sertraline and an appointment with the community mental 'elf team made. Just hate the way they love to push these strong psychotropics on you but baulk at the thought of giving you diaz even for a few days to simply get some rest. Yes, i do imagine that my issues with smack male her all the more hesitant to do so but still, the point is there to see.

Hopefully once i actually can talk to someone things should ease up. The last year has been just too much for both my gf and me. This should be a time for her to feel all loved after and safe and instead I'm making it harder. I knew they'd be some kind of rebound from taking virtually all the drugs away that i use to cope with but this has come as a bit of a surprise. Is there any particular stage of depression + anxiety that they might consider quetiapine or similar? Just want to look them up a bit if someone's gonna start suggesting them. Not sure i like the look of the side effects from my short time as a nurse so far though...
 
amnesiaseizure said:
Gonna have to get myself to the docs/drugs worker tomorrow - been reducing my subutex and i feel like I'm losing the plot a bit lately. Getting very anxious, depressed, don't wanna eat, not sleeping great and just getting repetitive thoughts and images of cutting my wrists open. Used to get quite a bit of this before i got into the hard drug and feel that was largely self medicating. Now I've given up everything except the subs it all seems to be coming back. Shit.

It's really fucking up the relationship I'm in too so not fun times at all of late.
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How much are you on? and how rapidly have you been dropping? I am on 5.6 been dropping a g a week for a month at least now, does feel a bit rapid if im being honest. Can feel it physically as well which is shit. Gonna stick here for a few more more weeks I reckon.

Please don't hurt yourself
 
I began the rx sometime in July i think (bit hazy as i had a nasty bike accident and was concussed for a month or so) and was on 12mg plus 40mg of diaz a day. Came off the diaz in a few weeks and have got down to 2.4mg about 2 week ago. Was just steadily going down about 0.5 every 3-4 days but i had one slip up by taking a load of sub for "a treat" (which it wasn't) that set me back a couple of weeks' hard work. But yeah, yesterday i necked 8mg after a day of being wound up and anxious and today 4mg so far. I'm gonna chat to my druggie doctor today and tell him i think i need to go up a bit and stop for a wee while. It's just very odd to have literally knocked out all of the usual chemical coping measures. Thought i
could handle it better...but then i often do - NA would go to town on that admission ey?

Thanks Backroll, I'll try and go a bit easier on myself. Having this baby on it's way is fucking freaky though ey? IIRC you're in the same boat right? Also, is it just you that was using opiates in the relationship? Feel free to PM if u wanna keep it more private. Would certainly be good to chat to another expectant father for support and solidarity and all that!
 
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Result. Shrink turned up yesterday evening with a script for 14, 10 mgs zolpidem out the blue. 1-10mg = zonked. Bit too strong.Gonna go for half a tab tonight,see how i get on.

Although the Quetiapine put me out for the night,despite side effects,after quitting them insomnia has been a bigger problem than usual.
 
Fuckin' 'ell,talk about rapid tolerance (zolpidem).Another 10 mgs last night didn't do much. Taken 20mgs and feel a bit 'happy' but not in the least bit tired.

Would adding a low dose of 2.5 mgs of olanzapine be risky? I've got some leftovers from a previous script.

EDIT - Took 5mgs of olanzapine and 2 mgs of etiz on top.

Tomorrow,i'm gonna take 15 mgs of olanzapine and give the zolpidem a miss.
 
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When I was 8 my mum bought me a keyring, it read: "I'm not weird, I'm gifted." 30 years later, I have all manner of mental problems: depression, social anxiety, mania, insomnia, paranoia, etc. I mean, people shiver when I pass them in the street. But I'm very creative, too - something I don't think would have come so naturally if I'd not been a little kooky in the neurons. I realise now - that keyring - "I'm not weird, I'm gifted", was a gesture from a loving mother who knew...she knew I was fucked up but she was just saying, "Use it, lad, use it." And that's what ya gotta do!
 
darkinthepark said:
if diagnosed with a problem will the doctor notify the dvla and me lose my driving license¿ i know minor issues and they dont but think by law the doc has too¿
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They should do but it's a grey area my advice is if you are fit to drive just keep quiet . I've been told that if your on over 35ml of Methadone then you can have your licsence taken . i'm not sure i believe this though 35ml is just a random number like how did they pick that as opposed to say 45ml ?

What is the peoblem you are speaking of PM me if you don't want to put it up here .
 
brimz said:
They should do but it's a grey area my advice is if you are fit to drive just keep quiet . I've been told that if your on over 35ml of Methadone then you can have your licsence taken . i'm not sure i believe this though 35ml is just a random number like how did they pick that as opposed to say 45ml ?

What is the peoblem you are speaking of PM me if you don't want to put it up here .
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my mate had his license revoked and cant get it back till off script and has passed 3 random drug tests. its nothing major ~bi polar and have been experiencing skitopherenic episodes which i put down to drug use and insomnia. been 4 weeks off my script so not been sleeping well at all.
 
I've posted this over in TDS but thought people here might be able to offer some advice:-

I've been taking Venflaxine (Effexor) for at least a couple of years, I take 150mgs XR daily. I had a quite bad breakdown a few years back and suffered really crippling depression which led to a short stay in secure residential care.

I was on antiphychotics (Chlorpromazine) for a while and then a whole serial of ADs trying to find one that worked, I tried a period of no ADs which almost led to a relapse, at which point I started on the Venlafaxine.

Out of all the drugs I've taken to try and get myself back on track this one has worked best, I managed to stop drinking and so qualify for CBT which has helped no end, I was planning to start coming of the Venlafaxine this year but i had a motorcycle accident in May and have only just got properly back on my feet.

I do suffer some side effects from the drug but my main concern if the compressed emotional state, I feel that I'm now in a place to start moving forward further than this state will allow so it's time to come off it and really stand on my feet. I want my feelings back but as the saem time I'm worried I'll relapse and let people down by getting myself in a mess again.

I read quite allot about the discontinuation syndrome from coming off of it and that does concern me, I have read about using Prozac to soften the symptoms but I do not tolerate SSRIs at all, Prozac makes really sick very quickly as do all the other SSRIs I've tried.

Does anyone have experience of this or could offer and real world advice, I'd be very interested to here it.
 
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