The EADD Mental Health Support Thread

[Marmalade]

Or I might

'shrooms are my world. theyre free

You surely can't pick enough to keep you going all year can you?

yup. I take em about once a month atm, not daily, which would be pointless

plan on going tomorrow too. it's been mild, no hard frosts, should be plenty left for a final reap I hope. no farmers mithering around either.

 

[Marmalade]

Hope everyone's feeling good today?

great to see most people are in a good mood

I've had no 'phet for a while [my DOC along with shrooms] and wont be able to score any for a number of weeks. I've been taking 3gs of piracetam a day, and it's awesome. cant take phet and that together because it doesnt work grand with my kidneys but I'm in love with piracetam anyway. amazing stuff for the brain and thinking sharpeness. love it. sometimes a little MXE in small dabs. tonight it'll be shrooms too

 

[ColtDan]

piracetam is good stuff gives me thought clarity, feel sharp and have some really cool vivid dreams on it. have you noticed any side effects from it?

 

[Myshkin]

I started this thread because i thought it might help folks myself included obviously , this seems to be the case , this has made me happy.

But because of the direction it has taken i don't feel that i can post in it anymore .

I',m not bitching , just its not like i'm considering using a bunch of psychs or K to improve my very fragile mental state.

I don't think it'd be the right option for you either. We have taken the thread down a drugs cul-de-sac, but then what do you expect from druggies? I hope people still feel free to post non-trip related stuff too.

I probably didn't point out (for good reasons - it tends to make people laugh or spook them) that I've had an interest in occultism and spirituality since my early twenties. It started out very corny and silly but it's something I've managed to integrate into an otherwise pretty ordinary nine-to-five existence. I don't own robes, I don't call myself a 'magus' and I keep the menstrual blood and semen cocktails to special occasions these days. I do think that the evolution of this particular aspect of my life has helped me enormously, both in feeling better about everyday life and in being able to get something out of psychedelics.

Don't get me wrong - I'm neither a psych hardhead nor some 'enlightened' guru type, but I feel I'm better equipped to deal with these things as a result of my kooky little hobby. Especially as dabbling in some of the downright bizarre stuff I've done (especially if you take it a little too seriously) can have its own implications for your mental equilibrium. I've been there too, with a towel on my head thinking I'm the next Aleister Crowley and scaring off a lot of my more rationally minded friends. A terrible look.

The fact is, I wouldn't recommend tripping your tits off, whipping out the your copy of 777 and putting a Swans record on to everybody. Not by a long shot; it'd be the perfect recipe for a terrible trip to most people. It's just that my particularly quirky mindset lends itself very well to that kind of thing. Plus no therapist would have me even for a seven-figure sum.

 

[Acidtek]

Sam I'm glad you'd mark our last meeting as a 'special occasion'!

 

[Allein]

Plus no therapist would have me even for a seven-figure sum.

Don't really get what you mean by that can you elaborate juts a little Sam

 

[brimz]

I don't think it'd be the right option for you either. We have taken the thread down a drugs cul-de-sac, but then what do you expect from druggies? I hope people still feel free to post non-trip related stuff too.

Not really, unfortunatley the stuff i was hoping folk might have aired out would probably be better suited for tds as i expected.
Maybe some bright spark could have started a thread about K or shrooms or drugs in eadd , oh we have loads of them already , just thought i would attempt something different .
Inevitable it went down the route it has though , wish i hadn't bothered cos it's made me feel worse now.
Not looking for sympathy btw , just feel really bad today , i can't stand conventional times when society deems you should be happy Xmas , NYE etc if your not well your only gonna feel good when you do not cos its a specific date.

 

[Marmalade]

Plus no therapist would have me even for a seven-figure sum.

Don't really get what you mean by that can you elaborate juts a little Sam

I take what he wrote as meaning it'd be far cheaper and easier for his GP to just refer him for a labotomy than sending him to therapy


[ie: no amount of money spent on a therapist will be able to cure his perversions mental health 'issues']

I could be wrong tho

 

[Acidtek]

I totally get what you mean about this time of year brimz, all this festive jazz is annoying and especially hard to deal with if your already not feeling good! Is thats what making you feel bad today brimz? If I think about it too much it gets me down as well, and it's hard not to think about when it's shoved in your face constantly!

 

[Myshkin]

Sam I'm glad you'd mark our last meeting as a 'special occasion'!

Oh it cetainly was!

atm - I just have the type of personality that doesn't respond well to that kind of thing. The nature of EADD allows me to be a lot more open than I usually am - in person I can be cagey, perverse, evasive and aloof, depending on the person or people I'm around, the mood I'm in, what I've taken etc. I'd annoy and exhaust and frustrate any professional who might attempt to step into my crazy funhouse of headgames. It would never work. Plus I'm egotistical, cocky and pretentious enough to believe that you don't need a priest to teach you how to say your prayers, if you excuse the ecclesiatical analogy.

And brimz - I get what you mean about forced celebrations. I still think this thread approaches things from a unique enough perspective to make it quite different from a drug-focus thread through.

Marmalade - How dare you! Though you're pretty much correct.

 

[brimz]

Yeah that n a load of other stuff .

edit - i suppose theirs hope for it, i mean at least RS hasn't posted in it yet

 

[Marmalade]

i can't stand conventional times when society deems you should be happy Xmas , NYE etc if your not well your only gonna feel good when you do not cos its a specific date.

I'm so with you.

I always spend new year alone. I'll probably be asleep by 12. I always try to be. my partner in crime is always away for NYE, and I like it that way. I'm in no mind to try to be sociable for the sake of it, when I can cocktail my own entertainment and drugs and feel good doing so, without having to accomodate others, which I do all through christmas. NYE, I hermitise. It's not very rock n roll, and I like it.

Don't feel bad for being a human and not wanting to be a performing monkey brimz, ever

this doesnt mean I'm a boring twat either ... I socialise, I love music, but I like to do certain things my own way. this day in particular

 

[wcote]

how be you acidtek? how's the subs taper going?

brimz you aint looking for sympathy, we know that, just a realise..... get the weight of your shoulders fella.......

now i yesterday took the step of going to an NA meeting.... i hate that shit.... but it did lift the weight off I can tell you that much!!!!!

Im not converted, I use smart recovary, as my group, but they weren't about.... so i though FUCK it.... i feel better cus of it.... Just ignore all the bullshit.

 

[Marmalade]

plus I'm egotistical, cocky and pretentious enough to believe that you don't need a priest to teach you how to say your prayers, if you excuse the ecclesiatical analogy.

same for me, truer words etc etc.

if you're someone who hasn't yet, or cant find their footing tho, guidance can be a much needed lift onto the first step of the above.

 

[Acidtek]

Brimz mate I know things must be really hard for you at the moment, not just because of the time of year, but I've been reading your posts recently and know that your having difficulties with your leg, I hope things start to improve for you soon mate! Post here if your comfortable or give me a pm if not if you ever want a chat mate, not sure i can be of much help but I'll do my best!

Let's get this thread back on track, I think it's important that it doesn't die out, we don't have anything like this in eadd and I feel more comfortable talking openly in this forum! Maybe I'll have to move over to the darkside!

 

[Myshkin]

TDS has some fantastic people and the staff there do a great job.

I sit here getting drunk and talking about sleazy stuff and feel guilty about how much easier it is to mod this place, despite the rabble.

 

[Acidtek]

Wcote, yeah I'm not too bad mate thanks, I'm on .4 of subs now and I'm jumping off tomorrow, it's taken a bit longer than I would have liked but it's much easy than paying for a habit!

How you feeling mate? Good on you for going to na! I went for a year, it can be really good for support, especially when your going through low phases in your life! It's just good to talk to people that are going through the same shit as you! Hope your feeling good mate, your taking the right steps and we all get there in our own time, I reckon you if you get on the subs mate you should do a rapid detox mate, it's pretty painless, take care mate

 

[Acidtek]

You trying to get rid of me Sam?

 

[Marmalade]

Brimz mate I know things must be really hard for you at the moment, not just because of the time of year, but I've been reading your posts recently and know that your having difficulties with your leg, I hope things start to improve for you soon mate! Post here if your comfortable or give me a pm if not if you ever want a chat mate, not sure i can be of much help but I'll do my best!

Let's get this thread back on track, I think it's important that it doesn't die out, we don't have anything like this in eadd and I feel more comfortable talking openly in this forum! Maybe I'll have to move over to the darkside!

I can see why this thread is valuable too Acidtek

posting in TDS can dramatise things a little in a way, but this kinda stream of thought in brimz's thread doesn't elevate daily head health stuff disproportionately, if that makes sense. a great base & outlet for thoughts n whatnot and how to deal with the negatives of our lifestyle choices & negatives of drug choices, without having to label it as 'dark side' or whatever.

[edit]no stigmas encourage people to talk more too imo

 

[Myshkin]

Not at all, Acid! Not at all! :D

TDS has a really good supportive social scene to it. I like to think EADD's supportive too, even though we're a bunch of sarcastic and occasionally abrasive bastards. I count myself as one of those bastards, btw.

People do actualy encourage each other and we have threads like the sabbatical one which have been really helpful to many. Plus you get to hang with the really kool kidz, which is a boost to anybody's self-esteem.