Aa34
Greenlighter
I'm on 10mg of subs, started on 8mg 2weeks ago then went to 10mg last week.
I'm seeing the doc tomorrow and I know he will want to put me up (he likes people to be on higher doses)
I feel ok on 10mg though.
Just having the offer of getting something more, even though I don't need it, will be hard to say no to.
I've not been on H for 5 years but still have that addict kind of mindset, take everything I can get, just for a rainy day.
The thing is I can't really tell anyone about this as they all think I'm this reformed person, completely over all that shit. When really, I don't think I will ever get out that mindset of always wanting something.
I've got a great life, I couldn't ask for more. I feel like such a horrible person just thinking about drugs. I honestly couldn't be happier with where I'm at right now. So why can't I just move on from this?
Is is anyone here completely clean? How long before you didn't want/think about using?
I'm seeing the doc tomorrow and I know he will want to put me up (he likes people to be on higher doses)
I feel ok on 10mg though.
Just having the offer of getting something more, even though I don't need it, will be hard to say no to.
I've not been on H for 5 years but still have that addict kind of mindset, take everything I can get, just for a rainy day.
The thing is I can't really tell anyone about this as they all think I'm this reformed person, completely over all that shit. When really, I don't think I will ever get out that mindset of always wanting something.
I've got a great life, I couldn't ask for more. I feel like such a horrible person just thinking about drugs. I honestly couldn't be happier with where I'm at right now. So why can't I just move on from this?
Is is anyone here completely clean? How long before you didn't want/think about using?