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The EADD I'm Fucked Megathread - Go nuts and have a brandy.

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What has "cocky super party girls" got to do with anything.... and theres always the ability to feel worse... or feel nothing at all. and whats "really important"... your coke? if so... lol
 
Because none of the cocky super party girls are super fucked up really right?
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No, but maybe you just don't realise how 'fucked up' everyone else is. All I'm saying is that if you're used to everyone telling you you're great all the time, then it's a bigger cliff to fall from when the shit hits the fan.
 
LoL I'm used to everyone telling me how shit I am, not bothering with me or bullying me. I've never known what it feels like to be told I'm great. From the age of 7 I was called named, pulled hair right down the ground, smacked, told I'm a cock eyed / cross eyed / blind etc bitch... I remember thinking "what do those words mean" and "why do those boys hate me so much" some boys made me show them my private parts behind the garage or they'd beat me up so I did it. And throughout time the guys who seemsed good looking with curtains hated me, stuck fingers in my face to see if I could see them, kids throw stones at me and just generally took the p***, made me feel like an inadequate p*** of s***. I learnt that because I'm ugly and had an eyesight issue was hated and learnt fast to shy away from people n keep myself to myself. 1998 I was introduced to chat rooms which changed my life because I could finally "by myself without feeling intimidated by people!"

Evey
 
Sorry to hear that Evey. I thought you were mucking about on here, but that's harsh. <3
 
Sorry to read that, Evey. :( For what it's worth, I actually kinda thought most people had childhoods like that. Kids can be pretty evil at times, but thankfully I didn't get anything quite that extreme. Meh.
 
Sorry to read that, Evey. For what it's worth, I actually kinda thought most people had childhoods like that. Kids can be pretty evil at times, but thankfully I didn't get anything quite that extreme.
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Yeah I think most childhoods are a bit like that, the harsh bit is if it's still getting to you for whatever reason.
 
SummerSerenade said:
I just don't show that I actually have feelings beyond being fun and making everyone want to be me.
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Do they all want to be you? Lol thats pretty highly opinionated of yourself to say the least... and you'll develop proper connections with people if you show true feelings, vunerabilitys, etc, close friendships and proper connection with a few people is more than superficial connections with loads of people... "that's the most honest I've ever been and I'll probably delete this later"... fair enough but theres nothing wrong with being honest
 
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True, but it's the sort of thing that fucks you up a fair bit, isn't it? Can't not do, really.
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If I collaged all the bullying I was at the end of, throughout the years, into a paragraph about my childhood, it would sound pretty brutal. I think the point is that's not how I see my childhood.
 
ColtDan said:
Do they all want to be you? Lol thats pretty highly opinionated of yourself to say the least... and you'll develop proper connections with people if you show true feelings, vunerabilitys, etc, close friendships and proper connection with a few people is more than knowing loads of people... "that's the most honest I've ever been and I'll probably delete this later"... fair enough but theres nothing wrong with being honest
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Yeah I really have such a high opinion of myself, really 8) Like that's even true though, develop proper connections with people bullshit who even cares about anyone else, showing my true feelings has never got me anything better than what being a cocky little shit has, less even. I cant even be honest with myself anymore nevermind other people, too fucked to care now anyway tbh forget it I'll always be ok because I'll always remember what I'm like when I'm not on drugs now :P
 
You'll never be happy unless you learn to care for other people. That's not some hippy bs, it's the truth (unless you're a psychopath, in which case you'll probably do pretty well with your Law career ;))
 
SummerSerenade said:
Actually feeling so miserable now fucking alcohol's never good reminds me of the end of my epic beginning of the year coke binge because no matter how fecking popular and hot you are no one still give s a shit and the only love that ever stays is from drugs tbh, funny cos no one would ever guess it from the kind of person I am but I never thought I would make it to 20 and still don't in a way.
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I wouldn't feel right if I didn't say anything but my advise is to becareful. Try not to take drugs as a form of escapism from any issues you're having. It will come back to bite you. Doing them for fun is ok but you can become addicted to coke.

Please don 't think I'm judging you - I'm not I'm just worried n care. I've never taken coke myself but have heard horror stories one a person is addicted n I wouldn't want to see that happen to you. If you want to do coke, then do so it's your choice n I couldn't, or wouldn't tell you what to do. But I'm just giving you some advice to be careful.

You seem like a lovely girl, you're in uni n probably have a bright future ahead of you. Also just be YOU in EADDD. We will like you for YOU. you don't need to impress anyone - and people do care. I think that's the come-down talking. You're right that it's more than popularity - people need to have true friends who are there for each other in tough times as well as joyful times.

I hope you're not offended my saying all this but it's a harm reduction site and I wouldn't feel right not saying anything n possibly watch you go down a dark road. Please just be careful and if you ever need to talk we're all here for you to give you support.

You're also more than welcome to PM anytime I'm always here, ok?!

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Do they all want to be you? Lol thats pretty highly opinionated of yourself to say the least... and you'll develop proper connections with people if you show true feelings, vunerabilitys, etc, close friendships and proper connection with a few people is more than superficial connections with loads of people... "that's the most honest I've ever been and I'll probably delete this later"... fair enough but theres nothing wrong with being honest
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WOW.... I actually agree with Dan. Very wise words spoken there.

Evey
 
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took some lsd (220 ugs) a few hours ago and think i'm having a bit of a bad trip. I feel really anxious for some reason, and nauseous
 
Is it the same acid as you took a week ago? Maybe you're doing it too often
 
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