Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
I know, look, I'm really sorry for doing it. I was getting abuse from all angels, felt boxed in, claustrophobic. I've always completely dispised myself so whenI was getting that level abuse I almost lost it so hit self destruct boughts lots 5g n shut everyone. It's like but it was difficult dealing with so hate against me epewhenI hate myself feealready don't neef more.
I'm sincerely sorry if I snapped at anyone, feel better now I've had a break. Thank you to all of you who have given me advice. I do listen, honestly, even if it appears that I aint. I appreciate time n It does meam a lot to me. Sometime I do my own thing it's a defence mechanism. i'm extremely indepemdent person n when I struggle with something I
Feel weak n frustrated n usually don't likr *doing such tasks* with an audience - would prefer to ask help off a trusted friend in private not with everything. I was hinting
Of this when I put "its complicated" so walkwd away because I felt really small, stupid n mortified. It's just bluelight I have always struggled with asking for or accepting in any n don't the negative attention it brings. So please accept my apologies for rudeness n hope you all understand my explanation n know thar I love you akl very much.
Sprouty / other modz I have posted this here as I felt it concerned 3-FPM. However if you
Feel my judgement is wrong please could you move it to Gibz rather than UA it
I don't like to de-rail threads but was not sure whether this should be in Gibz or here as it concerns 3-FPM?
Evey
I'm sincerely sorry if I snapped at anyone, feel better now I've had a break. Thank you to all of you who have given me advice. I do listen, honestly, even if it appears that I aint. I appreciate time n It does meam a lot to me. Sometime I do my own thing it's a defence mechanism. i'm extremely indepemdent person n when I struggle with something I
Feel weak n frustrated n usually don't likr *doing such tasks* with an audience - would prefer to ask help off a trusted friend in private not with everything. I was hinting
Of this when I put "its complicated" so walkwd away because I felt really small, stupid n mortified. It's just bluelight I have always struggled with asking for or accepting in any n don't the negative attention it brings. So please accept my apologies for rudeness n hope you all understand my explanation n know thar I love you akl very much.
Sprouty / other modz I have posted this here as I felt it concerned 3-FPM. However if you
Feel my judgement is wrong please could you move it to Gibz rather than UA it
I don't like to de-rail threads but was not sure whether this should be in Gibz or here as it concerns 3-FPM?
Evey