TheCasualSmoker
Greenlighter
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- Mar 8, 2014
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Well Bluelight, i must say, i never would have thought i would go down the stereotypical path of a drug user but im on the verge of trying cocaine. I have recently figured that weed and opiates are not my thing as they have never did anything particularly euphoric, yet amphetamine or "Uppers" have always yeileded the results i looked for in drugs. its sad to say i find the more hardcore drugs appealing, but all in all im here to ask a few questions and some advice, deep down i know i shouldn't dabble into cocaine as i have a veryyyyyyy addictive personality, i know myself and i know this is bad in all ways possible for me, but i also know a high that i like and i enjoy is important. The reason i say this is because recently my father has been telling me to stay true to myself, well in all honesty i like doing various drugs and i really dont plan on stopping
, i have no desire to be Successful in a from of money, but just feeling content and happy, i have always been a very unmotivated downer kind of person, unless on aderall or, MDMA, whenever i have those things in me im like a genius, i feel as if these things are every addicts story, at least to stimulant like drugs, but i seriously just have no desire for money and fancy things to make me happy, i just want to BE happy. i have mentioned joining the military without going through with the recruiters plans, my mom and dad both know i do drugs, and to be honest i think they know im content with my descisions of doing so. but i figured well if i were to be true to myself why not do a drug i like. cocaine is definitely in that category even without trying it i can basically already taste a euphoric presence just from the general idea of uppers or stimulants. i was wondering if anyone could share personal experience with cocaine good or bad and tell me there story's, i feel in my heart i shouldn't do it, i seriously do but i want to experience it, the whole im young mentality might fuck me up, everyone know the stereotype that meth,crack,cocaine is addictive, and me i was addicted to DXM lol so cocaine i can only imagine. Trust me im open to opinons and i will try my best to follow up on the great advice you guys will give. Ive also wondered if i had adhd, partially because ive alwways been in my own world staring off with my thoughts far far away. then again i know how good aderall makes me feel so even if i did get the script for medication like that im sure it wouldnt be a good thing to do, overall i feel very unconfident with myself, very loserish, and very much feel like a failure already, im 18 graduated last year and have been working at mcdonalds spending all my money on weed, i dont have a license or a car, and i just feel bad like i have no big plan for my life, no set career. i dont want to sound like a bizzzznitch but damn man like time is passing me by and im still at the same shitty job, is college or the military really the only option. Anyways my apologies for the wall of text, bad grammar and jumbled questions and thoughts, i just had to get some of these things off my chest and get some opinons, Thanks in advance :D
