Hope you feel better soon, levelsBeyond. We're always here for you! I agree with Nixiam that the purple-helmeted warrior needs some love. There is no use in limiting yourself in that if it makes you feel worse.
I guess I'll share my sadness too. Been feeling kind of down lately. For two reasons: I realize I'm quite heavily dependent on codeine, and addicted to intoxicants in general; the second reason is that because of this I haven't done a lot of work lately. Of course, I'm above the water, so to speak, and I've already done enough for this period not to worry about it, but I still feel guilty of slacking. Practically the only subject I read about in my free time is related to science, and all the time I feel self-conscious about being lazy and not doing my part in advancing it. Not that I'm doing anything overly important, but you can't help irrationality, can you?
And I can't go a day without using something. Not just something, but getting wrecked. The days I tried abstaining from codeine I ended up drinking myself stupid. I don't think there was a day in the past 365 days when I was sober.
Why did I write all this? Beats me. Guess I don't have anything better to do at 10 AM on a Monday. While drinking coffee with 1,4-butanediol.