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Best wishes, levelsbeyond--always good to see someone following their own instincts, even when it means making difficult choices. <3


@Ninae: is that where you live?? Spectacular beauty. My son's girlfriend just went to Norway with her mom (her mom is of Norwegian heritage and lived there as a child) and she loved it. She still has many relatives there so I am hoping my son will get to tag along next time. His girlfriend has a very exotic face-very round, Asian looking eyes but totally blue and blonde hair. She looks like she must have Sami heritage.:)

@Willow: I love that you are getting to know your little niece. That is such a wonderful age. Both of my sons were very shy when they were small. It made it hard for me to ever feel comfortable leaving them but it's great for them to know extended family. We didn't really have any family around so we joined a babysitting co-op. One night we had a Dad come babysit (it was usually the mom) and even though we had prepared the boys explaining that this man was the nice Daddy of so-and-so and he would read them stories and play legos with them if they wanted, they were still apprehensive. They were asleep when we got home and when we asked the guy how it went he said, "well, they were very sweet but very quiet. I don't believe your older son said a word to me or even looked directly at me all night. I read him lots of books and he listened but he did not talk."
The next morning my son told us, "Ha! Boy did I ever trick that guy. I was so quiet he never even knew I was there!" He thought that was just hysterically funny. Definitely supports the child developmental stage of reality that says if-I-can't-see-you-you-can't-see-me.:)
 
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^I just feel such a yearning to be there right now. <3

levelsBeyond said:
Man, I've really loved my time at Bluelight but realized it is time for me to go. I've loved it here but there is a part of me that doesn't want to be levelsBeyond anymore. It just wants to be a regular guy without an alter-ego. I'll keep the sparkle in my eye and the smile on my face. Wasn't the state I was in when I joined here. I wanted to be a shaman and had to shut that down; was a confusing road for me after that. Being able to be able to say I'm ready to move on puts tears in my eyes. There's gonna a period of changes for me and I want to be able to move forward without having to defend the past and keep the story going. I wish you all so many blessings, you've taught me so much. Where else could a freak like me find a loving home. Perhaps I'll come back and visit some time. <3 <3 <3
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All the best- thanks for your contribution. You know, if you ever wanna be levelsBeyong again, do so! <3

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@Willow: I love that you are getting to know your little niece. That is such a wonderful age. Both of my sons were very shy when they were small. It made it hard for me to ever feel comfortable leaving them but it's great for them to know extended family. We didn't really have any family around so we joined a babysitting co-op. One night we had a Dad come babysit (it was usually the mom) and even though we had prepared the boys explaining that this man was the nice Daddy of so-and-so and he would read them stories and play legos with them if they wanted, they were still apprehensive. They were asleep when we got home and when we asked the guy how it went he said, "well, they were very sweet but very quiet. I don't believe your older son said a word to me or even looked directly at me all night. I read him lots of books and he listened but he did not talk."
The next morning my son told us, "Ha! Boy did I ever trick that guy. I was so quiet he never even knew I was there!" He thought that was just hysterically funny. Definitely supports the child developmental stage of reality that says if-I-can't-see-you-you-can't-see-me.:)
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There is certainly a lot more running below the surface of children. My niece just has those wise eyes. Looking up, taking it all in. She was very well behaved, she ate all her vegetables and apples but she didn't wanna sleep. She just kept calling out to us (non verbal) and throwing her dummy on the ground. I got her up and sat her with me and we watched the football until she went to sleep.

I think she is gettting less scared of me. She is terrified of her other uncle (my brother-in-laws brother) who is this enormous, dark skinned, hairy, gentle giant who is a lawyer and artist and totally dominating personality. She cries when he speaks; he has a voice like a trombone. At least I am not that inherently terrifying to her :D I can get her to laugh if I drop things and pretend to fall over, so I did that a lot....:D
 
It's easy to romanticise places from a distance. When it becomes part of your everyday-life it's not so easy. I think wherever you live soon becomes associated with mundane reality (unless it's very big).

I know many who have gone to live abroad just because they like the language or the music-scene, etc. It's kind of crazy, but a lot of people do something like that if they come from a small or boring place.
 
Just a little advice. This is a great high-concentrate Valerian powder. It's quite sedative, and even shitty pharmcacy-grade Valerian is good for withdrawals in high enough amonts, so that should be good.
 
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NSFW:
I've been PM'd by a regular, saying I'm not welcome here.
So, I've thought about it and I'm not coming back to P&S.

I'm sorry if I've been a bit turbulent recently.
It's never nice finding out you're unwelcome.
(I realize not everybody feels the same.)

But - also - I'm tired of apologizing all the time, on here.
I'd rather have a discussion with less sensitive people.

I appreciate the time I've spent on here.
Again, apologies if I've caused any offense.
I'm just used to people who are more tolerant of "abuse".
(I got banned for a day for using the word nincompoop.)

It's time for me to move on.
Good luck guys.

And, for the last time: sorry.

:)

Words are just words.

-FEA
 
"I reached inside myself and found nothing there to ease the pressure of my ever-worrying mind."
 
"We're all so clogged with dead ideas
passed from generation to generation
that even the best of us don't know the way out -
We invented the Revolution
but we don't know how to run it"

- The Persecution and Assassination of Jean-Paul Marat As Performed by the Inmates of the Asylum of Charenton under the Direction of the Marquis de Sade, a play be Peter Weiss
 
I'm so tired of snobbery. My mother was from a very conservative family and my dad is from a poorer family. But now I just find all kinds of social pretentions annoying.
 
I hope the universe blesses you with a moment of peace this week. You're doing the right thing, and you're going to be okay.
 
"Seek refuge in your life". One thing of value my father would say.

I don't know what it means, but I think- rather then try and escape your situation, find the inherent comfort in the mundane/everyday. Mindfullness perhaps...
 
Damn it, another police raid of my apartment this morning. Dragging me out of bed just to search in vain for more Kratom which I last tried to order last month, I was pissed as hell. On the upside, by now I'm on personal good terms with the local female police officer.
 
Not really traumatic, but it is stressful. Has happened too many times by now and here they are very soft. Besides they well know the worst they can hope to find is some legal downers for my own use, they just have to do it by routine. But it makes me really irritable at first to be woken up that way.
 
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