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[bird.is.the.word]

What would happen if he just went to the hospital and claimed some random whack job stabbed him? I don't know how deep the wounds were but he might die next time if it hits a major organ and goes untreated.

I'm not judging either. I've done much worse than theft.

 

[Robi]

 

[n3ophy7e]

it's easier to do when you stop stealing.

no judgement, i've done shit too. it's easier to seek help from the community, when I stopped being a member of society that was making it worse.

Yeah and it makes people much less likely to reach out for support here if they feel judged in any way so please reserve judgement of any kind. Like you said, you've done shit too. I've done shit, bird's done shit (hehehe), we've all done shit, so let's not condemn each other. We're here to support each other.

 

[Juniper Bruhmomentius]

Mah I robbed a music Shop at night after 4 days awake and doing 3 grams of speed that night. It was a huge mistake all along. I dont steal anynore too.
The attacker was the son of the owner of the Shop. Kinda crazy revenge, they got everything back with insurance.
Im getting a big fine if even that from the theft but had I gone To the cops he would have gotten prison. I was sure I was gonna die at that swamp..

 

[assclass]

Yeah and it makes people much less likely to reach out for support here if they feel judged in any way so please reserve judgement of any kind. Like you said, you've done shit too. I've done shit, bird's done shit (hehehe), we've all done shit, so let's not condemn each other. We're here to support each other.

i said no judgement, so im not sure why you are making me feel like a judgmental asshole

 

[assclass]

im tired of bullshit politics.

so, I started a campaign today. BS free politics, lead by me. I am running for local office, fuck the old jerks in charge.

 

[4meSM]

I've been miserable today thanks to opioid WD... Worst timing ever because I have a lot of important stuff to do. I really tried to avoid this, I should have some heroin right now but my source failed me. It was supposed to hold me up for 2-3 days till I can get a big stash of buprenorphine.

I don't have any confort meds available but I do have some kratom thankfully, although it doesn't seem to help a whole lot with the anxiety and restlessness.

And I have a zoom meeting in 15min, fuck.me...

 

[n3ophy7e]

I've been miserable today thanks to opioid WD... Worst timing ever because I have a lot of important stuff to do. I really tried to avoid this, I should have some heroin right now but my source failed me. It was supposed to hold me up for 2-3 days till I can get a big stash of buprenorphine.

I don't have any confort meds available but I do have some kratom thankfully, although it doesn't seem to help a whole lot with the anxiety and restlessness.

And I have a zoom meeting in 15min, fuck.me...

How'd you go man? How you doing today? You got the subs now?

 

[4meSM]

How'd you go man? How you doing today? You got the subs now?

Thanks for asking. I'm not doing well, I couldn't get the subs and ran out of H again yesterday.
This morning I woke up at 7am and went to one of those places where they're supposed to help people struggling with addiction. I was hoping they could take me in for opioid substitution therapy or at least give me something (was already WDing). Turns out they didn't help me at all, they didn't even have a doctor available... I also called a bunch of other places and it turns out I would have to wait about 10 days before they're able to prescribe me buprenorphine. Those places fucking suck, I will have to do everything by myself as usual...

The main issue here is the timing, it really couldn't be any worse. I have to go to a science symposium tomorrow morning and won't be back until Friday. Once I come back I'll be able to get some subs but I really needed them now. I'm thinking about trying to score some heroin in the street so I can at least maintain, but it's a bit risky as well.

Thankfully I still have some kratom, that's all I got.

 

[Nas47]

dentist told me i have my first cavity

i played too much turok 2, and fear dental drills.

mumbled something about, if I cant wait for it to get infected and removed under a general at the hospital, I rather stick a shotgun in my mouth.

They got so effective new local anaesthetics now.A month ago was for dental extraction of tooth with granulom.Did not feel absolutely nothing man....joke with the dentist about this med-"What you used?"-I asked him.Got couple of extracted teeth and always felt some pain,but this dentist use some new drug.He just smile and did not tell anything.

 

[Nas47]

Thanks for asking. I'm not doing well, I couldn't get the subs and ran out of H again yesterday.
This morning I woke up at 7am and went to one of those places where they're supposed to help people struggling with addiction. I was hoping they could take me in for opioid substitution therapy or at least give me something (was already WDing). Turns out they didn't help me at all, they didn't even have a doctor available... I also called a bunch of other places and it turns out I would have to wait about 10 days before they're able to prescribe me buprenorphine. Those places fucking suck, I will have to do everything by myself as usual...

The main issue here is the timing, it really couldn't be any worse. I have to go to a science symposium tomorrow morning and won't be back until Friday. Once I come back I'll be able to get some subs but I really needed them now. I'm thinking about trying to score some heroin in the street so I can at least maintain, but it's a bit risky as well.

Thankfully I still have some kratom, that's all I got.

If you get some kratom means you probably be relatively ok(i hope so).Better stick it to kratom,than go scoring H.I hope the leaf would cover your withdrawl,but may be you must take it on every 5-6hours depending on what substance you hooked.Crossfingers.It's alwful to withdrawl and in the same time to have a work to do.Wish you luck

 

[4meSM]

If you get some kratom means you probably be relatively ok(i hope so).Better stick it to kratom,than go scoring H.I hope the leaf would cover your withdrawl,but may be you must take it on every 5-6hours depending on what substance you hooked.Crossfingers.It's alwful to withdrawl and in the same time to have a work to do.Wish you luck

Right now I have to take about 5g of kratom every 3h or so to cover my WD, though I still feel anxious and restless. But yeah maybe I should just power through it with the help of kratom.
Yeah it sucks having to work in this condition, idk why but I feel kinda overwhelmed by everything. I know things will get better soon though.

 

[n3ophy7e]

Right now I have to take about 5g of kratom every 3h or so to cover my WD, though I still feel anxious and restless. But yeah maybe I should just power through it with the help of kratom.
Yeah it sucks having to work in this condition, idk why but I feel kinda overwhelmed by everything. I know things will get better soon though.

If that's what you need to do then that's what you need to do man. It's better than using street smack. Do you think it would be possible to use the kratom to get off H altogether??

 

[4meSM]

Do you think it would be possible to use the kratom to get off H altogether??

I'm not sure, maybe. The thing is I want to do a good taper and avoid post-acute withdrawal as much as possible, I don't know if I have enough kratom right now.
But no matter what happens in the short term I'm going to stop taking H in a couple of weeks (at the latest) as I'm taking a month off work to travel overseas.

 

[n3ophy7e]

I'm not sure, maybe. The thing is I want to do a good taper and avoid post-acute withdrawal as much as possible, I don't know if I have enough kratom right now.
But no matter what happens in the short term I'm going to stop taking H in a couple of weeks (at the latest) as I'm taking a month off work to travel overseas.

Well that's pretty fucking amazing! Maybe you could use that as an opportunity to stay off the H??

If you want to, that is... Do you want to be clean?

 

[4meSM]

Well that's pretty fucking amazing! Maybe you could use that as an opportunity to stay off the H??

If you want to, that is... Do you want to be clean?

Yeah I will take advantage of this opportunity for sure.
Right now I don't really care about being clean tbh, I just want quality of life. This heroin is too expensive for me and it has skyrocketed my opioid tolerance, a daily habit is simply not sustainable.
If I can maintain on a low dose of buprenorphine without needing to spend too much money that would be fine for me, at least in the meantime (and I know I can because I did it a couple of months ago).
The thing is, I've been interfering with my endogenous opioid system for 6-7 years now, so being completely opioid free will probably take some time as I would need to get used to a different lifestyle.

I've managed to maintain on kratom for many years but I actually prefer buprenorphine now because it doesn't require me to swallow a bunch of plant material several times a day (plus kratom is actually kind of illegal at my current location).

 

[4meSM]

I don't want to talk too much about myself here but just to give you guys an update :
I'm mostly fine now, managed to switch to kratom and I'm no longer feeling any significant WD symptoms. Still have some work to do but I'll be back home next Friday, we'll see what happens next.

 

[nznity]

Hey y'all was going through the Recovery Support Directory and updating some links, realized there wasn't a proper TDS social thread to update. But I did already add the current vent, song, tapering, etc threads to the guide.

Figured I'd start a new one. All posts must follow The Updated TDS Social Guidelines, Bluelight User Agreement, and TDS Forum Guidelines

But I figured this would be a good place for people to check in when they're going through personal problems. Or just another place to bs and update about your struggle with mental health and or recovery. Just a general social thread for TDS.

Hope y'all are doing well and had a good weekend

The prior thread can be found here.

Hey,
Is that layne Stanley on your prof pic?
It looks like, if it it's him fking legend man.

 

[Nas47]

I don't want to talk too much about myself here but just to give you guys an update :
I'm mostly fine now, managed to switch to kratom and I'm no longer feeling any significant WD symptoms. Still have some work to do but I'll be back home next Friday, we'll see what happens next.

Sounds great.switching to Kratom from whatever is good step.crossfingers

 

[deficiT]

Hey,
Is that layne Stanley on your prof pic?
It looks like, if it it's him fking legend man.

Yeah, sure he is. Pretty sure I was rocking a Staley profile pic when I started modding here so it's a little throwback. He's one of my favorite musicians of all time, we share a middle name, and I've long considered naming my first son Layne.