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The Dark Side Check-In Thread ver. 2010 > 2009

^Bad sunburn SUCKS, man. Hope ya get better soon.

I'm thinkin' of taking a break from BL for a little bit. Who knows? We'll see
 
I definitely wouldn't say that I'm addicted to xanax, but I got fucked up from it. It made me sucidical again. I didn't go through with it, though. I swore off it for the second time, but I still have them.

Does that count as checking in?
 
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im really sad to hear that overdone : ( but if thats wut u need to help you then im happy you really helped me alot thanx man can u pls pm me once in a while to check in wit me : )
semi- anything u say is checking in i check in evreyday it is very helpful for me this is a place to speak ur mind wether good or bad keep checking in it helps i look forward to checking in evreyday mayb u should do the same
 
Captain.Heroin said:
18 months and counting: no heroin. %)
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This is wonderful. You truly are an inspiration to everyone. This is the hardest thing to kick for most people and definitely notorious for being damn near impossible to quit. It's needless to say that anyone who can stop using it is amazing. It's also great because other addicts can look at you and think, "If someone else can kick it, maybe I can too."

18 months is a really, really good start! Keep it up!
 
OpiateSteve27 said:
heroin free since 1/8/08. couldn't have done it without metadone
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I kinda have a negative opinion about methadone because I don't know anyone who has ever gotten 100% off of whatever opiate they were on as they became addicted to the methadone and eventually switched back to doing drugs AND methadone (when they could get it without getting drug tested).

With that being said, do you still take methadone? If you don't, how long did you use it for?

Either way, two years is nothing to scoff at so good job!
 
totach said:
well here goes day 11 clean : ) but im really scared of the weekend thats when my bordem kicks into overdrive cuz i dont sleep much this is gonna b my second weekend clean but if me n my girl really break up 2day i think it will be a whole lot harder i hope there will be some bluelighters i can talk 2 when i wake up early 2morow : )
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There definitely will be. This board has been great for finding people to talk to so far, even when I'm a new poster. I love talking to people who need to vent or seek advice as much as I appreciate being on the receiving end :P
 
ONCOR said:
Wheee here I am. 2 months clean of Pharms - clear headed now and less retarded.
6 months clean of alcohol but I am oh so tempted to relapse AGAIN :(
Doing great and much happier. COPD keeps me from a 3rd relapse of the green stuff.
Wedding coming up this summer :) <3
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I know I keep responding to posts but I want to add another thing after reading this.

I can't imagine having a problem with alcohol because it's EVERYWHERE. Everyone I know, except for my boyfriend, drinks. I've made it a point to avoid any kind of substance, even when the only thing I ever had a problem with was opiates. I just don't wanna trigger myself by using any drugs period. So with that being said, it's a surprise to some that I didn't even start drinking until after I turned 21 and that I don't have a problem with alcohol. I've just never been that into it... I digress though; I just wanted to say that you must be really brave in order to kick alcohol for six months so far because like I said before, it's literally everywhere and I can't imagine if opiates were in front of me and available all the time on a near daily basis. I would NOT be able to stay away from them, that's for sure.

Good luck with your sobriety, ONCOR, and congratulations on getting married!

Anyway, in order to avoid making yet another post, I will mention here that I have been sober for about two years now =) It took forever to get here. There have been plenty of relapses when I had tried to clean up before but I think I've finally got this under control (knock on wood).
 
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thats a start u got good intentions i wish u the best of luck
as for me 2day is 2 weeks clean i really cant believe it : )
 
jumping with no parachute. this is day one cold turkey off about 40-80mg a day oxycodone habit. surprisingly i am doing ok with just a sip of the old dxm hbr cough syrup and some immodium. not looking forward to tomorrow but if its like this then this is going to be a cake walk. still feels funny not having opiates in my body.. my soul is definitely waking up again from being drenched in opiate apathy for so long.. this is going to be an interesting experience.. however horrible it gets..
 
Hi guys, it's been a while.. I'm not writing myself off every day anymore which is good but i still drink at least a couple of glasses of wine every night. I just moved into a house that is a bit of a 'sober house'. Except for the occasional acid trip they don't really drink or do drugs which will probably be good for me. It's still hard though and with how i've been feeling lately all i've wanted to do is go back to my trusty bottle but i'm trying not to. There's too much at stake this time. But i guess that's always the case isn't it?
 
^ Great to see you back around! Seems like it has been a while, ya. I think it's great to hear that you've moved into a better enviornment and are cutting back a bit on the quantity of alcohol. The mental recovery often lags behind the physical recovery, so just try and have faith that as days, weeks and months pass in the new setting, there will eventually come a day when it all seems to have been worth it.

And ya, there always is tons at stake. But just remember that alcohol will always be there...it's never going away, whether you're 25, 40, 60, etc. But oppertunities, experiences, challenges, careers, holidays, etc...tackling a lot of that stuff as a young person is invaluable. And alcohol overuse just rains on every single parade you try and start.

Keep trying. Alcohol can make life fun at times, but alcoholism can make life downright miserable. We're all rooting for you! :)
 
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nice man ur the man keep it up.as for me im not doin so well do to my break up n all. im really sad n bored nowa days. im still clean tho almost 3 weeks.
by the way georgi hows it goin wit ur pops?
 
totach said:
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nice man ur the man keep it up.as for me im not doin so well do to my break up n all. im really sad n bored nowa days. im still clean tho almost 3 weeks.
by the way georgi hows it goin wit ur pops?
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Havnt had any big problems recently, especially since this was the first month I was able to pay off my car insurance/loans on time so got back a lil trust with that :)
 
RedLeader said:
^ Great to see you back around! Seems like it has been a while, ya. I think it's great to hear that you've moved into a better enviornment and are cutting back a bit on the quantity of alcohol. The mental recovery often lags behind the physical recovery, so just try and have faith that as days, weeks and months pass in the new setting, there will eventually come a day when it all seems to have been worth it.

And ya, there always is tons at stake. But just remember that alcohol will always be there...it's never going away, whether you're 25, 40, 60, etc. But oppertunities, experiences, challenges, careers, holidays, etc...tackling a lot of that stuff as a young person is invaluable. And alcohol overuse just rains on every single parade you try and start.

Keep trying. Alcohol can make life fun at times, but alcoholism can make life downright miserable. We're all rooting for you! :)
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Hi RedLeader :) Thank you! That means a lot. I had a conversation (drunk dammit, otherwise i probably wouldn't have told him so much) with my housemate last night about my drinking problem and he wants me to make a pact with him that i will only drink 2 nights a week. I don't think he gets just how hard this is going to be for me. But it was a nice thought.

How are things going with you lovely?
 
this is the first week in as long as i can remember where i have taken my concerta as prescribed and have enough left for the week ahead. i'm proud of myself, heh.

i haven't been on bluelight in a while, my bad. i need to get back into posting mode ;) i've mmet some good people here! <3
 
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