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The Dark Side Check-In Thread ver. 2010 > 2009

Cloudburst

Cloudburst

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The concept is great, let's keep it rolling.

The previous year's thread is here <3
 
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well today is my 9th day of dope and 2nd day without subs i feel really out of it but thats it i really told myself this time if i relapse i AM NOT A MAN!!!! n i cherish my manhood : ) eventho i know relapse is pasrt of sobriety i think ive relapsed enough ill keep u guys updated on my progress i wish evreyone trying to stay sober good luck : )
 
Thank you for making the new thread Cloudburst! :)

And awesome work totach and villian!! Keep it up guys, you're doing great <3
 
yes i agree c.h i always read your posts and especially that success story you are defenetly a inspiration to me
n3ophy7e-thanx man its tough but today is day 10 : ) SHEYYYTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!111
 
Wrestling my demons, something I seem to have made a finely-tuned art form out of.

It's getting a little stale though.

I keep changing the rules of the game so as to keep playing, full well knowing that the only person I'm competing against is myself.

No winners, just losers... in a perverse bid to sidetrack myself from attempting to reach for the things I want most.

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Checking in. Damn, life's a lot quieter these days. Not sure I like it, but it is overall good for me. I'm out in nature a lot, getting in way better physical shape, and hoping the days of overusing alcohol are behind me. If I can get a handle on some major life changes, I'll finally be happy... I think.
 
well here goes day 11 clean : ) but im really scared of the weekend thats when my bordem kicks into overdrive cuz i dont sleep much this is gonna b my second weekend clean but if me n my girl really break up 2day i think it will be a whole lot harder i hope there will be some bluelighters i can talk 2 when i wake up early 2morow : )
 
you can talk to me dude......I know what being bored can do......shit I was so bored I went back to IV opiates and shit......its tough when you have nothing to do but watch paint dry
 
Doing better then last year. Today is day one from a break/possible quit of Cannabis. Still drink, but not nearly as much.

Almost had my dad die twice in four days, my mom was also involved in the second near death experience. They are fine but it has really made me think.

This year has to be the year where I really pull myself together completely. I feel like I am right on the edge of it. It has been a long battle and one that I can admit has most likely been going on for about 7 years.
 
phactor said:
This year has to be the year where I really pull myself together completely. I feel like I am right on the edge of it. It has been a long battle and one that I can admit has most likely been going on for about 7 years.
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ME too dude.......if I dont get my shit together I fell like this decade I will not live to see the end. Ive been fucked up for the past 10 years.......I cant believe its been 10 years Ive been abusing drugs already........
 
Pharcyde said:
ME too dude.......if I dont get my shit together I fell like this decade I will not live to see the end. Ive been fucked up for the past 10 years.......I cant believe its been 10 years Ive been abusing drugs already........
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It hasn't really been "life or death" for me for many years. More so "graduate school vs crappy Social Work job" for the rest of my life.

Honestly, if I had a time machine I would go kick my 19 year old ass. Granted I never thought I would have made it as far as I have, and for all intents and purposes I have made greater strides over the past two years then the previous ones combined but still... enough is enough.

I know that the cons outweigh the pros but I still seem to make an excuse every few months... start to free fall... then have to catch myself and waste yet another week recovering. Not to mention the energy I have to expend planning a quit and then going through it.. 8)
 
Wheee here I am. 2 months clean of Pharms - clear headed now and less retarded.
6 months clean of alcohol but I am oh so tempted to relapse AGAIN :(
Doing great and much happier. COPD keeps me from a 3rd relapse of the green stuff.
Wedding coming up this summer :) <3
 
hey guys wel i made it thru the weekend but i am in so much fuckicking pain im bugging out me n my friends broke night on friday n went to the beach yesterday n we all fell asleep n i got mad fucking burnt like burnt burnt im in alot of pain but still im happy im clean n im not even thinking bout using(actually im lying) but i will not use
clean since 4/20 : )
 
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