Pillthrill 2.0
I took this from another thread but I think it needs to be heard here too:
Hi,
You may already know me. But I would like to reintroduce myself and make a fresh start. I know that life doesn't have do overs, but there are second chances for those willing to grant them. The truth is I REALLY don't want to leave BL, there have been days where BL was all I had. I have made friends here and I care to help them and hear how they are doing. I hope that they may feel the same about me.
I understand that not everyone may be happy to see me back, I have prepared myself for that. But I will do my best to show the true person I am, a kind, giving, honest, understanding, non judgemental, sensitive, loving person.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I don't have my flaws I do, but I am willing to make an honest effort to just how I'm human that's all. I know you all have you're own very painful complex lives to deal with and don't need more to deal with. I'm just asking to a second chance to help others, and show the better, and hopefully steady recovery.
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As for checking in. I'm doing well. I haven't been depressed or suicidal in days. I'm not sure if its the medication or the new person in my life (more on that later.) I did see the psych doc. We talked and we told me that just because I have suicidal thoughts doesn't mean its instant impatient which scares me and creates distrust in the people that are 'caring for me'. I also scheduled a therapy appt in the same trip with a new therapist.
Now to the new person in my life. I went on a date with a guy that my ex had forbidden me to talk to. We just connected. He could handle me with my mental illness. He some how can see through all that to the warm, caring, wonderful person I am inside. Plus he likes to cuddle as much as I do.

He doesn't make me feel bad for cutting but wants to help me stop. He wants to help me with what my therapist tells me I need to work on. We will be having our 6th date this weekend and the other day he said he thinks he likes me more than he should. But as we got to talking we are on the same page its more than like but for sure not love. Our communication is GREAT and so as he said we are pretty much on the same page, same word, same letter?
Who wants to see pictures?
To answer you're burning question,yes I was high, he wasn't though. My DOC for some reason doesn't work for him. But I had to pick the picture I look best in, not the one he did. lol
This picture makes me happy. LOL :D