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dezz said:
i think the reason im buzzin so hard is sams diet, wow my screen is literally all over the place
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=D

Hehe

Got woke up in my sleep to a phone call with bad news.
Then i couldnt sleep so i just put loads of shit in my vape and just got the highest ive ever got.

it was cold in here though so i didnt like it 100% but then i just listened to dnb in bed on my headphones until i was tired enough to sleep........ some of those liquid dnb drops.. O M G
 
If I can't sleep one night, I jack off.

If I still can't sleep, I take 6mg melatonin, L-tryptophan, Valerian root and L-glutamine (usually puts me down)

If I STILL can't sleep, I down about 2-3g of GHB. At this point I usually
slam my head into my keyboard,
moan loudly,
fall to the ground and
stumble into bed.

Only to wake up 3 hours later thinking "I'm ready to clean my entire house. -___-"

I hate using GHB to sleep, though. Really a last resort thing.
 
So, I think I found the biggest factor in helping me sleep: white noise.
Not like TV static, or "soothing sounds of nature" or anything like that. Just a portable, circulating fan, at full power.
Problem is...it's winter. So it's cold, and having the fan going makes it colder, which makes me wake up with a sore throat and crap, apparently.
But, I'll take the lesser of two evils. The things that no sleep was doing to me mentally...? No way. I can't take it. Physical pain/discomfort? I'm kind of used to that with the fibromyalgia and stuff, so my pain tolerance can deal with it.

I still can't sleep with just white noise or anything, but it is the best thing to keep me asleep once all the supplements (and wine) have helped me finally fall asleep. So, yay!!

I still wish I knew a way to cure insomnia completely... :<
 
Good. About to go to class.

Sort of sick of taking wellbutrin. Lately it has killed the rush and enthusiasm I have for various parts of life. However it fights off depressing thoughts.

Going to discontinue it.
 
All I can say is more power to you! Seriously, just being able to discontinue a medication like that and on your own terms is one of the most empowering feelings! If the depressing thoughts start to get to you, remember that you can always come here. I, for one, am happy to listen if it means I'm helping. :)

Have a good class session~☆
 
Wow, tripping at school, couldnt handle that tbh XD This one guy took E once in class though, so funny he was giving the teachers hugs and all that XD
 
Pff my least favourite bit about acid is that it makes people look pretty fucking freaky. I remember feeling sober enough to go home and my mom started talking to me... everything looked normal but when I turned around to look at her, she looked like a freaking monster with her face all melting and her eyes were pitch black... freaky shit yo
 
SinisterMuffin said:
All I can say is more power to you! Seriously, just being able to discontinue a medication like that and on your own terms is one of the most empowering feelings! If the depressing thoughts start to get to you, remember that you can always come here. I, for one, am happy to listen if it means I'm helping. :)

Have a good class session~☆
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I have not been on it for very long. I would save compliments for someone that can discontinue long-term benzo use.
 
dezz said:
Pff my least favourite bit about acid is that it makes people look pretty fucking freaky. I remember feeling sober enough to go home and my mom started talking to me... everything looked normal but when I turned around to look at her, she looked like a freaking monster with her face all melting and her eyes were pitch black... freaky shit yo
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lol theres something about talking to your parents when their faces are warping... so interesting, yet so scary..


the only thing I can take for sleep is melatonin, everything else makes me a zombie the next day
 
Renz Envy said:
I have not been on it for very long. I would save compliments for someone that can discontinue long-term benzo use.
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I wouldn't discount yourself so quickly, Renz. Stopping anything can be difficult, especially something you've been prescribed for, for mental things especially; when a doctor hands it to you, it feels so much more like you should be taking it. That you wouldn't be able to function without it. But being able to see that you're actually better without it, making that decision yourself, and then being able to act on that decision...it's empowering. So whether you've been on for 10 weeks, or 10 years, it's still an accomplishment.

I could also be a little biased, since I have personally experienced antidepressant dependence, and was the one to get myself off of them after five years of being told I could never function normally without them. (Yay, bipolar disorder! :|)

Folley said:
lol theres something about talking to your parents when their faces are warping... so interesting, yet so scary..
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I cannot look at people when tripping (on acid, at least)... usually. There's been the time or two when it has enhanced things and people look prettier or more colourful, but for the most part, seeing their skin warp and stuff...it unsettles me. I can never look in the mirror while tripping, though. Freaks me out! (Makes candy-flipping hard, since I love to look at my eyes while rolling. Mydriasis, ftw!) I've never had the displeasure of tripping around my parents, though, and I can't imagine tripping at school or something. Seems like a baaaaad idea, to me.
 
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Wellbutrin is the best. It makes me comfortable to stay silent. I do not feel compulsive to tell everyone something. It has a very limited feeling of narcotic euphoria.

But it kills my desire to be motivated. I would rather stay at home and read while on wellbutrin than go out and be with friends.
 
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