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I have always had it without any drug use, but its just getting worse as im getting older. Too much cannabis can also make me focus on it more so then that way i end up thinking about it then.

But using drugs really aggravates it. Im considering stop taking drugs apart from cannabis and occasional diazepam
 
only just realised exams are stressing me out big time at the moment. feeling proper unsocial for the past few weeks, bit anxious, irritable and kind of frustrated at everything. not in an extreme way, but in a subtle way that's kind of built up and now im just a stressy motherfucker which isn't like me.

i think i'll just harness this stress and isolate myself so i can knuckle down until after exams. it's actually pissing me off that people keep asking me to come out or to chill with them when they know i need to be revising, which again is unlike me.

don't expect a reply to this just wanted to express myself somewhere and i don't like talking to people irl about this shit.
 
Chesh said:
only just realised exams are stressing me out big time at the moment. feeling proper unsocial for the past few weeks, bit anxious, irritable and kind of frustrated at everything. not in an extreme way, but in a subtle way that's kind of built up and now im just a stressy motherfucker which isn't like me.

i think i'll just harness this stress and isolate myself so i can knuckle down until after exams. it's actually pissing me off that people keep asking me to come out or to chill with them when they know i need to be revising, which again is unlike me.

don't expect a reply to this just wanted to express myself somewhere and i don't like talking to people irl about this shit.
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Same mate, exam on wednesday, essay due thursday. I've done no work today and just had a depressed day inside, just pronounces my social anxieties with my housemates. Tomorrow I gotta just get up and pull an allday bender in the libe and i'll be alright. Once its over I can go home and see my real friends and hype for festivals n shit.

I fucking hate my SAD days :/
 
JWills20 said:
Same mate, exam on wednesday, essay due thursday. I've done no work today and just had a depressed day inside, just pronounces my social anxieties with my housemates. Tomorrow I gotta just get up and pull an allday bender in the libe and i'll be alright. Once its over I can go home and see my real friends and hype for festivals n shit.

I fucking hate my SAD days :/
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shit man good luck with your exam. and same im pretty much just stressed today because i didn't manage to do much work and it made me realise i'd been stressing hard recently.

got plans to go stay with my mate in australia next year if i don't get into uni this year which im pretty happy about. yeah man the hype for festivals keep us all going through exams i think haha. would have had a 100 day break from md by the time i do it at global, gonna be fucking amazing.

by SAD do you mean social anxiety disorder or seasonal affective disorder?
 
Chesh said:
shit man good luck with your exam. and same im pretty much just stressed today because i didn't manage to do much work and it made me realise i'd been stressing hard recently.

got plans to go stay with my mate in australia next year if i don't get into uni this year which im pretty happy about. yeah man the hype for festivals keep us all going through exams i think haha. would have had a 100 day break from md by the time i do it at global, gonna be fucking amazing.

by SAD do you mean social anxiety disorder or seasonal affective disorder?
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Social anxiety. I get it in weird installments with different people. Hard to explain really, some people i just can't speak to and at uni more pronounced cause of problems last year and shit... long story.

If i don't roll before global it would have been nearly 3 months again! Chance i may go to a rave in june though. Not sure when to drop it yet either. Whats ya plans? Tempted to drop like 30 mins before netsky so i'm coming up while hes on, could be magic!
 
The biggest secret to mdma use though, is waiting. My diet is good but its not a patch on Waiting a good 60 days.

Chesh,
Exams are important and stressful too. The results tell you whether you have wasted all the time and effort you put in. Everyone has their own problems like i say.
 
JWills20 said:
Social anxiety. I get it in weird installments with different people. Hard to explain really, some people i just can't speak to and at uni more pronounced cause of problems last year and shit... long story.

If i don't roll before global it would have been nearly 3 months again! Chance i may go to a rave in june though. Not sure when to drop it yet either. Whats ya plans? Tempted to drop like 30 mins before netsky so i'm coming up while hes on, could be magic!
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social anxiety sounds shitty man, maybe when exams are off your plate you can focus more on your social anxiety to see if there's any way for you work through it.

i'll be going to a couple of raves/dnb nights between now and global, but i'll either be sober or do 2C-B cus i want my mandy experience at global to be one of the best. and im fine with sober raving (couldn't do a squat rave sober though haha). my plan for global is to do 2C-B the first night, and mandy the second night. dunno who's playing when so i dunno when i'll drop my first bomb but if the acts on the second night finish at about 11pm i'll drop my first at about 6-7pm i guess, but ofc i'll try and time the comeup with someone sick and there are so many acts i wanna see so that won't be hard.

you have to be up for Sub Focus' set though mate trust me he has THE BEST FUCKING LIGHTS.
 
Darksidesam said:
Chesh,
Exams are important and stressful too. The results tell you whether you have wasted all the time and effort you put in. Everyone has their own problems like i say.
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yeah im retaking my second year of A-Levels so if i still don't get the grades i want that's a waste of 3 years because im not going back again. but still i reckon you have a lot more on your plate at the moment man, best of luck with it all getting sorted out.

gonna plan out a proper revision schedule tomorrow, it will be planned around ritalin doses of course haha might not be able to get more for like 1-2 weeks though and only got a couple of days worth of it left atm. don't want to go back to revising with my thoughts jumping around everywhere tbh but i'll have to for a bit.
 
Chesh said:
social anxiety sounds shitty man, maybe when exams are off your plate you can focus more on your social anxiety to see if there's any way for you work through it.

i'll be going to a couple of raves/dnb nights between now and global, but i'll either be sober or do 2C-B cus i want my mandy experience at global to be one of the best. and im fine with sober raving (couldn't do a squat rave sober though haha). my plan for global is to do 2C-B the first night, and mandy the second night. dunno who's playing when so i dunno when i'll drop my first bomb but if the acts on the second night finish at about 11pm i'll drop my first at about 6-7pm i guess, but ofc i'll try and time the comeup with someone sick and there are so many acts i wanna see so that won't be hard.

you have to be up for Sub Focus' set though mate trust me he has THE BEST FUCKING LIGHTS.
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Yeah i've just started counselling, i know i can get through it. All will be good hopefully.

Haha missed sub last year so deffo this year! For one day i might just drink a few beers and then maybe some weed but i've never really tried it! had a few tokes on my friends spliff which made me giggle for a few minutes but no real experience. Buying some soon to try as it looks a good alternative to just getting wasted like i did last both days. I've sort of quit binge drinking as its caused alot of my SAD but for global i can see it happening one day cause being sober is only fun for a while. Defo like to try ket too just as an alternative for raves and whatever... in small doses it looks fun.
 
Folley said:
I disagree. Using any hard drug every week is a BAD idea. Be it booze, speed, ket, LSD or MDMA, it's fucking stupid.

Using anything habitually like that is going to make it a bitch to stop. Drugs should be saved for special times... doing something every Saturday isn't exactly special.
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booze is ok daily...

And if you notice i said "maybe try to go two weeks on the ket and three and etc." As most of the information ive found points out mental health issues being non existent in "once or twice a month users" and list all cases of urinary tract damage at 5or more grams a day for extended periods of time...

Look at the "adverse effects section :)
 
I think that ketamine should only be used twice a month personally. It seems it hasnt helped my prostate problem, i really dont feel well atm. Once a month ideally really, i wish i went easier on it.
Unless you are in need of it to potentiate Opiates due to a very severe pain
 
Just find something else to do every other weekend... go camping or fishing or something to pass the time... the hard part for me is going from daily use to weekly or even every other day.... once i get to a week its more about just not getting overly bored and being around triggers... i certainly agree that once a month is much better than weekly... just saying weekly use isnt the end of the world, or a horrible abuse problem, and dont be too hard on yourself as it will make it even harder to improve and cut back :)
 
JWills20 said:
Yeah i've just started counselling, i know i can get through it. All will be good hopefully.

Haha missed sub last year so deffo this year! For one day i might just drink a few beers and then maybe some weed but i've never really tried it! had a few tokes on my friends spliff which made me giggle for a few minutes but no real experience. Buying some soon to try as it looks a good alternative to just getting wasted like i did last both days. I've sort of quit binge drinking as its caused alot of my SAD but for global i can see it happening one day cause being sober is only fun for a while. Defo like to try ket too just as an alternative for raves and whatever... in small doses it looks fun.
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that's a good attitude to have.

if you're gonna smoke weed my advice would be to get a bong or a pipe, i find it much easier to get to the level i want with a pipe or a bong than with a spliff. also you dont have to fuck about with rolling. in my opinion getting high is more fun than getting drunk which is kind of convenient seeing as i can't really drink these days. try to get some good weed too, you want it to be niiice and crystally. if you've got any mates who smoke good draw get them to find some for you, good weed gives a much clearer more enjoyable high i reckon. cheese is usually easy to find in the UK and you'll know it's legit if it literally smells like cheese.

ket at raves is alright in little bumps, only problem is by about 3am i would feel really groggy and shit and you need to redose like every 45-60minutes which is annoying. can be a bit scary if you get too k'd for the first time at a club so i'd suggest trying it out at home first.
 
Chesh said:
that's a good attitude to have.

if you're gonna smoke weed my advice would be to get a bong or a pipe, i find it much easier to get to the level i want with a pipe or a bong than with a spliff. also you dont have to fuck about with rolling. in my opinion getting high is more fun than getting drunk which is kind of convenient seeing as i can't really drink these days. try to get some good weed too, you want it to be niiice and crystally. if you've got any mates who smoke good draw get them to find some for you, good weed gives a much clearer more enjoyable high i reckon. cheese is usually easy to find in the UK and you'll know it's legit if it literally smells like cheese.

ket at raves is alright in little bumps, only problem is by about 3am i would feel really groggy and shit and you need to redose like every 45-60minutes which is annoying. can be a bit scary if you get too k'd for the first time at a club so i'd suggest trying it out at home first.
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Yeah i'm lucky I seem to have met a good dealer and i'm getting a 10bag, no idea what sort of quality it will be but i sort of trust him as he takes it all himself and he supplied me good MDMA when he could have easily ripped me off. Doubt i'll get a bong unless I decide to do it frequently; I just want an alternative to alcohol so a few spliffs seems a good idea. How much should i be expecting in a standard 10bag? Really naiive bout weed haha
 
JWills20 said:
Yeah i'm lucky I seem to have met a good dealer and i'm getting a 10bag, no idea what sort of quality it will be but i sort of trust him as he takes it all himself and he supplied me good MDMA when he could have easily ripped me off. Doubt i'll get a bong unless I decide to do it frequently; I just want an alternative to alcohol so a few spliffs seems a good idea. How much should i be expecting in a standard 10bag? Really naiive bout weed haha
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depends on your area tbh. round here it's about 0.7g (some shit dealers do 0.5-0.6g) but i think in a lot of other areas it's closer to 0.8g or 0.9g

bongs aren't too expensive i've got a cheap little plastic one for like £7 off amazon. much smoother than a spliff because it's pure weed and the water cools it down. if you end up enjoying the weed i'd say it's a good investment.

and if you have a decent pair off headphones make sure you listen to some chilled music with them while you're high. remember to pace yourself as well don't try and smoke the whole tenbag in a joint.

weed's good for stress i keep it to weekends though.
 
Chesh said:
depends on your area tbh. round here it's about 0.7g (some shit dealers do 0.5-0.6g) but i think in a lot of other areas it's closer to 0.8g or 0.9g

bongs aren't too expensive i've got a cheap little plastic one for like £7 off amazon. much smoother than a spliff because it's pure weed and the water cools it down. if you end up enjoying the weed i'd say it's a good investment.

and if you have a decent pair off headphones make sure you listen to some chilled music with them while you're high. remember to pace yourself as well don't try and smoke the whole tenbag in a joint.

weed's good for stress i keep it to weekends though.
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How much for my first joint? Haven't looked into it much yet so all ya advice is appreciated
 
JWills20 said:
How much for my first joint? Haven't looked into it much yet so all ya advice is appreciated
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so many variables with that. that's why i like a bong or a pipe it's easier to smoke the right amount.

i'd say put about .1g or .2g in the joint at first, but it really depends how good the weed is. there's some weed we get sometimes where we'll have to smoke the entire tenbag to get high and some where a 0.1g bong hit sends me into space. but i have low as shit tolerance.

i'd say roll a couple of baby joints with about 0.1g in them, and as little baccy as possible (i don't even put baccy in mine). smoke one of them slowly while listening to some chilled music and see how you feel in 10 minutes then smoke the other if you want.

if you've got any mates who blaze it would be best to do it with them but weed is fun as an introverted drug.
 
Chesh said:
so many variables with that. that's why i like a bong or a pipe it's easier to smoke the right amount.

i'd say put about .1g or .2g in the joint at first, but it really depends how good the weed is. there's some weed we get sometimes where we'll have to smoke the entire tenbag to get high and some where a 0.1g bong hit sends me into space. but i have low as shit tolerance.

i'd say roll a couple of baby joints with about 0.1g in them, and as little baccy as possible (i don't even put baccy in mine). smoke one of them slowly while listening to some chilled music and see how you feel in 10 minutes then smoke the other if you want.

if you've got any mates who blaze it would be best to do it with them but weed is fun as an introverted drug.
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Sounds good, getting another gram of MDMA with it too.. Stocking up for festivals ;) hoping my friends fancy rolling with me!

Bit of Netsky - Give and Take for my first spliff I think. Cheers dude, hope your revision is going well!
 
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