First time tripping solo... Thoughts and advice?
So, on Friday, it'll be the first time I've ever tripped by myself - I took a day's leave from work for it! I have access to some acid that is tried and true, and the dose should be a decent one, but I'm not wanting to push it too far. One tab of quality stuff should suffice.
I've tripped, on LSD, maybe 5 times before, all of these were good. I tripped on mushrooms once, first time, massively overdid it (had been awake doing other drugs all night, cooked up what we counted were 150+ fresh ones, boiled them into a tea), and it didn't go particularly well - surprise surprise. I tried shrooms again a week later, and got a similar experience. It wasn't hell, but it wasn't comfortable. I found the onset, and visuals to be unbelievable, but then I got to a point where my brain was too far gone to process any of it, and was basically incoherent, hiding in my wardrobe. I felt stupid during both trips, and didn't enjoy it - I like the way I retain most of my mental ability on acid.
So, fast forward maybe two years, and I'm at the crossroads again. My life is, what you might call, challenging at the moment. I have to make some big decisions over the next few months, and I'm reaching the end of an era, living in Cambodia, and am trying to distill exactly what this experience has meant to me. The acid came along, and I weighed up the idea of a solo trip, and decided it could be entirely worthwhile.
I know this has been done before, and I'm sure I could use the search engine, but I wanted to try and get down a game plan.
I will have plenty of weed (which I'm going to try and avoid until the latter part of the trip, even though I smoke every night), cigarettes, music and water. I can buy benzos over the counter here too, so I'll be sure to have some some - probably Xanax and Valium, sitting there if required.
I was thinking of dosing at around 11AM. This stuff is apparently good for a solid 8 hours, so that'll put me through to the evening, with a few hours to process it all reasonably sober, before I head to bed.
I'm not in a wonderful frame of mind at the moment, but certainly a contemplative one, and I'm not in the depths of depression or anything, just a little lost. I really want to push the spiritual aspect of this trip - while I'm not going in expecting to discover or learn anything, I do expect to gain some degree of insight, however little, as a result.
So, how can I maximise the self and spiritual discovery process, to get the most out of it? Maybe this is suited to basic drug discussion, but I want to get the input of some of the more dedicated in here....
Thanks.