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Cut products from vendors are rare, but they do happen. Bunk product happens too, as do outright scams. If it tastes sweet, that's a big red flag, or if the powder appears to be composed of several different components.
The Big & Dandy Methoxetamine Thread-10th Dose-Addiction? But I'm only on it 24/7...
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I used to go through 50mg lines like psychedelic candy, tried a 50mg line of new product and got 3x as high. purity varies, I hope its not a diff chemical
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Seems like mxe just weaker... really tho at this point ive taken some mdma and am pretty trashed of just 80mg...also considering i took etizolam this morning, trying to identify mystery drugs by taking more of it doesnt seem like a good idea to me 
eye_wide_open
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Finally kicked my MXE habit and been off it for a few weeks. Closed my bank account and chopped up my card so I can't order it anymore.
Stuff I could get locally was crapola and doesn't even get me high or let me hole anymore.
Was awesome while it lasted. Damn, those first one or two crazy holes on the UK goodness were something I'll never be able to forget.
Don't think MXE will ever be like that for me again no matter how long I wait. Would probably have to wait a year or more if tolerance even ever does come back down and even then I don't believe the USA batches I have received and consumed to be as good of batches as what I received from the UK (still).
Lol, I'll never be able to fill the "MXE hole".
Until I move to a mushroom friendly state.
USA MXE doesn't even work on me. So weird.. It would be a waste of money for me to buy it again.
Guess I'll always have that story when we ordered up funky powders from different countries that took us through rides in the outer space mind while laying in our bed.
Has anyone noticed...
They haven't had any of the good "outer space" type trips on MXE since it was banned in the UK?
I notice this.
Also, wanted to ask..
if anyone else has been on one of these "MXE outer space" trips I talk about..
at any point during this trip did you feel the odd urge to raise your hands up for any reason?
Possibly "feeling like an antenna" or the uncontrollable urge to be in a "giving praise" type position?
Hehe,
just thought I'd ask..
these seem to be symptoms I've had while on MXE holes I'm curious about.
That stuff is totally weird.
Stuff I could get locally was crapola and doesn't even get me high or let me hole anymore.
Was awesome while it lasted. Damn, those first one or two crazy holes on the UK goodness were something I'll never be able to forget.
Don't think MXE will ever be like that for me again no matter how long I wait. Would probably have to wait a year or more if tolerance even ever does come back down and even then I don't believe the USA batches I have received and consumed to be as good of batches as what I received from the UK (still).
Lol, I'll never be able to fill the "MXE hole".
Until I move to a mushroom friendly state.
USA MXE doesn't even work on me. So weird.. It would be a waste of money for me to buy it again.
Guess I'll always have that story when we ordered up funky powders from different countries that took us through rides in the outer space mind while laying in our bed.
Has anyone noticed...
They haven't had any of the good "outer space" type trips on MXE since it was banned in the UK?
I notice this.
Also, wanted to ask..
if anyone else has been on one of these "MXE outer space" trips I talk about..
at any point during this trip did you feel the odd urge to raise your hands up for any reason?
Possibly "feeling like an antenna" or the uncontrollable urge to be in a "giving praise" type position?
Hehe,
just thought I'd ask..
these seem to be symptoms I've had while on MXE holes I'm curious about.
That stuff is totally weird.
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jones-in_J
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The most fucked up i ever got on mxe i was running around my house like a madman, stomping around soo fucking loud and yelling stuff (im not sure at who i was the only one homee) like "you look like the kind of slut that would take two dicks in the ass and not think twice ahout asking for a third" and crazy shit like that all night lmao
My neighbors had to of heard me banging around, the one neighbor is some older lady that is so scared all the time she wont even come to the door if you knock and are unexpected cuz shes worried shes gonna get robbed or some shit... i bet she was terrified lmao
eye_wide_open
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I don't normally give praise or lift my arms in praise to anything in my waking conscious life.
I'm trying to figure out what the hell was making me do so while on an MXE hole.
I don't suppose I was completely out of my noggin, just had some extremely odd urges to put my arms in a certain lifted position which looked like I might be an antenna or praising 'god" or something.
8( Had some really weird body sensations at that time too.
Wondering if others felt the same feeling at all.
Again, sorry mods for the double post it was a day apart and just trying to understand what this chemical did to me still.
It's fairly obvious I don't exactly buy the "you were simply dissociated" schtick. Something a bit more happened to me. OBE action.
I'm trying to figure out what the hell was making me do so while on an MXE hole.
I don't suppose I was completely out of my noggin, just had some extremely odd urges to put my arms in a certain lifted position which looked like I might be an antenna or praising 'god" or something.
8( Had some really weird body sensations at that time too.Wondering if others felt the same feeling at all.
Again, sorry mods for the double post it was a day apart and just trying to understand what this chemical did to me still.
It's fairly obvious I don't exactly buy the "you were simply dissociated" schtick. Something a bit more happened to me. OBE action.
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Thou
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In the sake of harm reduction I'm borrowing this from a trip report post.
I overdosed on MXE inadvertently around 2 months ago, around half a gram spilled under my tongue accidentally. Never dose from an amber vial while walking down a busy road. Careless and wasteful, but the experience was not without merit.
600mg I gather, maybe 400 no way to be sure. At least 400mg certainly. The vial contained a gram before I touched it though.
What I've learned here is that an overdose of this substance is rather like one of ketamine, merely anesthetic. I never passed out fully, but anterograde amnesia and mindless actions were experienced and also observed second hand.
Perhaps it could be of medical use at 1 gram or more, but we already have ketamine so why bother I suppose. Just a thought.
No toxicity noted.
I experienced no adverse physiological effects from this overdose. Whatsoever. This by no means makes it safe, but it's one bio-assay of a large dose of a substance with little history of human use.
If I would have been alone and at home at the time no ill would have come from it, assuming I didn't hurt myself during the blackout.
I was not, and merely suffered the consequences of judgmental family members. This factor is moot as it could happen with any psychoactive and with any breed of familial type.
Thou
I overdosed on MXE inadvertently around 2 months ago, around half a gram spilled under my tongue accidentally. Never dose from an amber vial while walking down a busy road. Careless and wasteful, but the experience was not without merit.
600mg I gather, maybe 400 no way to be sure. At least 400mg certainly. The vial contained a gram before I touched it though.
What I've learned here is that an overdose of this substance is rather like one of ketamine, merely anesthetic. I never passed out fully, but anterograde amnesia and mindless actions were experienced and also observed second hand.
Perhaps it could be of medical use at 1 gram or more, but we already have ketamine so why bother I suppose. Just a thought.
No toxicity noted.
I experienced no adverse physiological effects from this overdose. Whatsoever. This by no means makes it safe, but it's one bio-assay of a large dose of a substance with little history of human use.
If I would have been alone and at home at the time no ill would have come from it, assuming I didn't hurt myself during the blackout.
I was not, and merely suffered the consequences of judgmental family members. This factor is moot as it could happen with any psychoactive and with any breed of familial type.
Thou
ColtDan
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i end up meditating sometimes, feel like a budda on this stuff, it silences my mind, stops time, its amazing. fully immersed in sound, become a part of sound, infact i become fully connected to everything
worst state ive ever been in was doing a massive line ontop of a lot of alcohol, very stupid, surprised i didn't end up in hospital or dead. lost myself for quite awhile
love the way this stuff feels like it mimics other drugs sometimes, kinda brings back the feelings, and when i hole it feels like part of a DMT trip or something. most euphoric thing ever, incredible
worst state ive ever been in was doing a massive line ontop of a lot of alcohol, very stupid, surprised i didn't end up in hospital or dead. lost myself for quite awhile
love the way this stuff feels like it mimics other drugs sometimes, kinda brings back the feelings, and when i hole it feels like part of a DMT trip or something. most euphoric thing ever, incredible
Thou
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I use it exclusively for meditation. It's more workable and economical than ketamine.
Listen to Thich Nhat Hahn lectures on mindfulness while in the 'hole' it's extravagant.
Listen to Thich Nhat Hahn lectures on mindfulness while in the 'hole' it's extravagant.
When I think on the M-Hole I think of it as a time hole. Time dillates so much one song lasts what seems to be years, one album lasts what seems to be more than a life, the trip lasts... I get really lost there, it lasts so much that when I more or less get back to the body, I didn't remember I had this life. It's been so long. Mental silence was one of the things I enjoyed the most, I think it has to do with time dilation. How much time, there is, usually, inbetween one thought and the next? Be it milliseconds or a minute if you're a good meditator, that's going to be multiplicated, so you can enjoy that silence as you've never done before.
It stills astonishes me that, in some of the trips I did [I holed almost every night for like three months], after leaving the body, I'd start reciting OM MANI PADME HUNG, which is a mantra that, by that time, I had no relation with. Yes, I had a very spiritual feeling on most of the trips.
Can you go deeper on that? I'm curious. When I was doing MXE heavily sometimes I tried playing recordings of my teachers, but it didn't help... I couldn't focus on the teachings, nor on the trip.
I've been happy with my u.s. doses...I think alot of tolerance...or at least moving past the honeymoon stage is responsible for dissatifaction with u.s. doses (at least my u.s. doses)
Seriously...what do you think happened to the uk connection, after the uk connection was shut down? Obviously it's being shipped elsewhere (u.s.) at most likely a bargain price...so it's still out there..obviously. Just a matter of indentifing where it is...cuz that basic buisness and basic buisness doesn't fuck around.
Also...
eyesopenwide..I can definatly relate to this.." lift my arms in praise"
This is being forced (or at least pushed) into a state of prayer...experienced this many times on lsd, 5meo-dmt, dpt, mescaline, lsa, and dxm and mxe.
I would experience this most forcefully coming back from a 5meo-dmt nde...I'd have to arms open-wide fully to handle all the life-force current surging through my body..it felt like it would be dangerous (heart-attack-stroke-seazure) not to do this..to open wide and let the current flow through...VERY INTENSE!!!
Seriously...what do you think happened to the uk connection, after the uk connection was shut down? Obviously it's being shipped elsewhere (u.s.) at most likely a bargain price...so it's still out there..obviously. Just a matter of indentifing where it is...cuz that basic buisness and basic buisness doesn't fuck around.
Also...
eyesopenwide..I can definatly relate to this.." lift my arms in praise"
This is being forced (or at least pushed) into a state of prayer...experienced this many times on lsd, 5meo-dmt, dpt, mescaline, lsa, and dxm and mxe.
I would experience this most forcefully coming back from a 5meo-dmt nde...I'd have to arms open-wide fully to handle all the life-force current surging through my body..it felt like it would be dangerous (heart-attack-stroke-seazure) not to do this..to open wide and let the current flow through...VERY INTENSE!!!
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psood0nym
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^Finally, some fellow psychedelic automatic body movement experiencers. I've not experienced it with any dissociative alone, but have I ever with 5-HT psychedelics and tryptamine/dissociative combos! I wrote a report about injecting synthetic psilocin with ketamine where this happened years ago. Also, I remember the "forced prayer" stance during this period of experiences with psilocin. Once an "episode" hit I would try to get a glass of water before heading to bed because I knew from before that the experience would dry the hell out of my mouth/throat (psilocin itself wouldn't, but whatever was happening during these types of experiences would, for some reason I can't even begin to guess). It would make me hunch over all humble and make my muscles extremely fatigued like it was saying "pay your respects while you get your precious water bitch, we want to toy around with your body and we haven't got all day." Actually it may have just been whatever physiological reaction was happening taking hold, but I remember thinking "just give me a minute, damn!" because the experience always was of "angels" (constructor egos within my mind) or something "fucking" ("spiritually") me and then being born from myself, heh, no shit.
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Got some new mxe in recently. White/clear and sparkly as fuck. Had been having yellow/grainy batch since april. Was starting to give me headaches after the first hour or so.
New stuff is so much cleaner. Should have done this a while ago...
really really want to do some 4-aco-dmt right now too. It's stupid b/c when the sun starts comming up it ruins the trip for me and I always get weird as fuck. Always want to do this shit so late at night. %)
will save for later. but maybe more mxe? mmmm
New stuff is so much cleaner. Should have done this a while ago...
really really want to do some 4-aco-dmt right now too. It's stupid b/c when the sun starts comming up it ruins the trip for me and I always get weird as fuck. Always want to do this shit so late at night. %)
will save for later. but maybe more mxe? mmmm
Sweetshare
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I have problems with bladder begins when I take too much.. I advise you to just stay in the region of 50 mg, no more.
I used MXE a bit before the UK ban. It was some great stuff, but I found it to be very hard to avoid using it every day while I had some around. It probably didn't help that I was in the midst of a major depressive episode at the time, though.
It was great with watching movies, I got really into them and felt like I was the characters. But then listening to music and just lying in bed thinking was great too. And with the mood-lift, afterglow and anti-depressive effects, it was really great. Only had one bad experience, actually. Well, possibly two but the other involved alcohol so it doesn't really count.
I was just finishing what I had and I thought I'd get a good last experience so I took 80 - 90 mg oral, and then cleaned out the bag with hot water and drank that too (in tea, hardly any chemical taste). I got much more fucked up than I expected, but didn't really mind that much. I had however forgotten to turn off my phone, and in the middle of the night I got an SMS from a girl I was in love with saying "Are you awake?". I contemplated what the "right answer" to this would be for the longest time, and eventually I sent back the reply "yes". Then she calls me, which I totally hadn't predicted. I pick up and it turns out she's having a bad time. I really want to comfort her and talk to her, but in the state I'm in I can't think of a single thing to say so I just reply "Hmm, uh.... Hmmm" etc. She thinks she's woken me up after all and hangs up, but it made me feel like shit. I've always viewed myself as dependable, and this just sort of shattered that. That was the last time I used it, though I might have ordered more if my vendor hadn't stopped selling it after the UK ban.
It was great with watching movies, I got really into them and felt like I was the characters. But then listening to music and just lying in bed thinking was great too. And with the mood-lift, afterglow and anti-depressive effects, it was really great. Only had one bad experience, actually. Well, possibly two but the other involved alcohol so it doesn't really count.
I was just finishing what I had and I thought I'd get a good last experience so I took 80 - 90 mg oral, and then cleaned out the bag with hot water and drank that too (in tea, hardly any chemical taste). I got much more fucked up than I expected, but didn't really mind that much. I had however forgotten to turn off my phone, and in the middle of the night I got an SMS from a girl I was in love with saying "Are you awake?". I contemplated what the "right answer" to this would be for the longest time, and eventually I sent back the reply "yes". Then she calls me, which I totally hadn't predicted. I pick up and it turns out she's having a bad time. I really want to comfort her and talk to her, but in the state I'm in I can't think of a single thing to say so I just reply "Hmm, uh.... Hmmm" etc. She thinks she's woken me up after all and hangs up, but it made me feel like shit. I've always viewed myself as dependable, and this just sort of shattered that. That was the last time I used it, though I might have ordered more if my vendor hadn't stopped selling it after the UK ban.
Been having a tough time putting this stuff down the past few days. Went almost 10 days without using, but as of Saturday I've been on quite a binge. I've gone through approximately 1.7 grams in 4 days, maybe 5 days? It's becoming increasingly hard to keep track of what day it is, or even what month.
Every single time I use, I find myself at the end of the day laying in bed, unable to sleep thinking to myself "I need to stop doing this to myself. I need to stop!". My social life has gone to hell. I've become a hermit, sitting inside day after day doing nothing but wishing I was doing something. Lately, nobody has called or asked me to hang out with them, and on the rare occasion they do, I am simply too fucked up to get out of bed or to even answer their calls to justify why I can't see them.
I'm ashamed at my use. It's affecting my job, my life as a whole. It's destroying relationships with my friends and my father, the only family member I have left in my life. It's gotten to the point where I can't even look my father in the eye nine times out of ten because I'm simply too fucked up to acknowledge him.
I woke up today thinking "I can't do any today. I have to be at work in 4 hours, I need to recover from my 4 day binge". Except, 20 minutes after waking up I a giant bump up my left nostril. Why? What am I expecting out of this? I already know where it's going to lead. Shit, I haven't even been eating properly. It makes me not even want to eat, just hibernate and basically fast with water and vitamins.
I've been in a depressed state of mind outside of my use, perhaps this is contributing to my excessive use. It's certainly not helping. I need to stop. I need self control. I thought I had things under control for a while, but apparently I'm far from it. Why do I insist on doing this so often? I need to stop.
Every single time I use, I find myself at the end of the day laying in bed, unable to sleep thinking to myself "I need to stop doing this to myself. I need to stop!". My social life has gone to hell. I've become a hermit, sitting inside day after day doing nothing but wishing I was doing something. Lately, nobody has called or asked me to hang out with them, and on the rare occasion they do, I am simply too fucked up to get out of bed or to even answer their calls to justify why I can't see them.
I'm ashamed at my use. It's affecting my job, my life as a whole. It's destroying relationships with my friends and my father, the only family member I have left in my life. It's gotten to the point where I can't even look my father in the eye nine times out of ten because I'm simply too fucked up to acknowledge him.
I woke up today thinking "I can't do any today. I have to be at work in 4 hours, I need to recover from my 4 day binge". Except, 20 minutes after waking up I a giant bump up my left nostril. Why? What am I expecting out of this? I already know where it's going to lead. Shit, I haven't even been eating properly. It makes me not even want to eat, just hibernate and basically fast with water and vitamins.
I've been in a depressed state of mind outside of my use, perhaps this is contributing to my excessive use. It's certainly not helping. I need to stop. I need self control. I thought I had things under control for a while, but apparently I'm far from it. Why do I insist on doing this so often? I need to stop.
I know how you feel Wallace, and even when the effect is taking over you still just wishes to be sober. Flush it, sell it, get it away from yourself and don't order anything new. Withdrawls is just cravings so keep your mind occupied. It's now almost 2 months since I used MXE and now I don't even miss it.
Best advice, get it away from yourself! How big is your stash?
Best advice, get it away from yourself! How big is your stash?
Sweetshare
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When I stop using MXE I felt like a tearful bitch.
But I began to recover after a week.
But I began to recover after a week.
Thou
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The art of mindful living is 4 mp3s and took me deeper with a 2c-p and MXE hole than I've been ever before.
The art of realization. It can be torrented, and the man's sweet empathic soothing voice is like heaven when things in life get too rough. He bring you back to the present, no fear, no death, only this timeless moment. Reality.
The art of realization. It can be torrented, and the man's sweet empathic soothing voice is like heaven when things in life get too rough. He bring you back to the present, no fear, no death, only this timeless moment. Reality.
ColtDan
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i can relate so much to this, if i try and text somebody or use facebook etc whilst on MXE i sit and re-type things, ponder and try and make sense of it, letters and words become sorta cryptic or something, like a puzzle. infact everything seems like a big puzzle, sometimes i end up making sense and infact coming out with some good stuff, other times i type absolute bollocks which seems good at the time. sometimes it opens my mind to creativity etc, sometimes it makes everything confusing. depending on dose etc, can easily cross over into confusion
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