It usually gets flushed when a user takes too much and is unable to function and realizes that the shit is going to be bad for them. They have the realization that they don't ever want to be in that state again. I remember I got so mrocked I couldn't even remember my name for a couple minutes, then proceeded to flush the rest. Its a tool that can be used beneficially, but is also dangerous.
Mr Meowfish - Having trouble taking you seriously if your capitalizing words that aren't suppose to be. Not to be a grammar nazi, but you come off as manic writing like that.
Been a while since I've been on here. I fucking hate the Holiday's, have no Family or Friends who Celebrate Thanksgiving or Christmas.
I really only wanted to comment on the statement made above about the way that I Choose to type my text on here. I am very Manic, and I type very fast - I'm also a very sensitive and emotional person. Any word which is Uppercase that doesn't need to be - it's like how we speak in real life, putting Emphasis on a Word, Group of Words, or Thought that I feel passionately about, don't want people to miss, or just overall feel is slightly more Important than the other Words they may be surrounded by. I understand your frustration to an extent - I'm actually extremely OCD about people who have no Depth to their Vocabulary, as well as people who can't Spell or don't bother to use Spellcheck at least....
It just bums me out to think that if you're not the only Poster on Bluelight who feels this way - that there could be people missing useful Information about MXE, Dissociatives, Drugs, or just Life as a Junkie LEARNING to Live with and Accept Addiction and everything in between. I don't post for any other reason than to help spread Information I deem Important - that doesn't mean it's something everyone will Value - but I'm Alone in Life, probably for the rest of it, and sometimes the only "Family" I care or think about, are the People on Bluelight, because to me, the Only People that I feel I can ACTUALLY Relate to, are either Drug Addicts, Ex-Addicts, Or People who enjoy Philosophy. outside of that - I am Alone, Partially Chosen, Partially Stolen - but I'm OK with it. Even among people I feel that I relate to the MOST, I still Rarely make a Lasting Connection, in any part of life. I've just chosen to accept that due to the things I've seen, and life I've known - combined with my Mental Health, this may be the best my Life will ever get......................BUT, I'm OK with that. Wherever I am at any given moment is where I'm meant to be, even if it get's Lonely.
A part of me feels like I should take your advice - but I'm a Stubborn Fuck. I INSIST on Doing, and Living Life in my own way, while still being respectful and as kind as I can possibly be on any given day to Anyone that I come in contact with, in real life or on a message board. Self Expression is a BEAUTIFUL thing - so Sorry to Disappoint.....................but I'm gonna keep doing my thing. I've switched over to 3-MeO for now anyways...........and I don't have as much to say about it as I did MXE. It is what it is. Life keeps moving.
To Dismiss the thoughts of Someone over something so Petty is just Pointless to me.........but being me - It still makes me happy that you're obviously being Yourself just as Much as I am. It makes me Happy to see other people being their TRUE Self instead of Wearing the Masks that Society forces us to put on to protect ourselves. Even if I don't agree with your thinking or thought process - it still makes me Smile when people are actually REAL in a World of Fake Asses, Fake Tits, and Plastic People. Keep doing You, and feel free to dislike or disregard this post - because I'd rather You HATE Me, than be another Fake Ass Fucker. There are PLENTY to go around.....
What's wrong with being a little Manic.....................It's the only time that I actually get to have fun, feel good, and get out of bed without wanting to cry some days. If you were Bi-Polar - You're statement about Mania would be completely different. Some of the most amazing Artists, Musicians, Philosophers and Thinkers of all time dealt with what would nowadays be diagnosed as either Bi-Polar or Schizophrenic, not saying my condition makes me anything special, just making a general statement.
Feel free to Replace the word I, with the word WE in certain parts of any of my posts. When I refer to myself in my head - I think "WE should do this", not "I should do this". I feel we are all SO Connected - that over the years, I view myself as part of a Bigger Collective, and personally find Ego and Egotistical People to be a HUGE part of why the world we live in is so fucked up so often..........but when I proofread my Posts on BL - I see the word I too much, and it makes me wonder if possibly I have a bigger Ego that I think, even with all of my years of Dissociative Ego Destruction. Anyways, just trying to say - even if you don't like what I Post, it's not from a place of Hate, just a misunderstanding or a a Bad Day. - Peace - Meowfish
