Experience
I took 80mg of methoxetamine yesterday that I saved from October. I have very little experience when it comes to dissociatives so I don't really have a reference point other than very low doses of ketamine / dxm.
Measured my dose out on scales accurate to 5mg. From previous experience, sublingual is definitely the way to go especially as I have a blocked nose. Not eaten anything for 5 hours.
T = 0:00 - Measured out 80mg and put it in my mouth. Strange numb tingling feeling similar to toothpaste or mouthwash. Swilled it around for 10 minutes or so until so much saliva had built up in my mouth I had to swallow. The taste is not unpleasant unlike some other chemicals.
T + 0:20 - Put on my tripping playlist and lay down in bed with the light off. Nothing noticeable other than a slight light-headed feel and a great feeling of anticipation. Music definitely does sound better.
T + 0:40 - Definitely coming up now. Feeling paradoxical stimulation / sedation wanting to both lie down and go outside at the same time. Vision is slightly blurred and everthing has a 'weirdness' about it. I accidentally catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and scare the living shit out of myself, then find the person looking back at me laughing. On another note, everything sounds strange and 'hollow'.
T + 1:00 - From this point, time started to go extremely slow. From this point onwards I was too mashed to type anything on the computer so everything from here is in hindsight. I was still listening to music and it seemed as if each song lasted for hours. Everything even seemed lower pitch as if my actual sense of perception had been slowed down somehow. At this point I closed the curtains and curled up into a ball on my bed and went into what I can only describe as a waking dream. I imagined myself flying through space, traveling vast distances and suddenly everything seemed to make sense. I realised that the meaning of life is to create your own meaning. I realised death was nothing to be scared of and is an inevitability (all the more reason to enjoy live). I saw how weird our world would look to an alien observing us. I though about every aspect of our world and society and how strange it actually is.
T + 5:00 - I must have dozed off at some point, but I know it definitely wasn't too long ago. Maybe an hour at max. The effects are starting to wear off and I find my thought processes returning to normal.
T + 7:00 - Effects have almost worn off now, but there seems to be some kind of residual "happy" feeling that will not go.
In essence, this is an experience I would definitely like to repeat and I intend to get some more methoxetamine as soon as humanly possible
