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The Big & Dandy HPPD Thread

Listen to me, you are NOT going insane. You aren't going to go insane.

Try taking up meditation, if you don't like the word meditation, try taking up the practice of sitting down and letting your mind settle into calm awareness. There's tons of reading on this, here's one I find amazingly easy to follow:
http://www.urbandharma.org/pdf/mindfulness_in_plain_english.pdf

And on the topic of not knowing who you are, what does it really matter to you? What part of knowing who you are comforts you? Can you describe it? Try being anchored to just existing and not who is doing the existing. There's beauty in life, and you'll find it, and probably when you aren't looking for it! I found the beauty of life and existence by being alive, and existing. That sounds a lot like I'm talking in circles but it's the best I can describe it.
 
i agree^ meditation would be a great idea. and remember suicide is a perment solution for a temporary problem.
 
Why would medication do anything? That would be taking more drugs...

Maybe you should deal with whatever the trip was trying to tell you. There's no such thing as a bad trip, just one who perceives it that way. Maybe you should try seeing things in Grey, instead of Black and White.

You're subconscious or maybe even your conscious brought whatever this idea was up to the surface for a reason; you however didn't want to cope with it and alleviate it accordingly. Since, we don't know what this "word" is, and unless you can be more specific we probably cant help you. Only you can because you know.

Mind you, this has nothing to do with HPPD. You should go to the Dark Side sub-section of this forum, they can guide you there. :)
 
I have mega-super-HxC HPPD, acquired it after my first trip (2-CE), the hppd actually felt like a blessing at first, like a reminder that god loved me and was watching me always but... I slowly began to feel like I was going insane, and eventually I did develop a psychosis (I think) , but in the end... I found that embracing the idea that I was head over feet nuts helped me realize that I wasn't really.
the fear of going schizo drove me schizo, it was the FEAR, that was driving me mad, so I one day just accepted the idea that I was possibly dead, living in hell, paying for my sins, yadda yadda... it was depressing at first but I slowly came out of it when I realized it was all in my head.

now, yeah, I still have visuals... bathroom floors drive me nuts cause I mean all I can do is stare at the floor while I shit... terrible static at night always but...

also... another verryyy good cure for the anxiety of falling alseep is to find a partner... it helps... my girlfriend is a crazy raver chick who I am currently helping get over a *cough*LAME*cough DXM addiction...

dude I know what you are going through okay? I feel your pain wholly, the anxiety will pass, eventually you will feel better... suicide ain't the answer though.
PM me if you want to talk, I'd like to help ya.
 
kozin just got an anon donation of like $100'000 dollars for HPPD research... this is very good, not just for HPPD sufferers, but for psychedelic research in general.

I've got HPPD up the whazoo, DP/DR hit me like a train this winter.
static sucks the most for me, I have recovered from thr DP/DR for the most part.
I have gotten over the anxiety for the most part, its annoying as fuck sometimes but I am currently persuing a benzo perscription not cause I need them but mainly cause they're nice to have around incase of a bad trip.

yes, I still love to trip, but it has made me space them out a hella lot more than I used to cause my visuals spike massively after I do anything, that includes drinking and caffiene, cigs, ect.
 
No, I'd have to disagree, HPPD is very much related to mental disturbances. If you don't have any mental disturbances from it, it's not usually bothersome HPPD.

To the OP, here's my advice for you:

1. Some anti-depressants (SSRIs) can make some people's HPPD worse. Not always though, sometimes it can really help. Just keep that in mind.

2. Don't worry, it will get better eventually!

3. There are various medications that have helped people with HPPD. The two that seem the most successful/promising are:

a. Clonazepam - This is an anti-anxiety med that is addictive and will become less effective if it is continually dosed. Many people find that along with helping with anxiety it reduces their visuals.

b. Keppra (Levetiracetam) - This is usually prescribed as a drug to prevent seizures. It is non addictive and can be taken long term. Most people think the side effects lessen as it your body becomes accustomed to it. Seems to work for a lot of people. Some get no effect. Some people have their symptoms dissapear within about 2 days of starting the medication. Some people get bad effects and struggle with swings between worse and better for a long time. Side effects can be anger, increased anxiety, etc in the beginning while starting it.

People usually start out with a small dose for 1-2 weeks (250mg 2x a day) and slowly increase it to about 1500mg a day (usually takes at least a month to get to that point). It might not work, but it might work as well.

Feel free to PM if you need help or are having problems dealing with it. Don't go to suicide. I've had very bad anxiety, feelings of going insane, etc, but it did eventually get better. I wish you the best, honestly I do!
 
I think in this case, it should be called Post Hallucinogenic Ego Stress Syndrome. PHESS I suppose. After a rough psychedelic experience, sometimes it can be hard to integrate. Apparently that's what you're having trouble with, integration of an ego-crushing experience. Learning to integrate it with a good shaman will really help you out.
 
I have what i would consider hppd, its nothing serious, but its def. there. Things look like there slightly breathing and moving and shifting, my peripheral vision can create some interesting distortions a big one is things fading away and morphing, like that illusion where you look at the cross and the green dots around it, only on everything. For example on tile ceilings the cross braces fade away and i could look at my self in a mirror and stair at my shirt and my arms and face could fade away. Another big one is i could stair at something and have it take up my entire field of vision, for example looking at a floor mat and having everything around it turn into a floor mat lol. Its not really that bad and most of the time you have to focus to see the more interesting distortions, and a quick blink will make it normal.

1) How many times have you tripped? Twice with a RC and 3 with 5-meo-DMT
2) Did you experience HPPD after a bad trip? The one time I had a "bad trip" the visuals seemed to cease completely for the rest of trip and just leave me with a horrible horrible body high and bad feelings. Though I never noticed these visuals until after that bad trip.
3) On which substances did HPPD become apparent? The rc's (I can't recall what it was exactly but it was suppose to be a mix of various rc's I recall being told dob and doc were in there though), Something else that i noticed since I got hppd is that weed seems to intensify them for a short while (like a day or 2) but also something else i noticed since i got hppd is that weed gives me what I would consider some pretty weird visual distortions and it COMPLETELY 100 percent fucks my peripheral vision if i stair at something for more then a couple seconds.

I just noticed i spent more time on this post then my essay for socials.

EDIT: Oh and It has been a while (3-4 months, cant recall exactly) since I did those rc's and the hppd is fading very slowly but its not as strong as it once was (though some days its stronger then normal). And the guy who sold me the rc's says he gets the same thing off of most psychedelics and he stated it goes away after about 6 months.
 
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Often DSM-IV disorders are only mentioned when either the person himself or his environment suffers from it. Like: a sexual fetish can be seen as sick by any standard but still as long as someone who has it doesn't suffer from it and neither do people around him it is NOT a disorder.

So my question is - after all these posts saying yeah I have HPPD but it's OK... Does the same thing go?

Not that I think it will change the course of this thread cause not that many people read the entirety before posting.
 
ShaolinBomber said:
blah blah blah. its all heresay until brain scans before and after are shown to actually increase it.
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Why don't you google yourself and see all the respected institutions referencing:
Science
Journal of Neuroscience
Pubmed

like in this link

and of course lots of professional journalism stating that meditation causes physical changes.

If you still don't believe it frankly I couldn't care less because then I'd be convinced you don't want to believe it. I'm sure others here can get past their disbelief.

Thanks for sticking up for my point earlier Karruters, hopefully we can all go along now :)
 
I wonder why real pioneers like Albert Hoffman, Aldous Huxley, and Sasha Shulgin, who have taken far more psychedelics over a longer period of time than most of us combined, never reported any problems that could be considered HPPD?
 
AFAIK Hofmann never took large amounts of psychedelics... Nor did he trip often.

I guess it's the way all of they used psychedelics: responsibly, without binging on a different chemical each week... Well, Shulgin did a lot of different chemicals, but I doubt he spent every other day tripping...
 
Well, i obtained hppd from weekly use of shrooms and lsd a couple times in between, and only for a month and a half, but it could very possibly have to do with me only being 17 and my brain not being fully developed
 
I believe Shulgin was very responsible in his explorations. He started low with all substances and slowly worked his way up, never taking anything in excessive dosages or too often. HPPD is usually the result of overdoing psychedelics, and not allowing your brain to fully recover from the neural rewiring caused by hyperconnective states these drugs create.
 
im tired of people claiming to have hppd when they have no fucking clue about what it actually is. It gives people with the real disorder a bad name and makes us all look like a bunch of fucking morons.
 
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tryp2fun said:
I wonder why real pioneers like Albert Hoffman, Aldous Huxley, and Sasha Shulgin, who have taken far more psychedelics over a longer period of time than most of us combined, never reported any problems that could be considered HPPD?
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Simply because some people are predisposed to get such a thing. Just like some people are predisposed to become schizo. Its just there. Nothing can be done about it.
 
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