First time DOM trip. Not for the weak hearted. And def not for me....
Me, a person always ambitious to try a psychedelic. I have only done shrooms once, LSD once, and 2CB a handful of times. I had myself I convinced i was ready for the real thing. DOM. I decided to do it with my buddy, who has only done shrooms once. The person I got these two capsules from, I first told him 7mg-8mg per capsule. But he insisted on giving me these ones he had predosed to 10mg right now so he didnt have to run back home. I figured, what to hell.
Well, first of all, lemme just say, my friend felt, next to nothing. As for me, here is a tale of meeting God, living in Hell, living my life, and a horrifying next day.
I dosed with my friend at 1:00 in the afternoon on an empty stomach. Ate some food 1 hour after dosing and about 1 hour after that the 'magic' began.
The come up was very, weird. I felt very misplaced. Like I wasnt supposed to be here. So me and my friend went for a walk and called someone to drive us around. As we are walking, we feel, like giants compared to all these houses around us. Everything felt very 2D. Our friend gets here and we hop in the car, I smoke a cig and it hits me. And the come up was fast. We get to a hotel, and I get out of the car, and I feel like there are about 10 bricks on my chest. It is very tough to breathe, must just be anxiety. Everything looked as if it were flickering colors really fast. When we get inside I run to the couch and just say down to take a breather, everything is getting overly intense wayyy to fast. I take a drink of my Dragonfruit Vitamin Water and BOOM! Red, splashes across my vision. Im seeing what Im tasting. This is a first. I run to look in the mirror, to find out I am made up of pink, yellow and white glitter. I though, wow, this is the most beautiful drug I have ever done. i could rub my hands together and watch the glitter fall to the ground. But on the ground, is this small detailed holographic design spread across yet 1 inch off the entire carpet.
We get back into the car, and lay in back and pop in the headphones. Angels and Airwaves are playing, I close my eyes and let it take me away. "I held your hand as I left the ground" is the first line in the song, and as he sang that, my closed eye visuals took me away, envisioning me, first person, flying through the skies, the window was cracked so i could feel the breeze. But these visuals, were the CLEAREST I have ever seen in my life. They were amazingly vivid and wild. We get to a friends house and everything is getting so damn intense and not slowing down. I was started to panic. And as I panicked, my consciousness shut down.
The last I remember from then, was my laying on the couch, asking a sober friend to make sure my heart is beating and my breathing is okay.
This next part, I do not remember. But this is what my friend experienced out of me. He said we went to the car, back to my house, he wasnt feeling anything so he just played World of Warcraft, but I was bouncing off the walls. Running around. I finally laid in bed.
Now this, I remember, but all this, I didnt think was real. At all. I thought I was just in a dream. It felt, like a dream. I laid in my bed and closed my eyes, which was the WORST thing I could have done. I mumbled things, I started to say something, then would stop. I couldnt get out a full sentence.
A lot of this may not be in order, I do not know the exact times. But this is when the living dreams happened. My parents were holding me down, because I guess i was trying to jump through the window.
What amazes me is what the brain and perceive. Its amazingly scary. i was in this dream, (this is really hard for me to put into words, but ill try my best) When we live our lives, all we have to do, is just let everything happen. But in my dream, I kept trying, and trying to get things to work. But because of that, it was slowing me down. It showed me all my fears, all I had to do is let them go, but I kept TRYING. And trying was slowing me down and making me fail. I watched as everyone watched me fail. And it was miserable.
Then BOOM! I quickly snap back into reality, and my dad has me by the arm and I have my fist up like Im about to hit him, then 'WOOM' back into this dream. I kept fading in and out of reality. Ending up throughout my house doing different things.
Then blackness, all I perceive is darkness, yet voices are getting louder, I hear my dad, my mom, my uncle all bickering. Then I open my eyes, I am lying on my bed, I scoot back to the wall fast, because this loud LOUD uplifting music is coming through my roofless room from the sky. (my uncle and parents were really in front of me, but was envisioning the roofless ceiling) My parents are saying this is my time to go, and this uplifting music takes me soaring through the skies, as I get to heaven, God, himself puts his hand on my shoulder, and says "sure is beautiful from up here isnt it?" This all felt, more than real. Then this turns into a hellish nightmare. My moms face quickly appears and she looks demonic and asks loudly and firmly "WHADYA TAKE!?!?" And I quickly plummet back down from heaven into my room, its black everywhere with vibrant colors dripping from the ceiling and demons chanting around my room trying to stab me. I just laid face down and screamed. I open my eyes to see find my dad in my room vacuuming my bed(really happened), I am standing staring at him, and he looks pissed. All this happened, but through my eyes, it seemed, so dream like, everything was very wavy, colors didnt seem right, seemed too prominent and sharp, yet dull and wavy. My dad, as hes vacuuming, he gets closer, with the vacuum, if he gets too close, I can see the particles from my hand get sucked into the vacuum.
Next thing I remember, I wake up, in my room, everything very very white, standing in front of my bed. I look down, again, everything looks very dream like. I shake my hand slowly and I see blood trickle out of my pours. As I shake faster more and more comes out. i stand in front of the mirror and paint my room with my own blood (fake of course)
As the drug wore off, I was still caught in my dream, everything that happened, went quickly in reverse, everything that REALLY happened, I saw, in reverse. Then it showed me, it showed the DOM in my brain, and I envisioned myself permanently fucked from this drug. It showed my life, and my life, was one big downward spiral into nothing.
That night, after somehow finally getting sleep, I had the most vivid long lasting dreams I have ever had. I felt as if I was dreaming for over a week. After waking up, I feel as if I am not in my body, like, I appeared here, from a dream, and was quickly reassembled into this body that didnt have a brain or any vital organs. I walk up stairs and find my parents to tell them I am not in my own body. And I need to find mine. My mom says "jesus christ, this is gonna be another long day" After I finally ate some food, I started to feel better.
My lips are chapped and I put on chapstick, my lips are mushy. My body is mushy. My normal prominent veins are gone. I look in the mirror, and I have... no veins. This is real life too. I tell my mom, she says she doesnt know whats wrong. I go on with my day as normal.
That night my heart rate was so slow. I am a tiny guy and my heart wasnt beating fast, my veins were nonexistent, I lost all feeling throughout my body.
So now, its about 2 months after this trip, I feel great, but... I wish that I could put together everything that happened, in words, or even in my own brain. Its there, yet... I cant piece it together, I feel like its tryign to tell me something, like I need to not try in life. i need to let shit happen, but there is so much more that happened that... I just cant put into words. Or into thoughts. Yet its there. Frustrating.
One thing that did scare me, it took 3 days till my heart rate was normal, and I could see veins and I had feeling back. Is DOM bad for your cardiovascular system?