I haven't posted on BL in a while but I have to share my excitement about this substance. I am one of the many that found MXE to be something very special, and when it was around it definitely was one of my favorite substances. I've tried a LOT of dissos but none have really compared except for certain batches of DCK, and a couple of ephenidine experiences. 3-MeO-PCP is another favorite, but it the effects profile is so different from MXE that I have no need to compare the two.
Well, I was obviously excited to try DMXE given how similar it promised to be to the OG. I tried it once, a few small lines (each one weighed out on a milligram scale) over the course of the night with a friend when I first obtained it about a month ago. We enjoyed the typical dissociation effects, but it didn't seem any more exciting than other new dissos on the market. I actually kind of - out of disappointment, I suppose - gave up on it for a bit and chose to enjoy the MXiPR I had instead for the past few weeks. At least the MXiPR was giving me stronger more noticeable effects, although more sedating and fuzzy than I really wanted.
Fast forward to last night, I'm with a different friend and want to give DMXE a try again. This time I feel more confident with the chemical and decide to take bumps without weighing, starting out very small and slowly increasing the amount as needed. We both felt spun from a small amount, but it still was pretty basic dissociation with nothing much to write home about. After the third bump, while also pretty consistently smoking bowls of ganj - it happened! I don't know if I would have gotten to this place I'm about to describe without the weed, or if it would have been harder but still achievable. I guess I'll have to experiment with that in the future.
I felt the magic semi-psychedelia that MXE used to provide. I was incredibly depressed this weekend due to recent heartbreak and it instantly lifted my mood, lifted my energy levels, and made doing anything fun and exciting. I felt more clear headed than I did from the lower dose (probably manic type effects), and like I could easily talk about emotionally difficult topics. My friend (who thinks she maybe tried MXE as a teenager but does not have anywhere near the history with RC dissos that I do) agreed that she felt the same sense of magic, although to a lesser effect, as I had given her smaller bumps all night. The effects were immediately calming; grounding; centering. She compared it to the feeling of meditating and I have to agree.
The first few bumps seemed to provide effects that tapered off fairly quickly in duration, but once we got to the special space, the duration seemed to become longer (or maybe my sense of time changed, or both). We also each took one more bump because she wanted to be where I was at, and I figured it wouldn't hurt for me to do more. This made me definitely more intoxicated but not in a bad way. We continued to have amazing conversation and did not want to stop, but once it hit 4AM or so we realized it was necessary to wind down in order to not sleep the whole next day away. I also made the very conscious choice to put the drug bag away after the 4th bump. I think like MXE and some other dissos, DMXE is moreish. I try to avoid benders and binging in general, and I could see us staying up well into the morning if we were less disciplined with our usage.
Sleep would probably have been difficult, but we prepared accordingly with about 1.5-2mg of Etizolam each. I passed out without much difficulty once the effects of the 'Tiz kicked in. Today upon waking, I continued to feel the DMXE afterglow antidepressant effects. It was much easier to face the reality of the heartbreak I endured, even though I was no longer feeling dissociated. The easiest way to describe it is that I did not feel so overwhelmed by despair, loneliness, etc. as I did only a couple of days ago. That alone makes this a worthwhile drug to me. I definitely plan on trying to keep a regular stock of it for as long as I am able. I think like MXE, it will be able to do a variety of things for me, and I'm very very curious to see what the hole will be like for me if I can reach it.
EDIT: I also need to try consuming DMXE orally to see what that is like. Why does it have to be so fun to put things in one's nose, though
