I've had some of this sitting around for awhile, and finally decided last night I'd stayed away from ketamine long enough to avoid cross-tolerance issues. Took it orally - was a too squeamish to try the roa that seems to be currently popular. I was originally planning to IM it, but decided that it was just too dumb, given the unknown substance from a relatively unknown source.
I have a long standing love affair with IM'ed ketamine and was looking forward to see how this compared. I tend to be pretty sensitive to ketamine (much more so than tryptamines), and I had a little nausea earlier that evening, so I decided to take a super conservative dose.
Dose: 115 mg, followed by 40 mg
Weight: 115
Notes during the trip (corrected for spelling):
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+0:45 - feeling heavy, slight nausea
+1:00- nice body buzz, slight numbness in face and extremities. floaty and relaxed. resting on cotton candy clouds
+1:15 - took another 40 mg
+1:50 - rolling around in bed, stretching has never felt so good. so content and relaaaxed. I'm becoming my own visualizer. the beat is playing up and down each of my limbs. the CEV images are beautiful. giant black bird, flapping immense wings slowly to the beat of the song, moving the air in perfect time. lazy. happy. the aesthetics of this are fantastic - keep seeing images of cliffs near the ocean, sun setting in colors on waves. feeling of expansion, stretching.
+ 2:30 - after rolling around for hours, sudden rush of lucidity, drive and something that tastes like impatience(?). feel the need to get up and do something! maybe I should go for a run.
+ 2:45 - that wave passed quickly. back to lounging. very pleasant, but far too lucid. is this what opiates are like for other people? the fact that I can write is impressive. the fact that I just read instructions for boston style baked beans is plain sad. need to double up the dose next time.
and wtf is up with smells? air is suddenly catpee scented. hope that goes away.
+ 3:00 - my god it's difficult to type in any way that will be readable tomorrow. fuck spelling. am becoming a little.. bored? pleasant, floaty, but no insights, no interesting thoughts, no speeding through k tunnels or wandering through k palace rooms.
+3:15 - there is an interesting quality here, almost lyrical. the stuff wants to show me pretty things and places, read me good poetry. at this dose, I am not being transported to other worlds so much as catching wafts of them - and they're all ethereal and full of light. not dark at all. it even lacks the serpentine movements of good acid. feel like I should be wandering through an art museum.
fingers and mouth still lightly numb. going to try walking and find the boy for company.
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Overall, somewhat similar to ketamine, but has a really interesting ethereal feel. It also feels super smooth and easygoing, but that may have been because of how low the dose was. Can't imagine this being scary at any dose though. Moving around created some nausea, but less than with ketamine. Overall felt slightly more up and mobile than I would have at a similar dose of ketamine.
The comedown was cozy, happy. Fell asleep 5.5 hrs after ingestion of initial dose. Feel pretty good today - calm, but out of it. Also remarkably uncoordinated - I keep dropping things and running into things. I can see the next day being a complete wash on a higher dose. Can't wait to try again, at either 2x the dose orally, or (more likely) at the appropriate IM dose.