Morninggloryseed
Bluelight Crew
"If you can't be a good example, at least be a good warning." :D
Thats a Universal Truth. Oh, and Help and Amanitadine...I know this is not the friggin social thread but I've reached out to you both, I am sorry my time online is short. Help, you said you have my IM now so IM me! I'm on for a little bit. Amanitadine, you never gave me an IM or FB but I don't log onto BL much so maybe you will say hello there. Either way, the more I learn about you I am convinced you are my lost twin brother. God help/loves us both!
Hope we can talk soon.
Here is a story....I took it on the last night at my old place with some 5-MeO-DMT, a friend administered and watched me. I did this to symbolically kill myself off and be reborn. Mighty Allah!
The most powerful part of that experience was finding myself squashed on the side of a road, dead but aware of my body, my best friend and cops and parents around me, and I screamed (in real life, and in the trip) as a way to say goodbye/expell the last of my energy/have a last word. I am sure my family heard me, heh but they know I'm a weirdo.
This is a tiny, tiny part of this experience, there is so much more to it. A lot of what happened to Xork hit me in a big way because if something happened to him, I know it wasn't my fault, but I also know I encouraged him and it's made me think about a lot.
Then the next day I watched this BBC special on MPTP (you know the instant parkinsons drug) and realized that could have been me, if the wrong synth was sent to my home. Some serious food for thought. I'll always be MGS and do my thing but once my personal trials are over with, and I can move on to the next stage, I am going to take all of these second chances (metaphorical and literal) finally mean something to me, and do things a little different now.
Again not the social thread I know, but the l-theaine is making me feel very nice so.............I love you all.

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