Damn. Sounds like a nice M-hole there. Generally when I push MXE high enough I just black out essentially, one of the only things I don't like about that drug. Never combined 3-meo-pcp with it though, but I imagine it would be similar but unpleasantly long. The only time I ever had a really crazy experience on MXE that I remember also involved weed and benzos, like your story. I laid in bed and stared at my sleeve and the fabric slowly turned into an endlessly flowing, dmt-breakthrough-like corridor of patterns and half-formed images that I was flying through. I found myself able to will into and out of the space as I pleased for about an hour or so, and then I started to come down. Very interesting, have always tried to replicate it and never succeeded.
I've had similar experiences to what you describe on high IM doses of Ketamine, where I'm just completely annihilated and insane and unaware and holy, dreaming almost, becoming my surroundings or feeling like I've become the whole universe and I'm quickly passing by all these other consciousnesses before I find my own, but I guess that's just the "hole."
Dissociatives, man.
I've had similar experiences to what you describe on high IM doses of Ketamine, where I'm just completely annihilated and insane and unaware and holy, dreaming almost, becoming my surroundings or feeling like I've become the whole universe and I'm quickly passing by all these other consciousnesses before I find my own, but I guess that's just the "hole."
Dissociatives, man.