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Haha that sounds like something I would never attempt in public, Xorkoth. 40 mg of MXE are by itself a little bit incapacitating for me 

I can relate to your "needing to zen" to be able to piss easily. I myself since my heavy ketamine binges back on the day, feel hard to pee without taking a lot of concentration, and somedays I need a sound stimulus for beeing able to begin (some water running on the sink usually). I always was weird with me peeing thought, before my disso abuse I already had some troubles, needing to be alone on a closed bathroom (preferably one I own) and without noises arround to be able to pee
To me, the best way to take this is in very small doses separated by hours, throughout the day. Lately I have tried this a few times... I take 2mg at a time, in the nose (as I like the effects better that way), separated by 2-3 hours each. I do 4 or 5 doses this way, and each one bumps up the effects a bit, and I become increasingly immersed in a state of inspired, focused fearlessness. It feels like everything is firing at full cylinders, and my energy levels are sky-high. It seems to be an energy born from inspiration, and I want to focus it into creating, generally music. I have absolutely zero fear of conflict, or fear of anything really, and speaking eloquently and precisely is easy. There's never any amount of dissociation I can feel beyond a slight quiver early on, in fact I don't even feel high. The dose is too low for any full-blown mania to occur but I would definitely describe the state as hypomanic, lots of energy and excitement, but without really inhibiting my functioning at all. Sort of a super-sober feeling.
Great shit, I could see this being prescribed as an antidepressant or something, potential abuse issues notwithstanding.