I took 100µg ten days ago, and here's my reflections. It hit me hard, but that's because it was my first proper trip in 5 years. I was in my flat, alone.
Relatively intense OEV's - melting walls, crawling patterns, dripping colours off the paintings, tracers. CEV's were almost non-existent, but I wasn't really looking for them. Where it hit the hardest was perception of time. I was literally coming in and out of timeless moments, spiralling in and out. It was profound experience. During those 'frozen moments' I felt absolute unity with everything, total absorption, a kind of mini-nirvana if you will. That was during the peak which happened around +2 hours. After that OEV's became intense - my surroundings were "fractalised", and CEV's were bright red and green spirals and various Mandelbrot type of fractals, when you zoom into it. All of this was accompanied by intense framing effect - everything was repeating and folding into itself. When I was touching my forehead I had waves of colours radiating inside my head. Music was fantastic, and I was very very emotional - there were loads of tears.
Physically I started to feel uncomfortable towards the end of the trip, the stimulation was a little too much for me. I couldn't sleep at all that night, too restless. I was riding this wave of restlessness and some anxiety for a couple more days after the trip. Psychologically this trip was a revelation - I've dug deep and uncovered incredible amounts of shit within me, so it is possible that my post-trip anxiety had something to do with this. My main insight was that expanded consciousness is exactly that - you become MORE aware - including all the shit inside, shit you repress or ignore. It will make you face yourself and ask 'what you gonna do about it?' This new compound is to be respected.
I believe that 200µg done in nature will have the potential to be truly special, and I can't wait for it!
The trip tears are very therapeutic. You DO become aware of all the things you push to the back of your brain because they are too much to deal with at the moment. those things NEED to be reckoned with to be healthy, I had done that with the experience of my mother's death and it stunted my emotional growth and caused some issues. People who have a lot of baggage who do not feel capable to, or are just unwilling to, deal with their issues will usually characterize a trip as bad and not seek to take psychedelic drugs again. The hallmark of a real psychedelic is the ability to dredge all that up.
I was reminded during my last experience of the smell of my boyhood playground at my old gradeschool. I remember the smell EXACTLY, although I had never recalled it before that moment. It conjured up the exact moment of time when it was imprinted into me, the smell of tent caterpillars and a joyful curiosity about the world, everything was a new experience. i remember I was going to Ikea with my mother later that day, and I was excited and happy about it- the smell of the grass and the wood mulch, the metal of the slide all this sensory input mixing with the idea that I was happy, that everything was right in the world. I feel connected with my younger self in a way I haven't since puberty. I have a sense of continuity that I had been missing due to mental baggage not allowing me to cognize certain things for fear of dredging up pain and sadness.
People always think tears means a bad trip. No. Tears means a powerful experience, almost always something that will change your life for the better.
This compound has the true psychedelic edge that AL-LAD and LSZ were missing for me. The visuals are nice, but that is not really why I trip. if I have to choose between the healing energy and forced confrontation with the things that are keeping me from a full life; and visuals- I am picking the former EVERY TIME.
Can't wait to try the AL-LAD 1p-LSD combo. I believe I will take 1 of the former and two of the latter. After dosing AL-LAD the day after my last trip on 1p I was and still am happier than I could ever explain in words, just a budding bubbly feeling of everything going according to plan and joy at being privleged enough to draw breath, to have a working circulatory system and lungs, and the abilty to walk and eat and make love and do and take pleasure in ALL THESE AMAZING THINGS WE TAKE FOR GRANTED EACH DAY. Taking my time and really enjoying a sensual kiss with my lady is incredible bliss, there is just so much joy in this life! This is the secret, to live in the moment and take exquisite pleasure in your every day activities and remind yourself how lucky you are to be able to go to work, to walk and breathe and love and ruminate and spread light and ideas to the world.
I love all of you! I know it sounds silly and very hippie-ish, but I have so much love in my heart for everyone, why poison yourself with feelings of hate or inadequacy when you could be filled every day with such exquisite love and happiness?
Anyways, I am so thankful we live in a time where we have such an adaptable and capable lysergamide available to us
