Holy shit. I ended up taking the acid last night, and FUCK is that stuff powerful!
It's EXACTLY what I was looking for in a drug!! Haha!
Man, where do I start?! I think one of the most powerful aspects of the trip was the INCREDIBLE symphony that was playing in my mind the entire time. I preferred to just sit there in total silence than to listen to any music, just because my own mind was so much more fascinating. Layer upon layer of powerful music perfectly mimicking my emotions. I became confused, and harsh sounding synthesizers played clashing chords; the perfect music for 'confusion'. I became happy, and the synthesizers resolved into a beautiful melody. I never quite understood where "psychedelic" music came from, but now I do!!
And of course, the train of thought. It flowed so much more easily, it made thinking about anything amazing. And all of this seemed like such a perfectly seamless extension of normal sobriety, that I was seriously questioning whether I was really tripping, or if I was just fooling myself, at some points in the trip.
Anyways, I better not let this turn into too much of a trip report. The thing I wanted to get to was the "bad" turn it had. Right as I was peaking, I don't know what made him do it, but my dad decided to blast right into my room. I had my lights on because I was writing down some things in my journal. He never actually discovered that I was tripping, but the fear that he somehow knew suddenly totally overwhelmed me, and the second half of the trip was an intense dysphoria that I could not overcome for the life of me. I put on the most relaxing music I had, but that was of no use. The fear that my dad knew I was tripping was instilled into my subconscious, and whenever it was brought up into my conscious train of thought, my psyche took a huge beating. I'm still trying to figure out if my mind was trying to tell me something, or if the fear of getting caught was simply amplified when tripping?
I don't regret it though. It taught me that acid was NOT to be fucked with, even at a relatively low dose. I had virtually no closed eye visuals, and very minimal open eye visuals or distortions (I base the dosage on this); even so, the trip was more powerful than I ever could have imagined.
Anyways, it was an incredible experience, and I will definitely be using this substance again in the near future.
