So, I have an extremely terrible anxiety problem (you can read more about it in TDS "Entrapped in darkness.."). If I'm off medication, I experience "bad trip" feelings and thoughts sober. If I'm on medication, I can trip just fine on low doses.
But I want to face my fear and eventually go off medication. I basically want to "reformat" my brain so that I can create pathways to healthier states of mind. I need a drastic change of perspective to break away from my fear and become a completely person psychologically - one who has a calm awareness about life, and a trust that the universe is inherently well-ordered, safe, and loving.
I think psychedelics can help with this, but which one is the best? Ibogaine is out - there have been some deaths associated with it, and I am too terrified of physical death to try it. I was thinking maybe a high dose mushroom trip, one that would be strong enough to kill my ego so I can rebuild it.
What else might be good?
Thanks in advance... peace