Dear OP!!!!!!!
All these people telling you NOT to trip to solve anxiety MIGHT be wrong.
I used to have severe social anxiety after being addicted to OC and xanax( I used to help me be social but I ended up shooting up and getting real addicted) I cold turkeyed and changed my life style and got sober but my social anxiety got so fucking back during w/d's.
I went to college and my anxiety got even worse.
I tripped one time and it was just fun(first trip ever.... it was 2c-i, very high dose, 100+mg's)
I tripped again on some 2c-i and it made my anxiety EVEN WORSE.
okay so at this point I'm a twitchy mother fucker, bad social anxiety, started skipping classes because I had anxiety about getting anxiety.
I order 2c-e during my spring break(yes just recently)
I used 2c-e in my dorm, right as I start to get my first alert MY ROOMMATE AND HIS FRIENDS WALK IN.
My heart pounded, I just sat there real still and tried to play it off, for the ten minutes they were in there, I hid under my blanket and said I was pissed off and wanted the to leave
this led me to think I shouldn't be on drugs and shouldn't trip and order rc's in the mail and all kinds of anxiety thoughts I could normally have without 2c-e, but while on 2c-e i felt like i was a drug addicted again.
they left, I felt better, walked around campus and apprecaited everybody being college kids and interacting with each other
I had some thoughts about why i have anxiety and social anxiety and all that good stuff
the most important thing I did was put myself in ANOTHER social situation while tripping, and I conversed because it was thursday and one girl was drunk and I am usually a weird kid anyways.
moral of the story.....
I tripped and made my anxiety worse and even got jaw clenching out of it.
I tripped again and it got even worse, even more jaw clenching.
I tripped again after reading about psychedelics in general and had the most profound medicinal benefit EVER
I swear to god, it's only been since around mid april that I have had a HUGE decrease in anxiety, and I'd like to thank 2c-e and the anxiety attacks I had while tripping.
the biggest part of making tripping spiritual or medicinal or beneficial is INTEGRATION of experiences
after your trip don't just be like "yeah okay"
change your thinking
i don't know about ego loss, but I have had bad trips... AND I CAME OUT OF IT A COMPLETELY BETTER PERSON
thank god, i've wanted to be xanax for months and months and drug addiction scared me, thank god i order drugs online! wooooo psychedelics!
I'll give you some links and talk to you more OP. when i get a chance