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Bluelighter
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Allen
it was one month ago
My only son was inexplicably unresponsive
I knew he had been drinking; his friends told me they also bought some cocaine
My only son Allen, not breathing, his friends urgent at your bedroom door
Quick, slap, yell, call 911. Grey, then blue, or blue, then grey lips as
his body remains unresponsive on the floor as your baby's fetid breath blows, nay deflates, like some holey raft, morphing into some holy craft.
while we have 911 on the line waiting for the paramedics.
Apparantly it takes 12 mgs to revive a fent OD; I only had 8mg. He woke up when paramedics gave him 4 more.
I wonder, when I either don't share this at all, or when I do share this, where I am celebrated as the hero.
I mean, I acted instantly with 1)narcan 2)911 3)CPR.
I don't feel like a hero; more like a zero
I made Allen
I made Allen a user in my exes eyes. although I don't drink or do cocaine, the fact I had narcan and CPR saved his life.
His light went back on; still my fault
I continue to enable him
to use
air
as it ever was I
it was one month ago
My only son was inexplicably unresponsive
I knew he had been drinking; his friends told me they also bought some cocaine
My only son Allen, not breathing, his friends urgent at your bedroom door
Quick, slap, yell, call 911. Grey, then blue, or blue, then grey lips as
his body remains unresponsive on the floor as your baby's fetid breath blows, nay deflates, like some holey raft, morphing into some holy craft.
while we have 911 on the line waiting for the paramedics.
Apparantly it takes 12 mgs to revive a fent OD; I only had 8mg. He woke up when paramedics gave him 4 more.
I wonder, when I either don't share this at all, or when I do share this, where I am celebrated as the hero.
I mean, I acted instantly with 1)narcan 2)911 3)CPR.
I don't feel like a hero; more like a zero
I made Allen
I made Allen a user in my exes eyes. although I don't drink or do cocaine, the fact I had narcan and CPR saved his life.
His light went back on; still my fault
I continue to enable him
to use
air
as it ever was I