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Or I could take someone elses..

I suppose this is how serial killers start out.

Anyway, im off to college, i'll try not to cut anyones nipples off.
 
Now that deserves a title change :D

Get the fuck away from my tits with that knife.. ;)
 
I'm super bored. No drugs since two weeks. Maybe I'll have the force to launch a video game. Maybe not.
 
louuu

play vidya with me

i'm mostly on EVE these days, i can throw you a 3 week trial if you want
 
Thanks nAON, but the risks I won't play it after installation are very high, so please give your 3 week trial to someone who will really play it ;)

Besides, I have a ton of games I MUST play because I fucking PAID for them. Damn I'm so stupid, lazy and depressive.
 
No nAON. I actually pay for my games as I like to think I support the industry this way. And do you steal your drugs? No. But you steal games. So shame on YOU ;)

And btw, I see you steal TITS ffs. SHAAAAAME. Perv.
 
If I could download drugs for free, I totally would. I bet you would too =D

I haven't managed to steal any tits yet.. but it's a life goal of mine. One day.
 
Downloadable drugs, that will be the day. :)

Going to see the doc for bupe maintenance in a half hour or so, hope all goes well. I love my opis more than other drug and I'm gonna miss em', but when I started noticed I was dopesick way too often (i looked the part too...) and seeking out strong opiates became an everyday struggle; blowing any and all money I'd get to catch a nod or avoid getting sick. It's time to become less dysfunctional haha
 
Downloadable drugs would be aweosme :D also that would definitely be my downfall, haha..

Ed, you're definitely making the right decision. When the negatives outweigh the positives it is definitely time to change. You can do this :) <3

Yay for the hydrocodone/lyrica PJ!

nAON, that's a good life goal to have. Nice to have something achievable there, hehe..

Lou, I'm bored too and I have housework to do :(
 
Or I could take someone elses..

I suppose this is how serial killers start out.

Anyway, im off to college, i'll try not to cut anyones nipples off.
You can have some of mine, I have enough to share ;)
Yay for me, I got drunk and have no headache!
So, what's happenin peeps? Heh.
Imclude me in so downloadin drugs. God love hackers, for movies right now :X
 
Not good news Effie :( I've been on benzos for over a year and half, currently 10mg diaz daily, and I can't find a Suboxone doctor that has any proper knowledge about benzos or the severity of benzo withdrawal syndrome.

The doctor told me to cut down my 10mg to 5mg tomorrow and then after sunday just stop... we all know what could happen if I did that, far worse than opi wd. even after I told him I have severe anxiety and I'm currently dependent on benzos. He didn't even offer something like gabapentin or pregablin to save me from the worse wd possible (possibly fatal/risk of seizures, muscle spasms, twitching, and awful agonizing insomnia) or even any suggestions at all. He said come back in like 5 days and drop clean of diazepam and I can get on the Subs. That's not realistic and they lied to me on the phone before the appt. saying I could be on both so I could still manage my anxiety disorder, but I go in there with so much hope for a new turning point in my life to hear that ignorant statement from a "doctor".

Looks like I'll need to do this myself, maybe get a little bit of Suboxone if my friend's not being too selfish too let a strip or two go, stock up on good weed, aleve/ibuprofen, DPH, Lope and definitely benzos. I feel like I'm caught in a hole... I'm seriously so bummed out I wish I was dead sometimes... I dug myself into this hole. Dammnit
 
Damn Ed, am really sorry to hear that :(

I hope you can figure something out.. not really sure what to suggest. Can you see another doctor or have you exhausted all the potential ones who might have some knowledge in this field? Dropping from 10mgs is unlikely to cause seizures or anything but I appreciate it is not going to be comfortable at all and doctors should take benzo WDs seriously hah..

You'll get through this. I know things seem hard at the moment but they will get better <3
 
Hey peeps - not much outta me these days since the server at my place of employment has permanently banned BL. :(

Anyhoo...since I know you're all dying to get an update from me here's a brief summary:


My Doc has increased my LYRICA dosage to 90 - 100mg caps/month. I kinda got into the habit of taking them daily, and now I think I'm regretting it. Lately, my skin is super sensitive, and I keep getting chills/hot flashes, coupled with major insomnia and diarrhea. The only thing I can attribute this to is the Lyrica. Has anybody else experienced this with Lyrica?

This sucks...but thank god for kratom and hydrocodone, which really makes this bearable.


edit: also - Lyrica used to have a nice sedating effect on me, but that pleasant effect is now gone, gone, gone, and now it only gives me indigestion and makes me sick. Bleh...
 
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Hey WD, nice to see you in here again! :) <3

That is rubbish about the Lyrica.. I have zero experience with it I am afraid and it's not common in the UK at all so I am not much help, but I've not heard of it causing those particular side effects.. nausea yes but not the others. Did the symptoms start when your dose was increased? What does your doc think?
 
Effie, I worked it out with the doc. I guess I'll use the rest of my 10mg diazepams for a little fun tonight since I'll be quitting. Benzo addiction has become a ball and chain to me anyway. I suggested Lyrica and the doctor called back for a prescription of 90 a month (3x a day) not sure what mg, but I think this should get me through benzo wd. Not only that, but I found gabapentin to be relaxing and somewhat euphoric at high doses (esp w bupe) and I heard pregabalin is even better in terms of potency and euphoria. So things might work out after all :) sometimes I think the world doesn't hate me too much.

On another note: That means I have quite a bit of excess 10mg diazepam! Diaz party for me to night. I'm gonna miss it, but be glad to be getting off benzos at the same time. It's bittersweet, but 30-50mg diaz will get rid of the bitter aspect ;) I gotta' be honest though I'll always use benzos recreationally, just that it will only be purely recreational not a dependency issue.

I guess I'll have to use benzos with shorter half-lives like alprazolam or even clonazepam (a bit long itself) because diaz has one helluva half-life and I'll be dropping piss to get my Suboxone. I'm gonna need to find new drugs that synergize with bupe; I'm not much of drinker nor have I ever drank enough for me to enjoy any form of alcohol in terms of taste. It's always been pills, heroin, weed, and psychedelics for me... ehh a little cocaine now and then. Not a fan of comedowns
 
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Pregabalin IS relaxing and somewhat euphoric at high doses....but be warned. This shit affects MANY systems in the body. I think it's fucked up my hypothalamus (body temp. regulating part of your brain). I can't seem to get to homeostasis - I'm either too hot or too cold. I'm really hoping this goes away soon...I've had these symptoms for going on 3 weeks now. I just barely dosed down to nothing 3 days ago, and hoping that fixes me.

These symptoms just started randomly after my dose was increased, but now my body is ultra sensitive to it, and 100mg will affect me now like 300mg used to. Haven't told the Doc yet...just keep firing 90 caps/month at me and let my insurance pay for it...maybe I'll pawn em off on a friend in need, cuz I sure as hell don't want anything to do with them anymore.
 
Grandmother writhing in pain, do not know what to do. She has an aversion to ER's and doesn't want to "miss work" tomorrow, but she is literally all curled up and crying. My grandfather is soon to be home, but I am just worried. I have seen her in migraine pain, so I can judge she is in a ton of pain, which she says is "all over". She has been complaining of transient lower back pain, abdominal pain, pain in the urinary tract, pain when making bowel movements for the last few months, as well as muscle tension and migraines as usual. The doctors say maybe kidneys, maybe this maybe that. I just don't know, and am really concerned. On top of all these maladies and this acute state, she is a benzo and barb addict, although that would be the last thing on earth she would admit. She has also been using tramadol recently for these pains. Today she seemed really out of whack earlier, fell alseep quickly (I presume), and when I came home she was in a very deep sleep. When I did rouse her she didn't awake startled like she normally does, she seemed rather stuporous in fact. Sometimes I can see the effects of her drug use, but today she was in a really odd state for her. There was amnesia, astasia-abasia, and signifcant ptosis. She has "perked up" a little, but again really bad pain has set in, and her mood is more labile than usual. What the fuck is wrong with her? I am seriously concerned with her barb addiction (Fiorinal), and have a feeling she took just too much of her meds today or whatever, but then why is she in so much pain? Is the ER even a good idea? I just need to get some feedback on what might be the cause, I know we're not doctors here, but I just want to know if you have any guesses as to what this might be?
 
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