I slept through my film class and midterm. This was supposed to be the make-up miidtern, FUUUUCK,
I got an eviction notice from my landlord. I have the money to pay it so I am not worried but I wanted to use that money for something else. Oh well. I wish I didn't have my brother to take care of. I'd go traveling somewhere. I'd go move in with an old friend, maybe. Find a job on the west coast. Learn how to drive.
I just need a change of scenery. Or else I am going to go crazy. I may even try to off myself. That cigarette burn felt pretty good. I was really triggered to start cutting myself...
My girlfriend and I have BDSM sessions. She spanks me till I'm bruised and welted. I love it. I need it. I get so wet when she does it... I get off on pain. I feel so lucky to have her. When I was with a guy, they never wanted to spank me. I guess most guys would see it as something bad. Guys don't like to hit women. But if I asked for it, it's not a beating or anything. It's just play... which usually leads to sex. You'd think a guy would jump at the chance... I guess the guys I was with were mostly vanilla. Luckily the wonderful lady I'm with is kinky.
I do want to marry her now that same-sex marriage is legal in New York. I just don't want to ruin her credit.
Jesus christ I keep nodding out so I am going to stop typing. OVER AND OUT!!!!!!
I got an eviction notice from my landlord. I have the money to pay it so I am not worried but I wanted to use that money for something else. Oh well. I wish I didn't have my brother to take care of. I'd go traveling somewhere. I'd go move in with an old friend, maybe. Find a job on the west coast. Learn how to drive.
I just need a change of scenery. Or else I am going to go crazy. I may even try to off myself. That cigarette burn felt pretty good. I was really triggered to start cutting myself...
My girlfriend and I have BDSM sessions. She spanks me till I'm bruised and welted. I love it. I need it. I get so wet when she does it... I get off on pain. I feel so lucky to have her. When I was with a guy, they never wanted to spank me. I guess most guys would see it as something bad. Guys don't like to hit women. But if I asked for it, it's not a beating or anything. It's just play... which usually leads to sex. You'd think a guy would jump at the chance... I guess the guys I was with were mostly vanilla. Luckily the wonderful lady I'm with is kinky.
I do want to marry her now that same-sex marriage is legal in New York. I just don't want to ruin her credit.
Jesus christ I keep nodding out so I am going to stop typing. OVER AND OUT!!!!!!