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The ANGRY thread v2

No but not as dreading it as I usually am when it gets to around this point in my travels. I have plans to get internet businesses and stuff off the ground so it's giving me something to focus on when I get back rather than just feeling like I'm going back to nothing / needing to look for a job. I hope that my ideas for online money making work out because otherwise things will be pretty shit.
 
You can run an internet business from hospital, sure. They have these swing-down screens by your bed that let you watch hospital TV and surf the web with a sticky plastic controller.

Oh wait, aren't you in Thailand? Fuck. Forget it.
 
I'm not trying to stress you out Spade but

There may be the feeling of tingling in the skin, particularly with malaria caused by P falciparum

http://www.celtnet.org.uk/medicine/malaria.php

You call to get checked out is a good one, what have you got to lose except 6 quid. There's a million mild harmless things you probably have, but why not get a medical opinion. Stay well.
 
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I might go to the medical centre in a bit, it's beside my hotel. I'm not sure how I feel today, not really ill but not 100% either. That weird skin feeling is still there.
 
I might go to the medical centre in a bit, it's beside my hotel. I'm not sure how I feel today, not really ill but not 100% either. That weird skin feeling is still there.

Let us know how you get on <3

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All the best Spade, as others have said its really best to get medical attention if you're worried. Often, its still best even if you're not.


So I just kicked smack cold turkey (once again) during the week, however two days ago I was informed of a surprise party that's being held for my aunt tonight and my stomachs been in knots with anxiety since...so, I decided to text a chap I know who has (albeit, pretty low quality) stuff there so that I can have a little pre-party toot with some wine just to calm the chaos of my nerves in prep for this evening.

When I finished typing the text, I was thinking of how utterly awkward and crappy it would be if I mistakenly sent the text to my friend who's also been kicking cold turkey, because I spent the last three/four days telling him about how I'm beginning to feel much better and that it'll *definitely* be a good while until I indulge again...and then I went right fucking ahead and did exactly that - sent the message to my friend who's currently kicking. Heart of divine fuck :!
 
So I just kicked smack cold turkey (once again) during the week, however two days ago I was informed of a surprise party that's being held for my aunt tonight and my stomachs been in knots with anxiety since...so, I decided to text a chap I know who has (albeit, pretty low quality) stuff there so that I can have a little pre-party toot with some wine just to calm the chaos of my nerves in prep for this evening.

When I finished typing the text, I was thinking of how utterly awkward and crappy it would be if I mistakenly sent the text to my friend who's also been kicking cold turkey, because I spent the last three/four days telling him about how I'm beginning to feel much better and that it'll *definitely* be a good while until I indulge again...and then I went right fucking ahead and did exactly that - sent the message to my friend who's currently kicking. Heart of divine fuck :!

I've never been in that situation mate, so don't want to come across as too instructing. But you're getting there with this cold turkey business, if you're planning to stop properly would a few blues not calm the anxiety rather than jumping back in head first? Don't give up now after putting yourself through what you have.
 
You're absolutely right pal. While one smoke for the night that's in it doesn't hold much danger of me getting physically addicted again, it'd be much better for me to get some blues and just chill with a spliff or something, but unfortunately I cant get a hold of either substance so I'm a little cornered.

What I'm going to do is - if this guy doesn't get back in touch with me, then I wont bother contacting any of the several other contacts I have here and I'll just bare the night with some wine and bum a few drags of a spliff off someone there instead. I'll only stay for an hour or two at most anyway - I just have this...thing where I tend to ruminate over social situations for months after they occur, if I figure the social event didnt go as good as it should have.

Lets hope this chap doesnt call back anyway. Thanks for your comment anyway mate.


EDIT: Also, in the city center with a friend yesterday - decided to buy a few cans of special offer cider and head home for a few drinks in his. We had walked into town and all around it, and with heat as hot as it was we decided to crack open a can each in this city park/urban space area around the corner. People generally sit there to have a spliff and/or a can/coffe/cigarette or whatever without being bothered by the pork or public in general.

Girl makes eye-contact from about 30ft away, strolls over accompanied by four friends:


Girl: Sorry lads, but would one of you have a spare cigarette?
I: Unfortunately not miss, but I have some tobacco there if you can roll your own.
Girl: Oh could I? Cheers.
I: Yeah work away.
My friend: Whats that you've got around your neck, some kinda ID or something? Looks like a stage pass or something...
Girl: Yup. Thats what it is alright...some kinda ID for work. Thats work for you lads. Lads...you're both Princes. Go rule the world.
(Girl puts tobacco and papers back down beside me and stands up to walk off)
I: Oh thanks, take care.
Girl: Pfft, thanks he says...I take enough for a cigarette off him, and he thanks me.
I: Bye.


Turns out she works in a local phone shop, a shop which was actually just right around the corner from where we had our little chat. I might enquire about my contract during the week due; monday perhaps. I wasn't quite in top form during our conversation - what with still having slight symptoms of withdrawal. I will however, be in absolute top form come payday on Monday...and I think I'll pay her a visit :)
 
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Girl: Sorry lads, but would one of you have a spare cigarette?
I: Unfortunately not miss, but I have some tobacco there if you can roll your own.
Girl: Oh could I? Cheers.
I: Yeah work away.
My friend: Whats that you've got around your neck, some kinda ID or something? Looks like a stage pass or something...
Girl: Yup. Thats what it is alright...some kinda ID for work. Thats work for you lads. Lads...you're both Princes. Go rule the world.
(Girl puts tobacco and papers back down beside me and stands up to walk off)
I: Oh thanks, take care.
Girl: Pfft, thanks he says...I take enough for a cigarette off him, and he thanks me.
I: Bye.

What a strange conversation. Sounds to me like she was a total cow. It appears as though you thought she was being sound though, so it must have came across different in person.
 
Yeah seems to me like she was taking the piss out of you for thanking her when she should have been thanking you (for giving her a smoke).

If you need any tips on how to stalk her just ask Mugz, this is his territory.
 
Ha, no I actually realised how much of a bitch she was being - hence this being posted in the angry thread.

I really need to stop being so damn sarcastic.
 
I've only got myself to blame, but I'm still fucking angry and I need somewhere to rant!

These past few years I've got myself into a bit of a debt problem.

Two credit cards, a loan I used to pay off my credit cards once, and a whopping overdraft. It's all come to a head (read the bank won't up my overdraft anymore), and I just can't afford to keep paying so much interest and loan repayments. I've been stupid, spending silly money on drugs and holidays. I mean I live with my parents ffs.

Anyway came clean to mother bear, who was pretty pissed seeing as I make more money than either her or my dad, but she's taken out a 14k loan to repay it all (I'm obviously making the repayments) on the basis that I stop taking drugs (she wanted to send me a drug counsellor but I wasn't having any of that). If she catches me with any drugs whatsoever I'm out on my ear.

I'm fucking annoyed at myself, I'm gonna be tied to having to work overtime if I want any spare cash for the next two years, can't smoke weed (which I'm happy about tbh, I don't like to admit it but I have been psychologically addicted to the stuff for the past 5 years, and am just sick of what it's done to me. I'd hate to see what I'd be like if I was a heroin addict).

I suppose I've just gotta look at the positives, I've got a mum who cares, and in two years I'll be debt free, and ready to live my life.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!
 
Got in last night about 9 after doing revision and ran into a dude from across the block. Had a cig with him and told him I was going to bed because I had an exam early today. About 12am there's a knock on my patio door which woke me up, ignored it but was hungry so I got up and went to make food, just in time to find the guy from before stood in my fucking kitchen. I asked him what the fuck and he told me that he had knocked on my door and I'd ignored it so he'd just walked in because my housemates were still up and the front door was unlocked. Didn't even knock on it and there's no way to tell it's unlocked unless you try it. Then he's telling me he needs my dealer's numbers. Went fucking wild. He's done this before when I used to occasionally leave my patio door unlocked by accident as I'd go out there to smoke when everyone else was asleep. I'd hear him knock on the door and when I ignored it, he'd just walk in. Started locking the door after that but I'd still hear him try the door when I'd ignore the knock.

Fucking raging, housemates screamed at him and explained that he can't just do that and he has no idea what he's done wrong and just states we shouldn't ignore him knocking. I dunno if I'm being a dick or not but pretty sure I don't have an obligation to answer the door if I'm in bed/getting changed/just don't want company. Housemate wants to report him but I just wanna get this week done with without hassle.
 
^ Not on, not on at all. If you wanted to live in a commune you would. I've got a similar problem that was resolved by a padlock on the garden gate but you obviously don't have that option. You feel like you're under siege in the one place you should feel at liberty to be alone & undisturbed. Sympathies for having an asshole neighbour.
 
Best to have a really stern word with him yourself if you can bring yourself to and don't want to involve authorities, which you should hint at in said talk.

And lock all doors, always; people who have problems understanding boundaries which other people take for granted can potentially cause bigger problems than this. Not trying to put the wind up you, just seems like common sense.
 
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