Kind of wish there was a mega support thread as there are 8 posts on the first page alone dealing with people who are trying to get clean off heroin/painkillers/suboxone. I am myself, and felt weird about posting a new thread. I would say that opiates change your personality so drastically that you don't recognize yourself anymore. Sad thing is it seems in the past decade allot of addicts fell into addiction through injuries. I used to use heroin, but from my teens until my twenties I grew up knowing an addict and being so mad and repulsed at his downward spiral that I would had bet my life I would have never ended up like him. Then a botched surgery left me with a never ending script, which led to methadone, which led to me doing dope with him. Once you realize that it fixes emotional pain, in my opinion you're facing a lifelong struggle.