AngelsandFairiesarereal
Bluelighter
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Here you friend. Please be easy on yourself and so gentle with yourself … you’re doing the best you can for sure. I’ve kept up with your posts and I’m very proud of you.I relapsed on methadone after like 6 weeks off it guys.
I am in so much pain. Stabbing chest pain, can’t even swallow anymore. Doctors don’t know what the fuck is wrong and it will be a month before I see a specialist that will tell me nothing is wrong.
I know this is going to lead to a new set of problems but I suffered with this for one month straight barely sleeping . The first two weeks of the withdrawal were actually easiest because I didn’t have this lung and throat problem that was caused by smoking weed with my already damaged lungs 2 weeks into methadone cessation
I started aquring material for my suicide today….and that was just a sign that maybe I’m suffering too much to stick to NA and maybe methadone is the best option.
I’m about to try to lay down because I’m having a crappy pain night. But who knows if I’ll even be able to sleep … point is, reach out to me any time you need someone to talk to that understands.
I hope your kitty Jack is with you watching over you.
I’ll be keeping you in my good thoughts and holding on to hope for you. I hope you’re able to rest a little tonight.
Sending love, strength and solidarity
Gentle hug
