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Recovery The 2023 Recovery Thread

Jnowhere said:
Tokayeahok, find love while you are young, but be sure that addiction is past you, I fucked up what could have been.... That's not important. Age goes fast, and remember, never settle, unless she is rich.. just kidding.
If there is I thing I've learned, best to find true love while young. Middle aged divorcees with teenagers are not a good option...haha
Anyways, good luck and remember, a fat chick will only get fatter.
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yeah i agree… i wanna find my partner young so we can grow old, share youthful energy, go to shows & concerts, have a lot of energy and manifest a beautiful relationship.
 
since these expensive ass Br-NAD+ supplements come in today, i’ll be doing a daily report on them in this thread. still can’t believe my pal who runs that ket detox sent them over, so i’m well excited to try them. going on a little nature walk and then they should be here in the post by the time i get back
 
@tokayeahok

i wanna find my partner young so we can grow old, share youthful energy, go to shows & concerts, have a lot of energy and manifest a beautiful relationship.
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You can always find someone to fuck in the meantime?

Sex is therapeutic and a basic human need.

If you find yourself flirting with dating apps, I say follow that thread. See where it goes. Have some fun.
 
Frog Dreams said:
@tokayeahok



You can always find someone to fuck in the meantime?

Sex is therapeutic and a basic human need.

If you find yourself flirting with dating apps, I say follow that thread. See where it goes. Have some fun.
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yeah i don’t mind a fwb at all, im right there with you on how you view it. it’s a human need/desire and nothing wrong with chasing love, i suppose. inherently humans weren’t meant to be isolated at all
 
just got my back from my 2 mile walk. found a hunting trail that i followed for half of the walk that came out to a nice little creek & open area. it feels wonderful out today, sun is shining & the weather is quite cool here in south carolina
 
also my BR-NAD+ just got here. They also sent me 2 vials of sublingual CBD. One for clarity and the other for sleep. The BR-NAD+ tablets are citrus flavored & sublingual. I’ve been told to do 3 tablets, melt one at a time & swallow.

will be updating effects if any
 
Anthony6621 said:
+72 hours this is harder than shit. Not in a good place. Lethargy is crazy. I will keep it up. Thanks everyone. Keep it up. I took a your style kratom shot. Didn’t feel it but let me sleep. Hard to swallow lol.
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yeah man you’re right there at the hump. don’t stop now, or you’ll just have to suffer those first 3 days all over again from a day of relief. the math doesn’t math if you relapse. keep taking the kratom, it’ll alleviate about 40-50% of your symptoms today and tomorrow & up, it’ll help tremendously and you might just be able to get up for a walk or socialize with some people. keep at it, and good to hear you got some sleep.
 
BR-NAD+

Day 1 - 1200mg sublingual BR-NAD+
8g green maeng da kratom, 1800mg gabapentin staggered, 1.75ml CBD sublingual, 2000mg DLPA.

these results may be skewed, as before the BRNAD+ came in, i had taken all other things above.

+1hr of BR-NAD+ - no noticeable effects, sense of well-being heightened, energetic, focused
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+2hr - continued heighten focus, doing chores & enjoying the day. I believe i took too much of my CBD infusion as i’m feeling sorta high from the trace amounts of thc in the tincture.
+3hr to now - appetite isn’t super strong but ate some food, finished cleaning the house & just relaxing now. listening to music & thinking if i want to cook a big dinner tonight or not(def the THC causing my hunger rn)


cheers :)
 
Frog Dreams said:
Alcohol isn't more important to me than my family. If I can't drink responsibly after another year of sobriety, I will take another year off. :)
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That's the point I'm at. Tried sociable drinking but I'm too greedy with it still even altho it doesn't take half as much to get drunk after 2 and a half years sober. Family and my mental/physical health is more important though and although cravings have come back more frequently I know if I can get 2 years under my belt I can do it again...just have to want it enough and do today for tomorrow. I will say that it's shite having to miss out on social outings with friends etc or go and be craving my arse off for a "wee drink" - which it never ends up being (for me anyway!) I wish I could go to the pub and have a few and call it a day but the experiments over now and I need to stay off the booze again and I may want to try again in the future but not for at least another year. It's scares the life out of me the thought of going back to the alky life I used to live as it's really fucking grim....but I also can't stop blacking out when I'm having the odd drink at the weekend when I try so hard to control it... and when the thoughts of having a drink alone, at home to deal with how I'm feeling crept in again and became more frequent and bigger recently to the point I actually did a few times - I have been harshly reminded of the beast that I'm dealing with, I had forgotten how insidious cravings/denial etc can be - e.g. tries to tell me it's only a little drink etc but in reality it kills so many people and I could very easily be one of them if I don't fight it. I can easily give up and drink like a fish - it's that easy untill it's not. I know the cravings will get a bit easier again the more time I get under my belt again 🤞 I'll be 2 weeks on Friday 😊 My attitude regarding this before would be " I've went two weeks I've got control over this now I can take or leave it" - giving me even more of an excuse to treat myself or whatever cause I deserve it etc - but now I'm wise to the pattern i.e. it's almost impossible not to always overdo it and so it's just willing me on not to. I'll be with people Thursday and Saturday this week who will be drinking and there will be a bar wish me luck. Good luck to everyone in their recovery 💛
 
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Good luck @stardust10... and congratulations on coming up to 2 weeks!

Day 8 for me today. Today is feeling better than yesterday. I got a shitload of sleep (11 hours or so) and I can breathe properly.

I'm going to the pub on Friday. I always do. I did an entire year of not drinking, going to the pub every Friday night. Missed out last week due to COVID. This week is going to be hard, I suspect, because it's the first time I've been around alcohol since I quit.

I am the designated driver. This helps a lot.
 
Do they give free soft drinks to designated drivers were you are; some places around my area did( NO idea if they still do).
 
day 2 of Br-NAD+ supplementing - just woke up so i’ll just chat shit about how good i slept last night. i’m starting now to sleep in without waking up sneezing, i suppose my body is getting used to the kratom a lot more in terms of switching opiates. just sitting in a bubble bath waiting on my gabapentin to kick in, scrolling and replying to social media :) takes awhile for these NAD supplements to take effect only because they’re sublingual so you have to do one at a time, and do 3-4 of them 😭

we let our cats in last night since one of them has a cold and gave it TO EVERY OTHER CAT WE HAVE. so they’re all sneezing and have a cold as well. lmao picked up a little gig as a mix/master engineer for a song an artist made which is really nice 💕
 
Jnowhere said:
It is not 63 degrees in Detroit, or 71 in my house, I'm freezing. Maybe I am dying And can't stay warm, not that lucky.
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yeah i feel like detroit has snow on the ground lmao. i know my family has snow in minnesota
 
Jnowhere said:
It is not 63 degrees in Detroit, or 71 in my house, I'm freezing. Maybe I am dying And can't stay warm, not that lucky.
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It's getting cold now. But I am glad that the heat is gone it was (demising me) this year !

edit: I was real sick this summer and I think the heat was making me sick along with everything else that was. maybe gabapentin. maybe who knows.
 
day 2 br-nad+

i won’t go into an hourly trip report esque thing today but i will say how i feel.

+ kratom, gabapentin, CBD tincture

i’ve felt pretty good today. very baseline & normal. i’m sitting here in the recliner having coffee and just patiently doomscrolling for the time being, as i have a meeting to attend in 3 hours. usually this anhedonia would be crippling me as it does in the early evening/midday-ish but i feel very content. anhedonic still, but i’m okay with it. logically i would like to think that the supplements surely couldn’t help this much, but to no avail there are, i think. my body just feels okay for once. without too much effort. sure, the kratom, gabapentin, & cbd + light exercise is contributing but usually, as a bipolar individual, my mania crashed around this time and i feel very depressy but i’m holding up okay.

will report back tomorrow in regards to the br-nad+.
 
+110 hours almost 5 days tonight. Feeling better but still feel like shit and weak. Hopefully I can feel the kratom more. Is that how you always prep it. Dry shot in the mouth and drink juice. It works for me and it helps. Hopefully the future really alleviate and helps my body. If I don’t get better at day 7 I will take a sub strip. If I’m not good for 9 days I won’t let work kill me and my progress. Thanks everyone keep it up as I’m hanging in there to make this possible. This is hell but hopefully theirs light at the tunnel soon.
 
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