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BadBoy377 said:
I read up on the BR-NAD supplements when you mentioned them before. I'd never heard of them. Let us know how you get on.
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yeah man i planned on doing a 2 week analysis of how it works out for me. I think he’s sending me some other stuff, possibly ketamine? not too sure. but i’ve got 4 bottles of it so i’ll be doing reports each day of how it makes me feel, addresses any leftover withdrawal symptoms i have, and overall/generalized effects from it.
 
Almost caved and scored today but I didn’t - isn’t that awesome. It’s been a rough day, just woke up from a nap and my cravings have been wild all day today. I have quite a few kitties i take care of and i found one of the 2 month old kittens dead on my back porch today..I’ve been eating too much and i’ve got body dysmorphia and i’m scared i’m going to get fat. The gabapentin is going to make me gain weight if i don’t get myself under control here soon. I’m really thin and my self esteem is really good and i’d like to keep it that way. I wish the kratom was effective at breaking through some of my cravings because i really had to sit and center myself in regards of fighting them away. i went and took a 3 hour nap after laying in bed with my blackout curtains closed and it just sucked.


i did happen to make some delicious spicy sweet cornbread, so i’m gunna call my granny and tell her about that, she’ll be delighted as that’s one of her favorite foods.


but yeah it’s been a hard day. just double dosed my kratom since i woke up from my nap and am sitting in the bath and having coffee. these days from 10-13 are always when i relapse because i know i’ll catch the noddies again & be able to seamlessly handle any flaws i have mentally for a day

<3

jon
 
Well relapsed on the weekend after a massive argument with someone.

Also got a pretty nasty kicking randomly walking through a bad area. Burst face and the fucker stamped on my hand.

Back both sober and exercising already. Trying not to dwell on things.
 
elgoucho9 said:
Well relapsed on the weekend after a massive argument with someone.

Also got a pretty nasty kicking randomly walking through a bad area. Burst face and the fucker stamped on my hand.

Back both sober and exercising already. Trying not to dwell on things.
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holy fuck, are you okay? well done to be able to just slag off being jumped but fuck man, make sure you rest. just remember it’s not a relapse, it’s a lapse in recovery. <3
 
Got fucking long COVID now, I think. Still can't breathe properly.

Every time I go completely sober, something happens that gives me an excuse to relapse... but, I'm not going to do that.

Getting high is not going to help.

EDIT: I really want a pint right now.
 
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tokayeahok said:
Almost caved and scored today but I didn’t - isn’t that awesome. It’s been a rough day, just woke up from a nap and my cravings have been wild all day today. I have quite a few kitties i take care of and i found one of the 2 month old kittens dead on my back porch today..I’ve been eating too much and i’ve got body dysmorphia and i’m scared i’m going to get fat. The gabapentin is going to make me gain weight if i don’t get myself under control here soon. I’m really thin and my self esteem is really good and i’d like to keep it that way. I wish the kratom was effective at breaking through some of my cravings because i really had to sit and center myself in regards of fighting them away. i went and took a 3 hour nap after laying in bed with my blackout curtains closed and it just sucked.


i did happen to make some delicious spicy sweet cornbread, so i’m gunna call my granny and tell her about that, she’ll be delighted as that’s one of her favorite foods.


but yeah it’s been a hard day. just double dosed my kratom since i woke up from my nap and am sitting in the bath and having coffee. these days from 10-13 are always when i relapse because i know i’ll catch the noddies again & be able to seamlessly handle any flaws i have mentally for a day

<3

jon
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Sorry to hear about the kitten :( Very sad. The BR-NAD sounds good! I've found some in tablet form on iherb. Will definitely try it some time! Good work not scoring! That's one of the biggest hurdles to sobriety. The more you say no the easier it will get and you will feel better and better.

PS Have you guys ever heard of naltrexone? It's used off-label for meth addiction (to some extent it works) but I was wondering if anyone's had any positive results using it for opiate withdrawals?

Anyway stay safe everyone and good work!
 
Elgoucho9, Shit the Uk is violent, here people have guns and might die if they attacked someone. Almost got in a fight last week after some #$%%^ hey I just got off being banned followed me and accused me of talking on my cell phone. I don't talk on my phone and drive and said you want a piece off me mother$&%<%$, he didn't dare get out of his car. I was unarmed but would beaten that little worm shitless, but things like that are rare, he followed me and helooked like some 50 something liberal nerd in a piece of shit car. If he had a gun and followed me he be in be trouble if he, I could shot him but don't got a carry permit, so I leave them home, besides I don't ever, no matter how many guns I have want to ever kill anyone. I don't fire warning shots. But he left and I was deprived of kicking his sorry ass. Violence is not very common in the suburbs, to what end, and I didn't talk, what a jack ass, I swerved a little, looking for a tobacco shop and suddenly this little worm is here to enforce some new cell phone law, that I didn't violate.
 
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Anthony 6621, I hope you are staying strong. Fent is quite the killer, and from all I have heard, horrible to quit. I hope you have some comfort meds, I got off morphine recently, but that ain't nearly as hard. Benzos, gabapentin, clonidine(heart med my doctor gave me when I told him no more morphine) and Kratom made it fairly easy, but fent is 50-100 times stronger. Hang in there, think of the money and your life, you'll save.
 
thatmf said:
Sorry to hear about the kitten :( Very sad. The BR-NAD sounds good! I've found some in tablet form on iherb. Will definitely try it some time! Good work not scoring! That's one of the biggest hurdles to sobriety. The more you say no the easier it will get and you will feel better and better.

PS Have you guys ever heard of naltrexone? It's used off-label for meth addiction (to some extent it works) but I was wondering if anyone's had any positive results using it for opiate withdrawals?

Anyway stay safe everyone and good work!
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please do not use naltrexone for acute withdrawals. don’t take it unless you’re even 14 days clean or further out, it’s an opioid antagonist so it’ll rock your shit for a few days and you’ll 100% end up relapsing, because of the precipitated withdrawal!

my mum takes it for alcoholism and i know a few people who take it for opiate use disorder. can be a good medication just don’t ever try to take it in the acute phase
 
woke up sneezing a lot(still sneezing like fuck even though i’m 2 weeks clean now, more so just when i wake up before i take my kratom dose). took my kratom and had my keurig set up from the night before so i could just press the button. sitting in a bath listening to one of my favorite musicians, checking up on social media and scrolling tinder. (LOL). it’s a very dumb idea to look for a relationship, online, being 27 years old & isolated without a vehicle in the middle of nowhere. id be more so a burden than anything else, but i guess i’m human & just pining for conversation and dopamine. the sun is starting to peek out, and i’ve got a few chores to do today.
 
Tokayeahok, find love while you are young, but be sure that addiction is past you, I fucked up what could have been.... That's not important. Age goes fast, and remember, never settle, unless she is rich.. just kidding.
If there is I thing I've learned, best to find true love while young. Middle aged divorcees with teenagers are not a good option...haha
Anyways, good luck and remember, a fat chick will only get fatter.
 
Jnowhere said:
So, Frog dreams, you are staying sober? really, if so, great!
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I'm doing another year off alcohol. I was in denial (again) about the harm it was doing me. Pretty sure excessive alcohol consumption is why I almost died from COVID last week. Every time I drank, I couldn't breathe and had chest pain, etc. Made me realize how harmful large amounts of alcohol are for my body. Also, my relationship will collapse if I continue to drink. My domestic situation isn't stable enough to drink alcohol at the moment.

As for drugs, I'm also doing a two week detox from all drugs leading up to my next 5-meo-DMT ceremony... and I'm planning on doing a detox after the ceremony as well. This is what they (facilitators) suggest we do and I've completely ignored their advice for the first four ceremonies (five, including an ayahuasca ceremony).

I will most likely start consuming psychedelics again in a month or so, but I'm - permanently - done with benzos, opiates, research chemicals, amphetamines (including MDMA), dissociatives, etc.

Tomorrow will be 50 days with no amphetamines which is at least a 3-year record for me. Maybe 6 years. I dunno. My life is a bit of a blur.

Last time I took a year off drinking (June 2022-June 2023) because I put my foot through a door and (again) my relationship was on the verge of collapsing.

Alcohol isn't more important to me than my family. If I can't drink responsibly after another year of sobriety, I will take another year off. :)
 
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