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Jnowhere said:
Elgoucho9, you have your thread back
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Wasn't meant like that at all, literally just asked can you edit post instead of posting 3x in a row 5 minutes apart. That and i asked super politely for you to show some forum etiquette, and you just did the exact same thing again today. Then deleted them all and had a dig at me.

Like i said the first time no offence was meant. Just i like to keep up with this thread and how everyone is doing, but that becomes hard when someone starts posting like it's a whatsapp conversation rather than a forum, then other users go quiet. Also you've got more chance of getting people to reply to one post.

It's not my thread, it's everyone's thread. That was kind of my point. Anyway i'll say again apologies as i meant to offence and i hope you and everyone else here are all keeping well.

Edit: i see you've deleted all posts in the entire thread. Feel bad i even said anything now lol :S
 
I am not in my right mind, I have a lot is going on and my mind and have many issues including withdrawals, mourning, and many other issues that I had thrown at me in short period of time. I am not pointing the finger at you at all. But I apologize for "poor etiquette" but I am not the only one.
 
Jnowhere said:
Is this thread dead, cause I wanted to know if Kratom has a bad side
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I can't speak from experience but I have heard some horror stories. I wouldn't want to develop a kratom addiction personally. Maybe someone else can share their 2c. Or you can search through the forums, there's plenty of kratom threads around :)

Edit: It's useful for opiod addiction. I have never used it however.
 
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Jnowhere said:
Is this thread dead, cause I wanted to know if Kratom has a bad side
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I don't know much about Kratom to be honest but I believe being a stimulant it's bound to have some downsides. Maybe try search function on here and you will find what your looking for, I had a brief look, and it is addictive appatently at least.



I decided to try and quit smoking weed today. Been smoking trim for ages and just got sick of it i guess. That and i feel like it's time to double down and try my hardest to be in control of whatever drugs i'm using, work on myself and my health. I will probavly fail miserably with the weed but can only try, i figure after the DUI i picked up from cocaine a couple months back i'll be more likely to get swabbed, so actively trying to cut it out might go a long way in my favour with court to show a few clean drugs tests.

I'm 6 days after my last slight relapse into things. Before that was like a month clear. Been clean of h completely still. I think cutting ties with the local drugs scene and ditching social media will hopefully help me from slipping again this time, as my last relapse happened when i tried to score pharmas in my local area.
 
Yea, I do not know where you live, but I got my 1 and only DUI and besides a suspended license and a fine those assholes made me take random piss tests early in the morning. I would have. To call this number to see if I had to go (seriously no pun intended) and pay $25 and piss in a cup 1 or 2 times a week, luckily my dad worked early. You took my license and Detroit area has the worst public transportation system of any major US metropolitan area. And I gotta go 12 miles each way and I have a fairly narrow window of time, I was good so after about 9 months they let me off probation and piss tests.
Careful if you fail they might not tell you, so they can see if they can charge multiple times to fuck your life up more. Bastards
 
Hey hey hey. Not now I have a headache. Just kidding. Now I have to deal with headaches a lot of times. Right now at least I know every time I go out in the direct sunlight it can be bad and trigger a definite headache. I know it's most likely because I didn't have my sunglasses on. Because they are bent. Or a hat. But the sun is real bright now and the leaves are falling.

I don't know um I have to heal soon or it will probably lead to a brain tumor or something bad. More injury. Spell check gave me that idea because it suggested injury and I was thinking tumor. Sometimes I feel like I might have had a stroke in my brain from when I had a real bad series of Cluster Headaches. Which could be a coincidence but was at the same time however. I went through opioid and benzo problems.

Anyway now I am to the point. Oh yes I am. Where baby aspirin is more comforting and relaxing than a gabapentin will ever be. It can help me fall asleep within minutes and with a cool wash cloth can be like a miracle and critical help and just for a natural relaxation remedy. Just don't take too much. That's the abuse.

Wow. I can't believe a baby aspirin can do all of that and all of this other junk just causes nothing but trouble. But not so with all of the other substances just causing toxic contamination. Just plain baby aspirin and water. But all of the other toxic substances have to be cleaned out first. The ones that seem to linger on forever . . . or for a long duration that's for sure.


Right now I am pretty much drug clean. And my opinion for my own personal self regarding KRATOM is that it is basically the same as gabapentin except more natural because it is from a plant. Lol. But I don't like it because it is icky and harsh to digest.

Gabapentin for me is more of a dissociate and a way of tripping compared to kratom. I mean I get really messed up on gabapentin. It's not a clean feeling at all. It is just all over the place instead. Not like opioids that used to take away all of my pain and had helped me function well in life. And happen to be from a plant too just like the Kratom is.

The more natural, and the less I have to depend on any kind of substance, without having it to be in control of me, the better off I feel. This is just what I feel, however. JMO.


TLDR: Hey hey hey. Not now I have a headache. Just kidding. Now I have to deal with headaches a lot of times. Right now at least I know every time I go out in the direct sunlight it can be bad and trigger a definite headache. Now it's headaches. I know it's most likely because I didn't have my sunglasses on. Because they are bent. Or a hat. But the sun is real bright now and the leaves are falling.
Note to self:
Take two baby aspirins and whole milk !! It works wonders. Cold wash cloth and darkness. Luscious. Relax and say prayers whenever possible. Oh Please Gawd. ;)


❤️‍🔥
 
I'm still here doing my thing. It's been 6.5 mths since I walked off methadone. Life's alright. Days are up and down. Still smoking pot everyday. I have been drinking 1-2 12oz beers every day but I have also had a few binge days of 4,5,6 and one day I went nuts with these 8% vodka mixed drinks and seltzers. I added it all up and I had 12 standard drinks. I felt rotten the next day..... ughhhh.... never again.

Been remodeling a house for this commercial pilot which has been nice to earn some decent scratch. I'd say I'm living the dream but things are still a bit tough and I need to expand my horizons more.

Hope everyone is doing well ❤️‍🩹

I'm here @Jnowhere. I'm fairly knowledgeable on all things addictive and recovery there from. What questions ya got?
 
There is no @Jnowhere just a recovery thread started by Ds and monitored by Nurse Rachet and Ds, I just posted alot, got yelled at and took my posts down, I was sad to see the thread diminished and maybe you should take an active role on this thread. Those 8% or higher drinks will definitely mess you up. If you are knowledgeable on addiction maybe you can help answer questions(I am being serious) There are a lot of people who need answers on addiction, and I don't have many to give.
 
Jnowhere said:
There is no @Jnowhere just a recovery thread started by Ds and monitored by Nurse Rachet and Ds, I just posted alot, got yelled at and took my posts down, I was sad to see the thread diminished and maybe you should take an active role on this thread. Those 8% or higher drinks will definitely mess you up. If you are knowledgeable on addiction maybe you can help answer questions(I am being serious) There are a lot of people who need answers on addiction, and I don't have many to give.
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You're right and honestly I felt bad reading your posts that Im not more active in the recovery forum. I guess I just feel that I have so much further to go in recovery so I couldn't help much more than with withdrawal. Longest time I have ever had totally clean was only just over a year.

Sorry you felt yelled at. I think you may have taken what he said wrong. I don't think he meant to be malicious. He was simply pointing out that the thread is easier to follow when multiple, back to back posts are formated into one post.

Someone in another thread had a long block of texts and I just told him that he should break it up into paragraphs so it's easier to read and he'll get more responses. It's just tips to improve forum discourse
 
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It is great to see you here. I am hoping that this thread can help people, just as it helped me through a tough issue. I wish you all the best and pray and hope that enough people who are knowledgeable in addiction issues will help people in need. I have been told not to do something I didn't write. If you don't see me for a few days, it is probably because I pissed off someone with power. Anyways I hope you can be strong, I am struggling with issues but I am really using restraint now when it comes to pills. I am free of one of them. I really need to figure out what to do about the other 2, They help but they got a hold on me.
 
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Unfortunately I guit morphine after many years and used the other two too quit, don't use any but small amount of gabapentin, so when I take piss test my doctor will know I ain't wasting them.
 
Jnowhere said:
Unfortunately I guit morphine after many years and used the other two too quit, don't use any but small amount of gabapentin, so when I take piss test my doctor will know I ain't wasting them.
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Most likely to be the morphine then surely mate.

I went cold turkey off H when i quit. Every bone in my body ached for a few days but i forced myself back into exercise and eating properly and it got better. Opiate withdrawals are hell but in general i think they only usually last for 3 days or so, just try and force yourself to do things which will benefit you overall is my only advice, and be prepared to feel shit for a short while. All the best and i hope your symptoms pass quickly.
 
^^^ Remember you can try the taper taper, and it is the more better caper !!!

Just try to make it as easy peasy lemony squeazy. You might just have to make some lemon-aid.

And that vitamin C will be a great boost too.

I am so sorry that you are going through your tough times. No one really seems to get a free ticket on our way.

You are going to be alright because it's what we all have to do. Take care and be a friend. The sun will shine at
times.

Smile and remember that lemons grow on trees. I hope your days get better as soon as they can !!
 
Jnowhere said:
This sucks I have withdrawals but from what I don't know it could be gabapentin, morphine or kratom?
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Yes, that's how it usually goes with the poly substance use . It is hard to see clear when they cloudy it all up together.

But it really does help to try to find comfort. 👍💕

Just if you do and try to be fine I just wanted to say hello. :\🌻
 
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