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Recovery The 2023 Recovery Thread

I;m done. I;m sleeping all day tomorrow. I have to. Yeah I'm in bad pain. What's that icy hot and I think Caspian cream might be around.

Oh well at least I took some nearotton. Thank you very much.
 
Was going to stay totally drug free today but then my guy called because he has some work he wants me to do to his house so I went to check it out and he gave me some cannabis but to be honest cannabis doesn't seem to be doing very much for me lately.

How is everybody else doing? I can't wait to get some kava.
 
ugh….


on about a gram of cocaine now. have 6 2mg bars in my dart pack and might be going to a rave rn.


dunno how to feel tbh.

much luv. will write tomorrow when i wake
 
tokayeahok said:
ugh….


on about a gram of cocaine now. have 6 2mg bars in my dart pack and might be going to a rave rn.


dunno how to feel tbh.

much luv. will write tomorrow when i wake
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Be safe brother. Have fun but watchout for those uppers because they can drive you back to the fetty. Also try not to take too much Xanax for obvious reasons. I would leave most of those bars at home.

Hope you have a blast. Ttyt
 
somnilicious said:
Be safe brother. Have fun but watchout for those uppers because they can drive you back to the fetty. Also try not to take too much Xanax for obvious reasons. I would leave most of those bars at home.

Hope you have a blast. Ttyt
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i only used 1 bar for the comedown and it worked like a charm. it was fire blow too but like, with fire blow cokes fire crashes. and i felt so sad and dysphoric when i came down. then they wanted to go to another underground show and it was already 12:30, like.. i go to bed at 9:30 and wake at 5, so i got upset it messing with my routine. i told my best friend that hey dude it’s way past my bedtime. let’s go home man. it was an hour drive home anyways, and luckily my girls house was on the way home so i got him to drop me off there, and the bar hit me and i had the post coke sleepiness anyways and slept like a baby, and she brought me home this morning. i’m okay though and we tested our coke for fentanyl with a reagant kit i brought
 
tokayeahok said:
i only used 1 bar for the comedown and it worked like a charm. it was fire blow too but like, with fire blow cokes fire crashes. and i felt so sad and dysphoric when i came down. then they wanted to go to another underground show and it was already 12:30, like.. i go to bed at 9:30 and wake at 5, so i got upset it messing with my routine. i told my best friend that hey dude it’s way past my bedtime. let’s go home man. it was an hour drive home anyways, and luckily my girls house was on the way home so i got him to drop me off there, and the bar hit me and i had the post coke sleepiness anyways and slept like a baby, and she brought me home this morning. i’m okay though and we tested our coke for fentanyl with a reagant kit i brought
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I'm so happy to hear that. Routine and sleep are so important to early recovery. I always hated those moments when I was trying to stay clean and I wound up getting caught up in uncomfortable situations because it usually made me want to use so it's probably a good thing you got dropped off. That Xanax would have kicked in at the venue and you would have probably wound up doing more drugs.

You sound like you're doing well. Glad things worked out.

Still just smoking pot. I've been smoking from a half to a gram a day with multi day breaks. I had a bit of a drinking binge with a buddy for a few days. Haven't had a drink in 2 days though so I'm happy about that.
 
struggling today, haven’t been going to my meetings.

yesterday i took the rest of the xanax, ended up reusing some opiates because my mother got drunk and abusive, and split up with my girlfriend(which had been long overdue but i didn’t want to hurt her, i knew she cared about me). so the combination of those things and also seeing my dads side of the family just made me incredibly emotional so i ended up using. no binges as it was just a one time thing yesterday but im taking today easy in bed & watching movies.

cheers.
 
still recovering from that binge. i’m not taking that away from my clean time, so fuck that shit. telling myself i’m back to square one isn’t going to help me one bit. i’m not at square one. i didn’t use enough to go through withdrawals(although there is a bit of kindling so i can’t say i’m feeling the best but nothing bad. not all the wheels of the car fell off yanno?

we move
 
tokayeahok said:
still recovering from that binge. i’m not taking that away from my clean time, so fuck that shit. telling myself i’m back to square one isn’t going to help me one bit. i’m not at square one. i didn’t use enough to go through withdrawals(although there is a bit of kindling so i can’t say i’m feeling the best but nothing bad. not all the wheels of the car fell off yanno?

we move
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You are Sparkling. And you are doing really good !

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tokayeahok said:
still recovering from that binge. i’m not taking that away from my clean time, so fuck that shit. telling myself i’m back to square one isn’t going to help me one bit. i’m not at square one. i didn’t use enough to go through withdrawals(although there is a bit of kindling so i can’t say i’m feeling the best but nothing bad. not all the wheels of the car fell off yanno?

we move
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Yeah.... It doesn't really do any good to strictly count clean time. Especially starting over after a one day lapse. I had 2 different days I took methadone but when the 19th comes I'm still counting that as 4mths. That's when my healing began and I didn't taper so those 2 uses were just me trying to muddle my way through the recovery process.

I didn't know they made 2L bottles of Texas Pete...lol

I grew a bunch of peppers and then cut them up and pickled them. They're delicious as toppings.

I'm completely sober today. I have no pot or money and I drank a lot last night so I refuse to do that again.

I had some work today and probably for the next week and a half. I'll probably make a couple of grand which I desperately need so I'm stoked. I can't wait to get payed. There's so much yummy food I want to eat.
 
somnilicious said:
Yeah.... It doesn't really do any good to strictly count clean time. Especially starting over after a one day lapse. I had 2 different days I took methadone but when the 19th comes I'm still counting that as 4mths. That's when my healing began and I didn't taper so those 2 uses were just me trying to muddle my way through the recovery process.

I didn't know they made 2L bottles of Texas Pete...lol

I grew a bunch of peppers and then cut them up and pickled them. They're delicious as toppings.

I'm completely sober today. I have no pot or money and I drank a lot last night so I refuse to do that again.

I had some work today and probably for the next week and a half. I'll probably make a couple of grand which I desperately need so I'm stoked. I can't wait to get payed. There's so much yummy food I want to eat.
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dude fuck yeah. proud of you man
 
Another day😊.... Took 30mics of LSD and had some coffee. I'm feeling absolutely fantastic and on point but then I found out I'm not working today and that we might need to back out of the job because it involves too much ironwork so now I'm bouncing off the walls with nothing much to do....lol. Going to start microdosing more often now

How has everybody else been the past few days?
 
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