Kellsee
Bluelighter
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Why? That church doesnt have any influence on the nature of those flames.Just hope I won't erupt in flames stepping into church here in Alabama.
Thats what grace is for.


Why? That church doesnt have any influence on the nature of those flames.Just hope I won't erupt in flames stepping into church here in Alabama.
I found good quality chelated blend magnesium glycinate, MSM and some liquid chlorophyll drops 50% off at walmart tuesday.I'm at Wally world, might pick up a B complex vitamin.
My multivitamin has b12 and thiamine, but not the others.
Speak in tongues, while handling poisonous snakes and casting out demons. You know.... Doing the Lord's work.What u do in church?
At least you were busy, how’s your day going?Day 2 of no alcohol.
Woke up feeling like shit, today will be even more shit. Have to go out and work on getting the paperwork for an ID which is 2 separate government buildings, have to take dog to vet, have to take car to shop, cleaned and detailed, more shit to wash, all while I'm like going through alcohol WDs.
I just want to lay in bed, and sadly that won't happen.
I've been having to do that. I get so much anxiety and the aches and pains set in about 48 hours after not drinking and it's gotten scary. I mean so scary I start looking up symptoms and checking my pulse. It's crazy. I'd just walk away scared sober at this point if I didn't fear the withdrawal. I realize it's just withdrawal when I take a drink and everything calls down but my gut is wrecked. Almost went full panick mode one time but I talked myself out of it by rationalizing with myself. A strange argument to have with one's self. At this point there is no doubt in done with it but it's not done with me. I'm trying to taper off. It's going good so far. One less Oz per day but yesterday even cutting down that far costed me more insomnia and nightmares. One nightmare was me dying in bed. That sucked even waking up to! Alcohol withdrawals are no joke. I'm scared not to keep tapering but I need to be more precise with it. It's a goddamn demon!I've tapered down to 10-11 units. I didn't drink the other day and only had mild withdrawals.
Progress!
I'm being scared sober.I've been having to do that. I get so much anxiety and the aches and pains set in about 48 hours after not drinking and it's gotten scary. I mean so scary I start looking up symptoms and checking my pulse. It's crazy. I'd just walk away scared sober at this point if I didn't fear the withdrawal. I realize it's just withdrawal when I take a drink and everything calls down but my gut is wrecked. Almost went full panick mode one time but I talked myself out of it by rationalizing with myself. A strange argument to have with one's self. At this point there is no doubt in done with it but it's not done with me. I'm trying to taper off. It's going good so far. One less Oz per day but yesterday even cutting down that far costed me more insomnia and nightmares. One nightmare was me dying in bed. That sucked even waking up to! Alcohol withdrawals are no joke. I'm scared not to keep tapering but I need to be more precise with it. It's a goddamn demon!
@AbbeyLee popular post on reddit today about how someone shared they were just out of the hospital for DTs/alcohol psychosis and their next post was from the bar gettting drunk.
This post was labeled as "cringey" when in reality 95% of them don't understand.
It's sad, it's frustrating, but it's not cringey like some fucking half assed meme.
In a world of disease and mental disorder acceptance alcohol gets completely ignored and treated differently.